I admit I did have a little bit of amphetamines in me to help motivate me to write as much as I did (the prescribed amount though, I'm being good and not abusing them :D). Anyway, I love doing research on drugs and medical issues, especially those that pertain to me or spark my interest. The best way for me to learn with my ADHD I've noticed is to basically rant on the topics that I've researched, like I did last night. It forces me to try to lay out all the "facts" I have in my head, ask questions to verify the accuracy of the information I'm presenting, and drive me to find deeper understandings. I will admit, I do annoy my friends from time to time because of some of the rants I go on, especially if they aren't as science minded/don't have basic knowledge on such topics. However, it is a lot of fun, and is one of the few things that I manage to continue to do even with my severe ADHD.
So I spent hour and hours (probably days in continuum) since August diving into RLS and PLMS, as I started to suspect I may have a legitimate condition. I've always had some issues with sleep, but I always thought it may have been something to do with my ADHD initially (RLS and PLMS have actually been correlated with ADHD by some experts). It also wasn't as serious as it has been untill the last couple of years, so I never initially sought medical advice. It isn't uncommon for some individuals with RLS and PLMS symptoms as teenagers to see a drastic increase in their early twenties, as well as not seek medical opinions, like with my situation. With myself falling into a heavy depression, dropping out of college, my ADHD symptoms getting worse, an increase in the feeling of fatigue that I've had as a teenager, painful sensations in my legs, etc., I thought it would be stupid to not at least ask my PCP while I was picking up my amphetamine prescription about the possibility of having RLS. This caused me to dive into the research/articles available, particularly dealing with the drugs initially prescribed to me (pramipexole and ropinirole).
One more tidbit of information, which explains why some people believe my RLS/PLMS isn't real, or as serious as it really is, is that the onset occurring usually in patients younger than 40 is seen in a lot lower percentages than those seeing symptoms/having problems above the age of 40, or even 30. Between the age of 18 and 29 for adults in a sample population interviewed (Europe I believe), only ~ 3 percent of reported individuals that have symptoms occurring 4-5 times a week. When RLS symptoms occur with frequency below the age of 40 it is usually known as primary RLS, with symptoms being idiopathic. (Those reporting symptoms with this frequency and with negative resulting impact on their daily lives are considered severe. Mine is considered severe, as I have symptoms daily starting in the mid to late afternoon, and is also primary RLS mine is seen as idiopathic). There is also secondary RLS, which is common among individuals above the age of 40, and associated with medical conditions. Secondary RLS may be curable, and also can include those individuals with symptoms induced by opioid WD, certain anti-histamines, anti-depressant, etc.. This obviously can occur below the age of 40, but is less common, and has identifiable reasons for the symptoms.
The package was sent today. If I was receiving it I would be pretty happy, as I really did put some thought into it, but I'm not the one who decides whether or not it seen as a nice gesture. It definitely is a Valentines day package, or is kinda implied to be one, though I didn't mention it at all. I kinda hate the idea of valentines day, but I did want to express my feelings about her like half the united state, so it has a lovey vibe to it. I didn't spend much on it as I don't have a lot of money, or really any money for that matter, but the items I chose came from the heart, as well as the note I wrote. I put two items in it that held special meanings to me/relate to things we have in common (one I made and one I wore daily for years), one item shows who I am (shows an activity I enjoy), and there is something that I felt she would really enjoy reading from an author I love/that I feel she could relate to. It's a solid package if you ask me. I just have a feeling she isn't going to appreciate it, or wont bother contacting me even if she does feel something in her heart. The note will probably annoy her a little bit, as like I said, I really expressed how I felt about her. I don't think she can deal with someone caring about her like the way I do, or thinks she deserves these feelings. I just hope she at least opens it, and stores it away, even if she doesn't contact me. I guess I won't know what happens until 4-5 days from now I imagine if she does chose to call me. Thankfully I have a part time job starting monday, and have my class going on for 6 more weeks, so I'll be able to stay occupied and not think about it to much.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
come here to talk about your problems, but don't talk about solving your psychological issues with drugs
