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^^ Very nice words PIP :)


Good luck badfish! :)


Welcome back SMFG, I'm glad you've got your laptop sorted out! How you been mate?
 
Badfish you would make a perfect mod for NMI. And you would be with a great team--JoshE and The one and only Skillz!

I made pumpkin pie for my friend and her daughter who came to stay this weekend and my house still smells wonderful which is consoling me a little bit in the face of my extreme dislike of daylight savings time and it turning from 80 degrees last week to cold, cold, cold tonight. (OK, I know, it is CA coast so it isn't cold to a lot of you guys but to me it is and I am not a fan.)
 
Good luck badfish, you'd be excellent! :)

I feel like there are a million things I need to do today, but am stuck in bed with a cold, gah...
 
^^ Awww honey :( I hope you feel better real soon <3


herbavore I have never had pumpkin pie!! What's it like?
 
@ n3o, I'd call it as better than before but still only fair to average, change of scene but same problems:|
Best of luck badfish on ur application for Mod;)
fingers crossed for u.....
Im feelin online social although i couldnt leave the unit now if my life depended on it, this place the only viable option for support and folks who can relate. Bit of a hazy evening the kiddo enjoyed a nice mixed grill for dinner. If i'm lucky i might get a piece of toast down. Shit afternoon but bein here is liftin tha spirits somewhat, Proud and glad to be part of this community:)
 
I feel awkward when I post in here cause I'm so inconsistent. I really need to get wifi back instead of using my blackberry, which sucks /: but I finally start working friday which I'm excited about :) but then again I'm not looking forward to talking to people I don't know.... Even more awkward especially when I have to sell stuff to customers and be nice to them when in the end I hate them all LOL just kidding... But anyways hey everyone hope your monday goes well. Let's make it through another loooooooong week.
 
But anyways hey everyone hope your monday goes well. Let's make it through another loooooooong week.
- xstayfadedx

no sweat, considering we got that free hour this weekend!

sup, all?
 
Good luck with your job, xstayfadedx! It's always scary starting somewhere new, but it's a really positive step too. I hope it goes really well for you :) <3
 
Thank you, haha I'm worried cause its my first ever job lol... About time I finally got one hahaha. Oh well, ill have money now and its a step forward in the right direction :]
 
Hi, everybody! Effie, I just got over the cold and then had a friend come stay with me that was just getting one so I'll probably be following you down that road soon enough, again(I was washing my hands like crazy while she was here=D).
xstay--good luck with the job! After the first couple of days you'll settle in and feel like a pro. Don't worry about consistency here!<3 We always love to hear from you.
S.M.F.G.--Bluelight is plenty of socializing for me many days. I'm very thankful for it, too, and you should feel proud because you help make it a very warm place.<3
Meballz--I get Mondays off, too, ahhhh....one more day of weekend plus the extra hour.

So, I got a very nice PM from someone today who reminded me about my late son's beautiful photo thread he started in SO about posting pictures of what you love about where you live. When I looked at the dates, he was posting about three weeks before he overdosed. After a big cry, I bumped the thread. I hope people post pictures in it. It felt almost like I was talking to him when I posted in it. I decided to take pictures of places he loved here from his favorite Taquéria to our backyard. It'll be a good project for me.
 
Overall a shit day. Depression keeps sneaking up on me when I'm not ready. Maybe it's because I'm not smoking, or maybe it isn't. Just gotta give it time and push through. Only makes me want to smoke though.
 
badfish45 said:
Overall a shit day. Depression keeps sneaking up on me when I'm not ready. Maybe it's because I'm not smoking, or maybe it isn't. Just gotta give it time and push through. Only makes me want to smoke though.
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realizing the strength you have already mustered over time helps create more will-power for the future...



keep on truckin'
I believe you are cruisin' a good lookin' path...
 
Hey does anyone know what happened to TheArtofWar?

He hasn't posted since Sept. 20, and after looking at his last few posts I'm kind of worried about him. Does anyone talk to him away from BL or know what he's been up to?
 
I spoke with him on facebook a few days ago, he's doing just fine :)
I suspect he might not be coming to Bluelight because it triggers him? I have heard that BL can be a trigger for some people.
He is doing well though :)

badfish45 said:
Overall a shit day. Depression keeps sneaking up on me when I'm not ready. Maybe it's because I'm not smoking, or maybe it isn't. Just gotta give it time and push through. Only makes me want to smoke though.
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badfish, it really could be the pot man. Seriously, smoking weed makes me REALLY depressed. It took me years and years to figure it out, but literally every time I even have one puff of a joint, I will feel depressed for the next 2-3 days afterwards.
You did really well when you took that short period of time off from smoking a couple of weeks ago! Do you think you could keep going with that? What are some other activities you can do to make you relaxed and happy, instead of smoking?
 
It's been about 2 weeks so far. Last time I took a break, maybe 3-4 weeks ago, I fucked up, I couldn't handle the depression that I got from an anxiety attack I had the previous night. This has never happened to me, I've quit easy for 8 months after nearly an 8th every week for 2-3 months. I feel that it's just a bad time and smoking isn't good, and the WD's from smoking feel more intensified than they ever have. I'm quitting for another month or so still, just to straighten things out with this depression. I usually went through life fine after smoking, but it just isn't the time to be getting high. I usually play guitar, but right now Im getting overly frustrated with it. I don't know, I don't feel like really doing anything right now but wasting my life away on the computer. It usually gets better by week 3. At least I hope it will.
 
Badfish, ur doin well to have left it alone for that long, having quit and started again numerous times I can really relate to the anxiety it can cause and goes hand in hand with depression, The guituar has helped me out heaps in terms of killing time, Its nearly week 2 for me since i had my last social smoke (social meaning if i aint payin for it il take it;) )
have had some herbals to help me through though, keep @ it as you said the 3 week mark is genraly (for me anyway) about the time i stop feelin shit or the urge to go find some. Weed is a wonderfull thing but needs a break every now and then imo, so u recognise this and have taken action... Well done;)
Oh yea dun fuzz bout wasting time on the computer, in retrospect its better than wasting ur life away on weed:\
Also thnx Herbavore ur kind words are truly appriecated. My pool is closed right now so im kinda pissed that i cant go for a swim, is soooo hot here.
 
I just gotta figure out who I am. Time for this depression to end. First step is a 2 month break from weed. The rest lays all in between that time... I start again on the 17th of december. For now, it's time to pull my head out of the clouds and take care of this. :)
 
Sorta in the same boat badfish... Have even had to tell people to back off for a while so i can concentrate on fixing me and looking after my child (that just goes without saying).... Ul feel better for it, I certainly am and knowing we both @ this mission @ the same time is kinda cool:\
Still havnt got around to that update thread, I a bit of a procrastinator sometimes, But i have not felt this good in so long hopefully I can bring some more light to TDS:)
 
I've had to also. Good luck getting your life back together, I sure as hell know I need the luck (: I'm glad you see it's important to look after your child, so many people pass it off likes it's nothing for drugs, even weed. Sad world.
 
n3ophy7e said:
I spoke with him on facebook a few days ago, he's doing just fine :)
I suspect he might not be coming to Bluelight because it triggers him? I have heard that BL can be a trigger for some people.
He is doing well though :)
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Sweet! Thanks for the response! :) Glad he's doing alright, noticed he hadn't been posting lately. That's understandable about staying away from BL. I know I've stayed away from the site at various points over the last few years or at least stayed away from reading/posting on certain boards.
 
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