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Nooo, don't tell them wrongly. I said I was too lazy to go downstairs and get my phone with the picture on it. ;) =P
 
Heyeveryone, wasn't around too much, too. Right now I'm feeling a bit insecure and unsure what to head to. Not in a pragmatic way, uni and jobs are working out perfectly, I have kept some and found some new good friends. But I'm really unsure about the long run, don't really no where I'm at and what I want to do with life. Hard to explain, just a bit of weltschmerz and quarterlife crisis I guess ;)

Apart from that I'm up to organise a clerkship in Japan, sorting out my financial situation (I'm fed up with stinting and calculating all the time, so I'm getting a student loan for the last 1 1/2 uni years), and go out to party and enjoy bachelor life as much as possible ;) Unfortunately I'm on night shift tomorrow night...
 
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Hey guys, sorry I haven't been around for a while, just been a bit sad and didn't want to burden you with it.

Only 9 days until I /should/ start my MMT .. Counting down!

Ooh, big news! I got a job! :D I start next month, all going to plan. It's just minimum wage, packing boxes, stocking shelves, but I'm mostly doing it for the work experience (plus the money wouldn't hurt) as I haven't worked in about 4-5 years because of my anxiety, depression, insomnia and addiction .. But I'm going to give it a go! Wish me luck guys, I know you'll all be here for me when I get overwhelmed and need to talk, and that gives me the strength to try.

I dunno what I'd do without you guys.
Much love,
-OCD
 
desmondsparrs said:
Im bipolar(type II). <snip> killing the pain I feel. Not just my emotions but I feel physical pain as well. I also think that Ive gotten a virus(although "benign") in my ears in my balance-thingies. <snip>Im in such agony right now. Nauseous, lethargic, depressed, having problems with balance and feeling dizzy and extremely unfocused(except on the fucking misery Im experiencing).

edit: alrighty then. no talking about it. fuck this fucking shit-forum. poof.enjoy your meaningless and utter pointless effort to achieve social connection with boring shit. fuck!
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We're just here to create a safe environment for everybody to post in. What might be small talk for one person might be triggering for another, and glorification of even just talk about being high in TDS isn't the place. I'm sorry you're opposed to that, but rules are rules, and this is just concerning the safety for members who post on here
 
^Oxy, don't ever hold back because you feel like it will be a burden! We are here for the express purpose of supporting each other and lightening each others burdens as much as possible along the way. We celebrate the WHOLE person around here! Getting a job after being out of the market for that long would be hard even without the anxiety. That is huge! Congratulations.<3

Stella, I am so glad to see you back--I've missed you! What have you been up to?

Captain, how are things going with your living situation? Better, I hope.

Van weyden---some of that uncertainty is just exactly where you should be at your age. It's a good thing--makes you try new things, question things, etc. It can feel uncomfortable or disconcerting but I think it is good!
 
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Hey there stella, Van and Oxyco gewd to see all yew guise!!

Van you are saying you are moving to Japan? That's going to be pretty serious. Do you have a date for when you are planning that?

Oxy that is such great news about the job!! I hear you on the anxiety with jobs. I'm so glad you got it in you to find one and start working. I'm sure you'll do fine at it. I bet it'll even give you a boost of confidence within a few days after you make a few friends and find out you're not as socially awkward as you've trained yourself to think. Sending my luck and good vibes your way <3.
 
herby - Have you ever seen Watership Down? I watched it for the first time the other night & thought of you!
 
i actually like the Watership Down movie adaptation a lot (i usually don't like movies after i've read the book).

the book is still way better though, haha :D

mainly because its such a long book. so much detail.
 
I watched it because I was interested in seeing what the animation would be like. And I was really impressed by it. It was beautifully stunning, I'd say. Maybe I'll check out the book in the future. I still have some books lined up to be read at the moment though.
 
@stardust: No, I'm not moving entirely, it's a 4 months stay. The last year of my studies is divided into 3 parts of 4 months working in a hsopital, and I will do one part of it in Japan. I'm pretty excited though, it's my first stay abroad longer than 1 month and it's such a different culture. But I already connected with some Japanese students who studied here for a few months, so it's not that scary anymore :)
 
Where in Japan? A friend of mine spent 3 months in Kyoto and loved it to death. I'd love to go someday...
 
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herby - Have you ever seen Watership Down? I watched it for the first time the other night & thought of you!
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Yes, I read it myself and amazingly enough, read it aloud to my boys when they were young. We also saw the movie, which is quite beautifully done. I had forgotten about it until someone here sent me a youtube link to the song Bright Eyes (was that you, TNW?) Now I want to see the whole movie again.

Last night I dreamed that Eva Cassidy was singing the song Nightbird and I was in the audience of this small little club. She reached down from the stage and pulled me up to sing with her and I was just singing along with no nervousness or fear (definitely a dream-ha!) and there was Caleb sitting in the audience grinning away with this look of pride in his eyes. It made me soooo happy! Even when I woke up this morning I felt happy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BQjM-4P7d5w
 
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