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Hey wook, good for you man, keep up the good work! Best wishes for your girlfriend kicking it too <3
 
Fuck. My mother cornered me when I was at their house for dinner with my fiance and proceeded to lecture me for an hour about how pain pills change people. I have been on PM for 3 years and she maintains that I am "starting to look like Kieth Richards" even though I am young, healthy, exercise, am a vegetarian, and maintain a healthy and clean appearance. I understand that the use of opiate pain medications can take a toll over time, but being that i am on a safe and relatively non-toxic opiod, I am not feeling like it is making my appearance change.
Fuck, I don't know what to do. I ended up in tears because I have no idea what to do about this. she wants me off PM and back on Suboxone (which didn't work for my pain, but obviously helped with the dependence I have developed) I'm still on her insurance (thanks to Obama's plan) and she still helps me out with my appointments and medications often since I can't really afford rent, food, etc on a super low Art teacher's salary. I don't know what to do. If anyone has suggestions, please PM me. I'm having a terrible anxiety attack currently, and am stuck at my parents house still because of situations beyond my control, so I can't take a pill (or my mom would freak out) and I can't take my pain meds obviously... all I can do is try to meditate mindfully and get through this, but some support would be great.
 
got a fuckin headache.

gonna watch a movie tonight and chill.

hang n there mu, maybe get ur mom to hand them out to u, or a trusted friend.
 
So, I'm signed up for that mindfulness meditation group I was talking about........ I start in two weeks. I will keep you guys updated on it :)
I can't wait............I'm nervous for the commitment, but I'm excited.
 
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this should basically be what "hypno-mans", and the 'self guided meditation' sessions were like.
but at a much more reasonable price -lol
in theory anyways.
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good stuff, any where eventually.
im sure you use it a lot currently in ways of your own, but be very fine-tuning.
.......
double lucked out with her
:D
heh
 
ocean said:
So, I'm signed up for that mindfulness meditation group I was talking about........ I start in two weeks. I will keep you guys updated on it :)
I can't wait............I'm nervous for the commitment, but I'm excited.
Click to expand...

I'm curious to hear how it goes!

Feeling pretty good tonight...have not smoked any weed since Sunday. Marijuana I had trusted you to be a part of my nightly routine, but you have let me down. You have made me unable to follow movie plots, or to focus on a good book. You have given me awkward moments this weekend and irritated my female companion when I was unable to hold a train of thought long enough to complete my sentences. Yes, you are now on probation....I reclaim my freedom! *roar*
 
yeah, whats the point if your not enjoying it even.
?

its not a good idea for me not to, but before that,, i would snap into several month, or week periods where, idk, id just wake up and not want to for the same reasons, or no real identifiable one at all.


it is freedom, truly, to rely on only yourself, to not feel the need want or worry...
its that simple, the greatest freedom :D but the seeming greatest price at the time maybe, for those moments.


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when needsless means to have more, the world is yours Legerity.
my offering to you.
=D
 
I accept your offering. Was your name Siddhartha in a previous life by any chance? :)
 
damn man

heh
had to google the fella, not to my knowledge or reference... but.
yeah, i need to get over there.
ive been feeling this hard.



"A major preoccupation of Hesse in writing Siddhartha was to cure his 'sickness with life' (Lebenskrankheit) by immersing himself in Indian philosophy such as that expounded in the Upanishads and the Bhagavad Gita."

...this makes me~

you just gave me a much needed offering as well man.
and so it continues?

<3
 
I enjoy Reiki - pulling in the energy of another while radiating one's own is an extremely powerful experience. I hope to complete the modules once I am done with NLP. It takes a lot out of me.

Something totally weird happened just now that COMPLETELY freaked me out.

Not for the squeamish. Work safe.

NSFW:
Something started making a vibrating sound in my wood stove as I was in the shower this morning. I had absolutely no clue what it was as we have not used it in a few days. I also have slim to no experience with fireplaces in general other than lighting a log and making sure the flue is open.

It turns out it was most likely a bird. It sounded like the bird was trying to flap its wings to get out of my chimney. There was absolutely nothing I could do to save it. After a few minutes, it either made its way out or died. Since it didn't drop into the fireplace, I think it did succeed in flying out. There are many birds in my area. I heard some happy chirps outside my bedroom window.

I'm also hopeful it was not a bat. Even more creepy.

The reports about birds falling out of the skies in various places throughout the world really disturb me. I'm not one for doomsday predictions but dayum...

I called my apartment complex manager just now. The chimney sweeper is not available until tomorrow. I am insisting that any birds or whatever be removed and their lives saved, along with putting some sort of filter in place to ensure that this does not happen again.

Seriously, though, what the fuck was that about? My father thinks whatever it was found its way out. I need to be sure. Time will tell.
 
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