ConeyIslandBaby
Ex-Bluelighter
Any successful chippers out there? Tell me your tales of being able to successfully being able to use opiates occasionally and not form a regular every day habit.
I've never become addicted, even when I'd snort a bunch of M30's every day for a month or two, that was over ten years ago, but everybody else would be sick when we ran out for the month (huge bottles from Florida when you could go there and get filled for like 1,000 30's at a time)Any successful chippers out there? Tell me your tales of being able to successfully being able to use opiates occasionally and not form a regular every day habit.
I posted this here before, but I think I'm in the very rare group of people that don't get addicted to opioids. As said above, I've abused 30's and 80's for months at a time, and I've been in some bad accidents that took months to heal, and never had a problem stopping
which maybe has more to do with just getting older tbh
Sorry! Thank you!Yes, it will be a great Drug Culture thread so I am going to move it over there.
We sound like we have similar pasts, though I never went on methadone because I was pretty sure I would use on top of it and probably overdose. Do you like tramadol? I never found it to be much fun. Lol to 'cold outside, need warming up!"I was, for a fair amount of time, hopelessly addicted to opioids, once even developing a full-blown IV fentanyl habit ontop of my 380mg/day methadone maintenance consumption.
I've long wrestled my way out of that conundrum and have a few run-ins since then of varying degrees, but never a fraction as bad as where I was once.
"Chipping" for me is difficult, yet it I always do it to some degree. But I have never gotten good at it. For instance, recently I hadn't taken any opioids since September of this year (after I ran out of the poppies I grew), but not long ago I ordered a measly 500mg of O-DSMT, which for me is enough for only 3 moderate doses, or 2 strong doses (and if I wanted to, I could polish it all off through the course of a day). When I ordered it I told myself it was mainly for Christmas day, since I have to go to my girlfriend's family's house that day and I figured I would anesthetize myself to make it more pleasant (I've done this a few times before going over there, arriving with my eyes half open, pinned pupils, scratching my face etc).
But the thing is, ever since I got the o-desmethyltramadol I've been finding random excuses to take it prematurely, and I'm not so sure it will make it till Christmas. Hell, even earlier today, I was thinking about taking some this evening before taking my girlfriend to get a Christmas tree with my excuse being, "it's going to be cold out and the O-DSMT will warm me up".
So yeah chipping is hard. Additionally, even though I am mostly able to avoid developing a habit, even occasional use has a price tag. Given my extensive history of seriously fucking with my endogenous opioid system, a day or two of opioid use will leave me feel vaguely depressed for a while after, with reduced appetite and disrupted sleep.
We sound like we have similar pasts, though I never went on methadone because I was pretty sure I would use on top of it and probably overdose. Do you like tramadol? I never found it to be much fun. Lol to 'cold outside, need warming up!"
II have been using morphine without being addicted to it now for about 3 and a half years. i only get 30 30mg pills a month so its not enough to become addicted to
Sorry...Im really quite high and distracted. x HUGWell…. I am sitting here high as mofo hell and listening to Jordan Peterson on YouTube
If you know how amazing articulate, empathetic and intelligent this man is you will know what I mean. I’m Sapio sexual so I love shit like this. I am like that song you listen to that’s just profound to your experience. It’s not just a simple melody or attractive because of its sound. It’s actually a emotional journey. No this isn’t happiness. It might even be painful at first. It has to in order to go so deep. Happiness would be like elevator music. It’s harmless but can be tricky. It’s sweet but simple. It lacks depth because it’s shallow. That’s just not me. I might be exhausting but that’s because it’s what makes us all grow. Growth can only happen if we become uncomfortable first. You don’t know how strong you are until it’s your only option. As humans we are built to be walking uphill. God knows what He doing. Might be good if we really listened to Him.
Me tooSorry...Im really quite high and distracted. x HUG