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New here just wanted to say hello in the social thread. Sorry to hear about your misfortune TAOW
 
hey elmoyohoho! Welcome to BL buddy. Thanks for your kind words bro....unfortunately it is the risk that comes with the choices I made, I have to accept them. If I hadn't been greedy and wanted to make money AND get high (the double relapse for a guy like me my sponsor says) - I wouldn't have been in the situation I was. That beung said, I got caught slippin straight up, been in the fuckin game way too long for that too happen.... 6 months off and I was an easy mark.

thx for kind words brotha, how are you doing ? And how are you enjoying the website? Any questions about BL ? Feel freee to PM me brah.
 
TAOW, that sounds like one intense beating. Ouch! Take it easy man, i hope your wounds heal as quickly as possible! Im glad you still own a life, it sounds like things could have easily turned out worse <3

Just got to Berlin from Austria. Had to sit on the train for 9 hours, but it was worth it. Berlin is the city for me :)
Im a little lonely though. Wish i had my travel buddy back :( :( :( I really hate being lonely, especially on the other side of the planet.
Take care friends x
 
Hey thanks for the kind words tripnotyzm. I got cleared to peace and I left the hospital w no return dates till 30 day check up - pretty stoked about that. I don't know the word to use right now for how I feel, I'm angry at myself for slipping up and furious that I got caught slippin on the street. I feel really stupid looking around me (I've been back at my parents house in between the hospital, due to my parents location)... Everyone has that "The fuck is wrong with you? Seriously are you ever gonna grow up or do you enjoy being a loser whose only goal is to please whatever instant emotional desire you have ?" <-- That shit burns in me, esp after having over half a year clean and now I Look around and it's as though I did NOTHING.

fuck it, sorry for the the ramble, my word - confused and sad.
 
Don't be too hard on yourself bro. So you slipped up... Once, in half a year. People slip all the time, it's part of the learning curve.
Hopefully you can gain some more self control from this experience.
But going more than half a year clean says a lot.
Family members & others around generally look straight past this and tend to point the finger at an instant.. But you have proven to yourself that you have the strength to be clean, so forget every negative opinion that gets thrown your way. You are just going to have to start counting the days again.
Get well man :)
 
theartofwar said:
Everyone has that "The fuck is wrong with you? Seriously are you ever gonna grow up or do you enjoy being a loser whose only goal is to please whatever instant emotional desire you have ?" <-- That shit burns in me, esp after having over half a year clean and now I Look around and it's as though I did NOTHING.
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I get that too. Yes, fear of getting that judgment from those around me is one of the reasons keeping me from any more relapses, but I don't like having it as one. IMO, fear is not a good motivator to stay sober. Active engagement in new things that would be restrained by the use of drugs? Yes. Fear of the same old pressures that ultimately are out of your control but nonetheless have bad memories linked to them? Not worth it.

How many days have you been clean over the past year? Verses this one day of relapsing? People who don't get it will latch onto that 1 DAY and completely ignore the N-1 days that you were doing well for yourself and working toward a good future. Imagine if we judged "normal people" on their worst days of the year? Your mum loses her cool one morning when she gets cut off in traffic, removes her shoe and throws it at another car was screaming obscenities. Probably not the best course of action, but are you going to judge her entire year on that event? No, that would be insane.
 
<3TAOW. Really sorry. I cannot imagine going through that. Be very gentle with yourself right now. remember, you can do it again, this time with more resolve than ever.<3

Trip, tell us what you are up to in Berlin. What do you like? What stands out and is different? Hope you are taking some pictures to share with us!
 
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Enough negativity for now haha - dude I am seriously obsessed w these suicide girls , I am going to sign up on the site. I dunno what it is for me but I am obsessed with that look.
 
I'm just not so much a fan of the name "Suicide Girls." I think they're more like "Talking me out of Suicide Girls" or just "Continue Living Girls." They give me hope that a good amount of interesting, self-expressive, uninhibited women exist out there (okay, so does BL :)). They give me hope!

But ya, I'm also obsessed with the look. I love the idea of a woman being confident enough to express herself like that.
 
I am sooooo out of it. What the hell is a suicide girl? Books of them? Whaaaat? Clue me in, guys. If I google suicide girls who knows where that will lead LOL.=D
 
I've only personally looked through books, I know there's a website also. The books usually have pinup style sometimes soft core naked photos of tattooed "goth" girls. I've always thought it was beautiful. I loved reading the bios and looking at the pictures. SG is amazing. It has it's own place in the world.
 
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