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damnit.
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caffeine seems to bother me less now, almost no ' cns hype', but the gatorade gets to me.
i was terribly hypo-glycemic for a long time (was what i thought my heath issue was lol) but recently having CBC's done, i show to be hyper-glycemic... so maybe this is exasperated and jazzed up so much because of this reason.

i need to get more ' test strips ' for my glucose meter it seems.

thanks mr

=D
 
man , i can't stand that feeling , when i've ran slin it was seriously a full time job.. even ghrp2 gives an immediate boost and i feel lightheaded , then you tick down from 120 to normal levels lol.
 
ocean, my cbc's for a around a year plus now have shown elevated glucose.
maybe part of the obsolete feel of need for food?
sustained over time at not so wild count?
along with adrenal gland mayhem ( prednisone and albuterol allergies to link )

id drop to 50 or just above 40 if i wasnt on it, it is a full time job, and having people tell me"so you can just eat candy all day..!" is the wrong answer lol.
yeah, not cheap complex carbs every 2-3 hours or then there isnt much choice after that; it became very clear very fast!
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this, what im feeling atm, is nothing in comparison, but ive been 113 and just over 120 several times recently and do not want to be chasing that around all day, or it developing further ( i have a reactive auto immune d/o, so diabetes is certainly up for grabs if my body so chooses )
-a wasting diabetic, fuck thaaaat my nooka!
lol
no tanksies!

i want to take practice a bad idea,,, and chug he gatorade, all, feel the frizzle-fry, then take some metphormine(sp)... and see what happens.


...or maybe just get some test strips - lol.

;)
 
ocean said:
your levels aren't too high- when you get up towards 200 you have to really start worrying i think. :)

I just saw an eagle catch a fish!! :D
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im no tripping on it, just a 'called out' observation in response to a question with noo implied relevance...
its worth some wonder, and acknowledgment, to be so hypoglycemic, then suddenly not, and the technically hyper-glycemic. what freaks me out, and gets me jazz'd, is not understanding what is happening in there. which id go nuts trying to do, but out of self respect and for knowledges sake i feel i deserve to know, at least.
but, there is nothing predictable about my physiology - a wonder-full disorder.

~

isnt this twice now??! lol. or was the first an eagle having a snack with in so many yards?

its amazing the thought of them spotting the fish, judging its swimming pattern, zooming in so methodically, then what looks like is being done grace, they effortlessly spread talons -heh- and grab and go like nothing happened.

there have been dozens here, i never went to the river, seems it would been countless white-heads chirping hehe... was planning to, but...
*sings
"maybe neeext yeeear"
 
oh oshen - just wait till i show you a picture from my house ... I'll show you obsession , my father .. oh my. Gimme few mins lol.
 
I love spiders.

Lol at the fact that the last 3 posts I've made in this thread consist of "I love so-and-so" =D

I love lamp.

I love couch.

I love carpet.

I love everything!!!


But seriously, I really do love spiders, and moreso I respect them. Our backyard and back porch used to be completely inundated with spiders of all different species, their webs absolutely everywhere. We even named the bigger ones, and used to catch bugs and throw them in to their webs and watch the spiders catch them and ravel them up. It totally killed me when we had to make the call to get the place fumigated :(
 
n3ophy7e said:
I love spiders.

Lol at the fact that the last 3 posts I've made in this thread consist of "I love so-and-so" =D

I love lamp.

I love couch.

I love carpet.

I love everything!!!


But seriously, I really do love spiders, and moreso I respect them. Our backyard and back porch used to be completely inundated with spiders of all different species, their webs absolutely everywhere. We even named the bigger ones, and used to catch bugs and throw them in to their webs and watch the spiders catch them and ravel them up. It totally killed me when we had to make the call to get the place fumigated :(
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damn, you never thought of the "paratrooper" spiders from above?

Lol I did that all the time, catching bugs and tossing them in the spider web and watching the spider spin the pray and stash em.
What has me so freaked out are the Brown Recluses around here, Alabama Native spider. Which is one of the worlds posionous spiders.
Ever since one bit me as a kid (i was putting on my dry cloths in the pool house after swimming one day and got bit 3 times all along my leg and arm) it fucking sucked. went to the hospital and there isn't really a anti-venom for spiders they just dug the bite out and played around in the wound. it sucked :[

so any brown spider i smash, now wolf spiders and garden spiders I'll leave alone.

I am taking a break, work is alright
 
^^ Hey bro. I'm going okay today, soooo tired though, like seriously falling asleep at the computer and it's only like 5pm! Still got homework to do before I can have a snooze.
How are you taow?? <3

D's said:
Ever since one bit me as a kid (i was putting on my dry cloths in the pool house after swimming one day and got bit 3 times all along my leg and arm) it fucking sucked. went to the hospital and there isn't really a anti-venom for spiders they just dug the bite out and played around in the wound. it sucked :[
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Dude now I completely understand your fear of spiders!!!! Alllll makes sense now. That is a really really shitty thing to have happened to you as a kid :( <3


ocean and OD, glad you guys got a chuckle out of my infinite love for everything =D <3
 
Hey guys I need some advice and support...
With work at A Crisis Call Center/ Domestic Violence, Sexual Assault/Homeless women's shelter and all the crap I have to deal with there. I love my friends a lot and they often come to me to vent, give advice, help give them resources or even be the friend to call when you are going to hurt yourself or someone else. But I won't be able to "always be there" for everyone all the time anymore like I used to. Which with between my friends I am known for. It just it takes too much out of me. And I and suffering mentally and my poor coping skills are showing!!!


Just today: I have like 2 or 3 friends I'm trying to help (high risk situations), have lets says at least 20 people I'm trying to be there for, support, encourage, whatever at work, and maintain balance between that and my coworkers and their issues and crap that happens when you work with people, and have some sort of healthy relationship... its just too much.

Not to mention that I CONSTANTLY THINK about about when I'm not there (like when I'm trying to sleep) and medication such as Klonopin (Clonazepam) are proving more problematic than helpful.
I TRY not to take it home with me but closing my eyes at work and not thinking about it all is hard. My supervisor is a wonderful woman that I can go to and has been really supportive. My long term bf tries to help but there are things I can't tell him. My former pastor sent me a nice message but I feel bad that we don't share the same beliefs with me being atheist and all. I don't know where to turn.

There is so much that I CAN'T talk concerning work because of the nature of what I do. But I'm not sure WHAT to do. Am I working too hard? Who do I turn to? Help?
 
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