This brings back memories
The Bluelight I joined? It was a random place on the interweb where I could spout shit.
As time progressed and my responsibilities here grew, the spontaneous sense of fun departed bit by bit. Often I fucked up in those responsibilities, but I was off my head pretty much all the time, so that's no surprise.
I'll never forget the friends I made here. The Bluelight I joined was one that was building within the Perth rave scene before everyone was raided. We had an *extremely* tight knit group of friends. I still keep up with them, and even talked to one today *waves to Miss Flea*.
Things did change, as everything does.
I remember picking vBulletin as the replacement for the old forum software , ditching the wwwthreads (I think that was the name) that they had paid for at the time.
I remember having a party with Bluelighters like Psychokitten and Mr Fluffy at my place at the same time that the old forum was turning into the new forum on a PC in a back room at my place (and the state that I was in at the time was pretty fitting). I think I was the one that picked this template too, but don't quote me on that,
I remember the shitfights for power that Catch-22 started (and continued) that basically ripped the entire staff apart. Why anyone would try to be admin on this site without using anything is beyond me, but is probably a good indication that he was just after "power" as he saw it. I remember deliberately stalling (not sabotaging) development work on the site so that people wouldn't be dumped unceremoniously.
I remember drugs leading to pretty much a personality meltdown, the intensity of which was in direct proportion to my popularity on here.
I remember doing some nasty and bad things. I remember seeing some fucked up things.
And the thing that weirds me out is that all of these things make the Bluelight of today what it is. And I am just one of thousands of members. I am not special. I am not unique. This is a beast with many heads.
New Bluelighters: enjoy the site. You walk these forums on the bones of many ghosts.
Miss the old days guys. Miss the times when I was new here. After that it got a bit much. Thanks for all the fish.