I am just about to cease using oxycodone, 30 mg, every 4 hours. I have been using it legitimately for nine months. However, on the numeric pain scale, my pain is now only 2-3/10 whereas when I first was prescribed such a large dose it was easily 8-9/10 tried going cold turkey once...never again!!! The withdrawal is absolute, and TRUE torture! My symptoms: Near total lack of enough energy even to just stand up! Restless leg syndrome that all by itself was incredible torture. I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, couldn't concentrate, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea... I am going to see my doctor and get help this time. I WILL SUCCEED AND SO WILL YOU!! What do you say to going through this together? Supporting each other here on this site? We can document the whole.process and also everyone who wants to can follow our effort. Are you willing? We'll be smart about this and make a solid plan with our doctor, get support here, and succeed!!
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Teaming Up With Another Oxy Addict To Suffer Through w/d And Succee
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herbavore
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It will be great if there is another member that wants to join in with you in this thread but in case that doesn't happen, join the whole group in the monthly staying sober thread.
P.S. love your enthusiasm.
P.S. love your enthusiasm.
THECATINTHEHAT
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As many potential pitfalls as benefits in my opinion. Whilst if one of you decides to crack they might be convinced to stop by the other, it could equally be that they end up cracking with them when they wouldn't have otherwise.
Having a clean and sober person around to make food, stop you from scoring etc is a much better plan IMO.
Having a clean and sober person around to make food, stop you from scoring etc is a much better plan IMO.
Hi all. Plenty of support around...but man oh man...this absolutely, positively sucks. Day three cold turkey. It's not getting easier... yet. I think that possibly the worst is past. Exercise...as fkn hard as it is to do...has made RLS significantly less of an issue. Got some sleep today and actually ate some soup and a sandwich. Of course nausea set in immediately but I didn't puke. Diarrhea is letting up some. When I get past this withdrawal I seriously doubt I will use ANY narcs again...the pain from my disease processes is far easier. Pain at 8-9/10 is better than this. I am dealing with both right now. After 9 months of using oxycodone, 30mg every 4 hours, I didn't expect it to be easy. But I had no clue how significantly hard this would be. I have no words to describe how excruciatingly miserable I really am. NEVER AGAIN!!!!! God help me!
Owen...I never had to "score". My team of docs not only gave me oxy like candy, rather than "get clean", they wanted to increase my dosage. It is my choice to cease using narcotics for pain control. I'm tired of feeling like I have no control. I can't control my illness, but I CAN control the rest of my life. I choose pain over being dependent on narcotics. That may not last...but it's where I am now. I wouldn't wish withdrawal on anyone. Well, maybe Al Queda...lol
THECATINTHEHAT
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lol....god bless america and your fucked up medical system.
Great motivation to get clean despite having docs tell you to take more so they can make more money.
If you've made it to day three then you're just approaching the crest of the hill, you've done all the reallly hard work and things should start getting easier soon. Either you next sleep or the one after you will probably wake up feeling better than you went to sleep, which is a great feeling. Try to keep forcing the calories down despite your body not wanting them, the more energy you can give it the quicker it will recover. Obviously don't force them down to the extent of making yourself sick though.
Keep going, you're doing it!
Great motivation to get clean despite having docs tell you to take more so they can make more money.
If you've made it to day three then you're just approaching the crest of the hill, you've done all the reallly hard work and things should start getting easier soon. Either you next sleep or the one after you will probably wake up feeling better than you went to sleep, which is a great feeling. Try to keep forcing the calories down despite your body not wanting them, the more energy you can give it the quicker it will recover. Obviously don't force them down to the extent of making yourself sick though.
Keep going, you're doing it!
SeaDog - I just wanted to say good luck and congrats! I think we are both about at the same point in our detox, I was taking 30 mg oxy 5-6 a day. Its a hard road, but worth it! If you need someone to talk to, feel free to message me!
Also, my Dr prescribed buspar for my withdrawal symptoms, I'm not sure that it is REALLY helping, or if my brain is playing tricks on me, but as of today, I feel 100%! I hope you start to feel that way soon too!
Also, my Dr prescribed buspar for my withdrawal symptoms, I'm not sure that it is REALLY helping, or if my brain is playing tricks on me, but as of today, I feel 100%! I hope you start to feel that way soon too!
Lithium, Also...congrats. I'm going total ct. I dont really want chemical help. I already take antidepressants. Im really glad you're getting relief from buspar. and yes we are very similar. I was considering getting methadone help but it's expensive and harder to get off of I hear. sooooo, here I am homeless in a shelter for veterans, life sucks, but I started on the road to recovery. God Bless You!!
THECATINTHEHAT
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Congratulations!
Fucking good on you for sticking it out, you're lucky to be done with it after six days, things can take longer than that for some people (ime the more times you detox the longer it takes each time). Start getting some healthy food down you and enjoy feeling free and healthy!
The bad news is the hard work starts here.
Getting clean is easy in comparison to making sure you don't return to using for most people. You're probably going to have to make some changes to your lifestyle and maybe social circles. The good new is this can come in the form of rediscovering old passions/hobbies/exercise etc and start becoming the person you want to be. You'll probably be hit by a raging libido and want to fuck everything in sight too, that's definitely a common theme for males and can actually throw up a load of problems. You're going to have to find something to fill the void left by drugs at the very least, just make sure what you fill it with is positive.
Thanks for the kind words by the way. I know you're just a stranger on the internet but having been able to make a positive impact in someone's life, even in the smallest of ways, is really positive for the process of my own recovery.
Fucking good on you for sticking it out, you're lucky to be done with it after six days, things can take longer than that for some people (ime the more times you detox the longer it takes each time). Start getting some healthy food down you and enjoy feeling free and healthy!
The bad news is the hard work starts here.
Getting clean is easy in comparison to making sure you don't return to using for most people. You're probably going to have to make some changes to your lifestyle and maybe social circles. The good new is this can come in the form of rediscovering old passions/hobbies/exercise etc and start becoming the person you want to be. You'll probably be hit by a raging libido and want to fuck everything in sight too, that's definitely a common theme for males and can actually throw up a load of problems. You're going to have to find something to fill the void left by drugs at the very least, just make sure what you fill it with is positive.
Thanks for the kind words by the way. I know you're just a stranger on the internet but having been able to make a positive impact in someone's life, even in the smallest of ways, is really positive for the process of my own recovery.
Nicholai...is that true? Never heard that and it seems like it would take a long time. Widh I'd known that. But the hard part is over. I'm free and I feel like I accomplished a major feat on my own. that says a lot about me. Now for the very hard part. As Owen said..the eork of STAYING clean is now starting. But it ought nit be as . physically taxing as wd is/was!
caseface99
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I definitely think teaming up with someone else through this site has a better chance of teaming up with someone in person. I've teamed up to kick with people in real life a number of times and it's never ended well... It's way to easy to talk each other into "one last shot" to ease your way through the withdrawals or whatever reason you come up with as an excuse, and once you do that it's over. I spent 2 months living with this chick one time trying to get clean with her, and relapsing for a few days basically every few days. The insanity of that situation was, for lack of a better word... insane... Litterally putting ourselves through withdrawal cold turkey for days, then saying fuck it and using for a few days to a week, then kicking again, then relapsing again, over and over. SO much pointless pain and misery because we kept talking each other into relapsing. Then I finally said fuck it one day and went to rehab for what turned out to be the last time. I got clean, and she died while I was in rehab. ![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Horrible ending to a horrible story, and not meant to scare you off from getting support from others just meant as a warning - a real life example of how this can go horribly wrong. Like I said however, I'd be much more confident doing this through this website. I often have seen multiple blue lighters posting in here getting clean at the same time giving each other support. I actually still see it basically on a daily basis, specifically in this thread if you'd like to check it out. Keep up the great attitude! Don't be deterred by others pitfalls however. Often times people relapse - use this as an opportunity to give advice and share your experience of how you have made it as far as you have, don't let it bring you down. You're strong! You can do this! The fact that you came here with such drive and motivation shows you are ready to make the leap into sobriety and I'm sure if you commit your full efforts to this thing you will do great!
Horrible ending to a horrible story, and not meant to scare you off from getting support from others just meant as a warning - a real life example of how this can go horribly wrong. Like I said however, I'd be much more confident doing this through this website. I often have seen multiple blue lighters posting in here getting clean at the same time giving each other support. I actually still see it basically on a daily basis, specifically in this thread if you'd like to check it out. Keep up the great attitude! Don't be deterred by others pitfalls however. Often times people relapse - use this as an opportunity to give advice and share your experience of how you have made it as far as you have, don't let it bring you down. You're strong! You can do this! The fact that you came here with such drive and motivation shows you are ready to make the leap into sobriety and I'm sure if you commit your full efforts to this thing you will do great!
Hello All!
I'm still clean and I'm past my withdrawals about 99%. I've joined a couple of NA groups and suddenly have what.seems like hundreds of new friends. People who know first hand what I just went through and what I need to keep it up. My physical pain is still roaring, but my mental/psychological status is such that I go to sleep...yes I'm actually sleeping through the night unless pain awakens me...that I'm at peace. I feel as though I have been sort of given another chance.at happiness. I feel a measure of peace I haven't experienced in a very long time. And when I come back down to Earth, I have my acquaintances to help see me through. So...I'm eating well, sleeping well, thinking mostly straight and normally. Restless leg syndrome is gone. No more diarrhea. My physical self is back to normal except for my illness which will more than likely kill me, when I do pass, I'll at peace. This disease has killed everyone else in my family...my blood disease I mean. But my blood is more blood than oxycodone. LOL. I ACTUALLY HAVE BLOOD IN MY DOPE STREAM!!!
I'm still clean and I'm past my withdrawals about 99%. I've joined a couple of NA groups and suddenly have what.seems like hundreds of new friends. People who know first hand what I just went through and what I need to keep it up. My physical pain is still roaring, but my mental/psychological status is such that I go to sleep...yes I'm actually sleeping through the night unless pain awakens me...that I'm at peace. I feel as though I have been sort of given another chance.at happiness. I feel a measure of peace I haven't experienced in a very long time. And when I come back down to Earth, I have my acquaintances to help see me through. So...I'm eating well, sleeping well, thinking mostly straight and normally. Restless leg syndrome is gone. No more diarrhea. My physical self is back to normal except for my illness which will more than likely kill me, when I do pass, I'll at peace. This disease has killed everyone else in my family...my blood disease I mean. But my blood is more blood than oxycodone. LOL. I ACTUALLY HAVE BLOOD IN MY DOPE STREAM!!!
I'm so glad you're doing well! Its so nice to see your progress as I make progress. its like I'm not alone. Just think, soon this will all just be a part of your history, a part of what makes you who you are. And you cannot lose by becoming a healthier happier person.
How do you like the NA meetings? I'm not sure they're for me, don't know how I would like it.
Its nice to see you doing so good! Feel free to PM me anytime!
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