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kaywholed said:
i got a job.

being a soulless corporate drone only makes me feel depressed. the joys of money are less than the agony of corporate toil.
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Good that u got a job, shame the discription is something that most of us are against, really sux when the fucking dollar has to come before ethics, I'm not far from breaking and going to work for a larger company just for the fact i need money, but it feels like ur sellin ur soul.:(
Hope it @ least puts food on ur table and a roof ova ur head till u can find something better:\
 
kaywholed congrats on getting a job man!! I hope you feel a bit better about it soon, try to remember that the tasks you are doing are for a purpose and you are making a difference to people's lives by being there. Whenever I'm feeling really bored and soul-less in my job, I try to remind myself of that and sometimes it makes me feel better <3


How's everyone doing in here today?? Any plans for the weekend?

I'm baking muffins for the first time in my life as we speak!! I hope they turn out okay :D
 
Oooooh PIP!! I LOVE banana bread! Borderline-obsession! :D
Can you fax me some? ;)


Thizz_Machine, I would love to try your blueberry buckle! I've never heard of this so-called buckle cake...
 
Muffins on the list for the weekend (sposed to have done em last weekend) chocklate chocklate chip with white chock melts) they turn out more like a brownie...
weekends are meaningless when ur unemployed but im brewing up the maddest dinner tonite which is a first for me..
Rib fillet medium, mushroom& redwine sauce w potatoe bake and chicken for the non red meat eater. for a burnt out chef im feeling good about cooking tonite, probably coz its a good decent meal and everyone will be happy.:\
 
Wow that sounds brilliant SMFG!! Yum :)

I've been cooking dinner every night this week, and tonight we decided we'd get Thai. It's about to arrive :) *nom nom*
 
n3ophy7e said:
Oooooh PIP!! I LOVE banana bread! Borderline-obsession! :D
Can you fax me some? ;)


Thizz_Machine, I would love to try your blueberry buckle! I've never heard of this so-called buckle cake...
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.. TDS baKers!
Zomg


i will try faxing a loaf with my neighbors machine.

SMFG sounds like he like to cook the same way i do. wine and mushies on everything. PBJ even...


=D
 
OverDone said:
haha! HWH said 'nut' =D
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Just found out today the $40,000+ education fund I had is empty. Thanks Dad.
My ticket out of the hustlers life is gone, and all I want to do is put a hole in my head. fuck the inaccessibility of firearms in this country.
 
HeWhoHowls said:
Talk to me buddy.
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not much to say, I planned on going back to school, now I cant. can't get student loans because of previous outstanding debts, so my only option is to work for years, before I can even start getting back into it.

i fucked up school last time, and was counting on some help to get it done right this time....

i want to go back to school, because I hate working at shitty jobs, but I cant go to school without working shitty jobs to make money. fucking cyclic problems.

i should go to the doctor and get my depression looked at, but I am scared of them locking me up again, because I have tendencies to want to die. perhaps I could get some sort of disability payment so I don't have to work or go to school, but that basically means living around the poverty line for the rest of my life.

i feel like i've been fucked over by anyone who has ever been close to me, and can't trust anyone. the feeling of it being you vs. the world with no friends or family, is crushing. its like im getting pulled down into the water by the current, and struggling against it just speeds up the time before you run out of oxygen and die. hope is the delusion, death and despair are the only real future.
 
Well first of all, the world is only your perception.
Why is life so shitty??
Because you are looking at it in that light.
You have unknowingly caused your biggest problem.
You cant see the beauty in things when the only images in your mind are that of negativity.
Solution: change your perception.
A bad experience can turn from "my life is over" to "I just learned a very important lesson".
The only thng that facilitated such profound change was the way you look at it.
Shitty job??
Im sure others with the same job dnt feel that way, because of how they view it.
Shitty existence??
Change your mindset n make it beautiful.

Now I dnt expect you to flip moods like a lightswitch, it's a process to learn like anythng else.
Practice, practice, practice your optimism n watch it grow :)
 
A therapist might well be able to help better than a doctor will, but see someone about it. Maybe don't mention the suicidal ideation right away?

That blows that your education fund is toast. How bad is your prior debt? I don't know the details, but I've heard of debt forgiveness programs, and special education funding. Hell, there are a surprising number of unclaimed bursaries out there; with a bit of legwork you could get a bit of free tuition cash.

What would you be studying?

So... n3o... how did the muffins turn out? While I love to cook, I'm not a huge baker; but I do love hearing about (and eating) the fruit of bakers' labours.
 
^^ My muffins turned out adequately....for a first go =D


kaywholed that completely and utterly sucks to hear about your lack of expected funds. All you can do is just keep on keeping on, as cliched as that sounds, you are going to be okay. You can still find a way out of your current situation, for the better <3
 
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