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Hi, I'm new here (stating the obvious) and well, bluelight site seems really cool and gives me a little hope -full blown addiction can be lonely behind all the secrets, it will be nice to be open and hear what others have to say. Im a long time heroin and meth addict who stopped the ty 4 days go, so far im coping but im using a lot of pharmaceuticals which helps. I havent slept in a few days so i'll stop there before I say something odd...or more odd... happy day/night to everyone :) L
 
Hi there. Im having a tough time of it at the moment as im on a two week detox but this site has been fantastic and when i start to crumble the
Supports there for u. Alot ov us r scared ov failing but do what i do if it helps and come on here. Then scream lol. Sending all the good luck i can find for u. Janie
 
Hello there I to am terrified of the inevitable fact that as a meth and morphine "needle junkie" it's has been statistically proven that I will use again. 95 times more likely. I've been clean off everything but weed for 18 months now. Keep your head up it does get better.

I too am on Pharmaceuticals and not just the" good time" ones. I'm a lower class American financially speaking. I have been going to a pill pusher since 2003. I was dual ddx severely depressed and anxious. So she puts me on lexapro and clonazepam. My anxiety was and always has been controlled by the benzos at different times. Opiates worked great for both DdX's 10yrs later I got fed up switched drs and they diagnosed me as ADHD. It's not working either I am so Fucking tired of this worthless feeling. I found myself not sure if I have good feelings about anything
 
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in the same situation man, i been keeping a journal last 10 months that is over 20 pages long now from 6-7 attempts at quitting over 10 months. but this time im gonna try and go online and interact with other opiate fiends.
kratom/loperamide/weed/dxm/magnesium/potassium/tylenol 1's sure does help but its always fucking there, lingering in the background. im only at 36 hours right now
 
Hi there all. Ive been watching from the sidelines in this forum for the past couple of months and this place has been a large amount of help. The important thing to remember is that we should not look at statistics when trying to rationalize our behavior, i.e my parents were alcoholic, therefore theres a large chance I will be, therefore providing a 'reason' to fudge up.
 
Surround yourself with positive people . Stay true to your beliefs never let another person influence you . You create and make your own reality . Ull never know what's possible if u don't try !:) and the number one thing to keep in mind love yourself then love everyone around you cause your wishes and prayers do get awnserd just gotta find out where ur hiding them from your self !
 
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