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Hey, Hi you two. I am home sick today and have exhausted my reading materials.
Effie, are you better?
Badfsh, has the BL cold hit your locale?

We had two teensy earthquakes here yesterday and I keep looking at my cats to see if they are acting weird (as in, were those little precursors?)=D
 
Still pretty colded up I'm afraid :( how are you doing?

Ooh earthquakes! I experienced one in Kenya, was the strangest feeling.. glad they were only teeny ones! <3

Also, I am jealous you have cats :D my parents' cat is amazing but sadly I live in a pet-free apartment..
 
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Yeah! You got it!:D that is great to hear. I'm really excited for you because I know how much you wanted it.<3
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Aww, thank you <3! And yes I am so excited :). I was so scared cause I didn't get a call right away but the supervisor called and told me what do you think about starting wednesday? I was like !!!! Oh yeah! (In my head) but they didn't even have me comeback for the second interview they just hired me.

Also thank you everyone else :)
 
Many thanks to yall <3
I realy miss it here, the change of scenery has done the world of good.
also congrats xstayfadedx!! A job will be on my next list of priroties aswell as a car. Patience is needed for me but as nothings comin quickly, started back on the lucid dreaming thing but is early days:\
hope to be back online within the month, till then im relying on backpacker filled net cafes dont really help my anxiety but ya get that... Best and kindest wishes to you all, I miss being here for an hour or two a day <3
things geting better aint no doubt, That i'm hangin in tough, Over and out ;)
 
Hey guys. I still haven't gotten my medication. There were complications with my blood pressure due to reasons I will not disclose. They are requiring a blood test to be taken and analyzed before I can continue. I am going tomorrow to take it, and hopefully everything will be alright. They are giving me wellbutrin. It is supposedly kind of an upper, so will help a little bit with my ADD. I am going to see another doctor soon for that though.

If anyone has any experience with wellbutrin please pm me.

I am back. Just have been kind of hating the world this week. Got denied from another job, a good one, in which I was well qualified for, because of my background. I have probation fees stacking up, probation people sending threat letters for past due fines, and all kinds of BS, not to mention I have no women in my life AT ALL right now. So lonely. Things will work out, they always do. That is what my grandparents keep telling me. I hope they are right because I don't see how things could get much worse right now. I mean, yeah, I could go to prison, but at this point, that seems like the easy way out. It would be much tougher to stick through this and pay my fines. Just thousands and thousands of dollars. I can barely afford a pack of smokes.

Tomorrow I am going to this place I have been avoiding. They hire people with messed up backgrounds. It sucks that I have to stoop this low but at this point, it is survival.
 
Then I can tell you, things will get better. Your grandparents are older, and from the advice they're giving, they seem smart so don't give up man. What job did you apply for?
 
Hey, SS00, I am soooo glad you are back! I was worrying about you:) Prison is NOT the easy way out so knock that thought right out your head8(!!
You've got so much going for you-- including those positive grandparents of yours:) I know it will work out in time. Can you do community service hours to take care of some of the fines?

Anyway, take care of yourself and keep your mind's eye on where you want to be. I've been missing your pictures.
 
my new boss, told me he really likes me and that I am a good worker. i think he is lying and waiting to fire me.

got the combo to the safe at work. it almost made me puke. i cant tell anyone that I have a unexplainable fear of safes.

i ripped my baby toe nails off last night, and went for a long walk today pain is the only respite from sadness i have. i saw a pretty girl in wal-mart when i was getting some water. she was behind me in the checkout line. I looked at her once, and she saw and wouldn't look at me again. I think everyone hates me. no one at work talks to me. I just sit there and punch numbers. i collect pay check but never cash them. i hate my job, but if I do it for 1 or 2 years, ill get a promotion and have a promising career of bullshit for the rest of my life. at least ill be able to afford a nice gun to blow my brains out.

why would I ever want to inflict myself upon another person?
 
Taking a break from smoking weed. Not for my fucking parents, not for fucking show, not for a fucking drug test. For myself. Its time to straighten some things out, and getting high isn't my priority, especially if it has the potential to be weighing me down.
 
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^hehe yeah.

im actually allowing myself to run out of "Bud" today. i use it to help me medicinally, and rely on it more then any other medicine. i have not been really-really stoned in many years. this will be interesting.!

:-x
 
badfish-- good for you, and best of luck! The herb is more of a hindrance than help to me, although it did take me over a decade to figure that one out.
 
badfish that sounds like a good idea. I wish you all the best, and I hope not smoking for a little while helps to clear your mind and your soul <3
Keep us updated with how you go, of course :)
 
I will be sure to neo :)

1 day down...unknown left. I'll do it again once I can handle my depression better than I can right now. Too much shit happened and its tough for me to control it. Until I can, goodbye weed.
 
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