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luckily my other car is audi , the benz is gone, totalled - but the audi is awd and is a lil tank in the snow :) . No probs just shady drving round now cuz half the ppl are rushing to get a jump start on work - other half are sloshed. Either way it's shady LOL
 
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keepin the blurr
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since i was 10 , ive never gone more than 10 days w/out being awake for 36-48 hours . I have not had any of the blessing side affects lol. Hopefully those start coming , anytime now would be nice.
 
ouch

comes and goes, usually not long, lots of 24/36hour stretches.
last time was 4?5 days and 3 nights.
3,4,6 hours sleeping most my life.
then 10, 12 +
22 hours sleeping also recently, before that stretch.
 
I've gotten progressively worse. Ppl that are in touch w/me know that I'll do 48-60 hour stints now when my PTSD is out of control. The sleep deprivation and PTSD symptoms have almost done me in. But things are turning around w / alot of time spent in therapy that I dislike lol. I know I need t however.
 
have you listened to any "hemi synch"?
you kind of have to relax. google it.it may really help...
i use suggestive, self guided, and physiological visualization to try and tance into pain, and needed sleep.
seeing the blood cells suck pull into my heart, force through and out into my veins and aligned organs, connecting with oxygen, receiving signals through things like vaso gas flow exchanges, or impulses from passing cells, or electrons to disburse them where they need to go, metabolizing, breaking down exchanging further, its almost always perfect.

or imagining a ball rolling, motor cycle or bicycle tires bursting and gliding along a curvy road.
this works too, heh. for me.
 
I will look into it brother - I am seriously considering hypnotism - i know it can work on me to make me FALL asleep but whether it could fix such an isue without having it done every night lol.
 
godlovesugly said:
hahah.



yeah theres a lot of fuckers in AA/NA that are like that...i just learned to ignore them. realized that i shouldnt listen and believe, trust everyone in the program. not everyone knows what theyre talking about. some use the big book like their bible. they become AA nazis. they get fuckin crazy with that shit. i know the prgram and the steps work. but like i said..i need MORE than that. most addicts do have mental illnesses, along with their addictions. the two seem to go hand in hand. i take medication. i take suboxone and seroquel. those people can say whatever they want to. i dont care. they should realize that some people have chemical imbalances in their brain and just the steps and AA alone isnt going to "cure" them of all their problems. some people need meds.
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i agree i am also prescribes seroquel, and if used correctly there are many benefits to reap from suboxon , and you can do all the same work as anyone else in the program , i hit meetings, but i found that was just a small piece of what i needed to do to change my life , the program is way bigger than those rooms , i try to have no expectations but how can not expect drama when you put a bunch of us in the same room ...lol!! , but with the drama aside getting hooked up with the right members is key to seeing the true beauty of the rooms , remember were all sick and its no ones place to judge you but thats life ........some people go to meetings and make that there life , i go to meetings to learn how to live my life out side of them !!!!! its all about you right now glu pay no mind to the toxic ones , just like they say, take what you need and leave the rest

theartofwar said:
empty1 love the ink brother - i have one i'm saving for to get done but it's gonna be a lot to make a half sleeve - fuckin broke atm tho !!
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thank you brother , and its all good take your time its gonna be there for ever (which i consider a good thing) i never feel rushed to get tattooed dont get me wrong i get the itch to go but like i said i know once i do ill be able to enjoy it for hopefully many years to come , youll have to post some pics when you go

stellablue said:
R.I.P. Abby. It is so sad to see things like this happen and what their families endour. I am so sorry for everyone envolved. :(
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thank you stella

godlovesugly said:
ive had insomnia ever since i was young[er]. sometimes i actually enjoy it, sometimes i absolutely hate it. its a blessing and a curse.
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ive also been blessed with insomnia sense i was a kid, i think its part of our package deal , i was awake for over a week once and ended up on 72 hour lock down in the hospital because i thought people were trying to kill my family ......now i havent missed a nights sleep in years thanks to seraquel...to be honest i dont care if im on it for the rest of my life , i fucking hate the feeling of an atro·phic body and racing mind !!!!!! it must be getting better because i used to have to take 600 mg before bed now im down to 100 mg
 
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yea brother , I took over 2 grams depakote - 1.5 of litihium and 600mg serequel .. did nothing but ruin my body.

here are some old ones i dug up while insomnia bored.
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theartofwar said:
yea brother , I took over 2 grams depakote - 1.5 of litihium and 600mg serequel .. did nothing but ruin my body.

here are some old ones i dug up while insomnia bored.
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collageofmypaints.jpg
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wow man, do you realize how fortunate you are to have an art your passionate about!!!!!!! good stuff bro deff focus on your art for relaxation it helps me, im a photographer by hobby , ive done some weddings and location shoots but i love just jumpin in my car and pulling over somewhere and just walk, become one with my surroundings and shoot with that camera , i find it so relaxing !!!! i feel like i can see even more of this worlds beauty threw that lens...
 
honestly I never draw or paint anymore , I do it when I'm very low spots. My passions are in other areas - but I do love the freedom that drawing offers - ill show you the ink im getting done i drew up it's posted in second opinion under the art thread i believe. But PM me and ill send you a link :). Thanks for encouragement - I'm not very stable w/my ability w/art its tough to go out there and show stuff you did.
 
^ I love your drawings.

imaimabadbitch said:
hi,its me again
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my son when he was a baby,hes 3 now
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me and my son,taken a few weeks ago.
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TAOW that sucks,i hate it when its like that outside.it hasnt snowed here but its damn cold out.drive carefully.<3

sideorderofopiates pretty pic.thats a nice view :)
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^ I love these IMABB! Your son looks a lot like you.

You are a natural beauty.
 
theartofwar, your artwork is intriguing! Especially the one of the fellow on the couch—such raw emotion! Is he missing one arm and holding a beer can in the other? I would like to know more about the photo, if you're willing to divulge, of course :) Either way, you have a real talent, man. Embrace it!

PS. I know exactly what you mean about being a bit timid to expose your creative endeavors. I was that way for years in regards to my writing. I finally decided I had nothing to lose, and so much to gain! That is when I began to put my poetry/spoken word out there. Now, I actually look forward to sharing my work with others. I aspire to write at least one book =D
I figure that the worst that can happen is they critique it, dislike it, ect. Luckily, I have received a lot of positive feedback in regards to my writing. I truly believe that you would receive positive feedback regarding your artwork, and I am NOT the type to humor anyone! Haha :)

Always remember, "The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt." - Sylvia Plath
 
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Ok ...I am officially Broody!!!!:!
He is ABSOLOUTLEY GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!<3:D<3:D<3
Look at his 'Kewpie' Hair! Awwww! He's gonna be a heartbreaker!
*pulls self Together*Sorry about the cooing...he is just amazing!:D


me and my son,taken a few weeks ago.
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Again! Awwwwwwwwww<3:) So damn cute the 2 of ye!

luckily my other car is an audi
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...My other cars my feet!!:p

BTW AOW, kudos again on the Art Work, you have a talent there...you should post yer tat Design in here again too-it's stunning!!=D

@Empty 1: So sorry about your friend Empty :( Such a lovely pic of her...so sad :( <3

You and your girl are beautiful! She is stunning, she has the Vic Beckham hair and face outline but she is wayyyyyyyyy more stunning! (you know that already) Such a good lookin couple-Damn ye!!! *shakes fist* ;);)lol

Tried to repost those lovely pic's of you two but my net is being uncooperatively slow ATM!!

godlovesugly said:
ohh yes youre preaching to the choir on this one! haha. ive been in the program - of AA/NA - for over a year now. no one told me when i first went in, how bad some of these guys are...but i got preyed on by the guysin the program. alot of them did try to 13th step me. i actually had some situations with some of these guys at meetings thats just not cool at all...all ill say is the police probably should have gotten involved. but ehh. im not one to call the cops or ever want to go anywhere near the po-po. i do have a love/hate relatoinship with AA/NA i will admit. i feel it DOES work.
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godlovesugly: I know alot of women who have been in this situation hun, its horrible especially when you feel so fukin lost and vulnerable.:(
Hopefully you have developed some strength out of the experience and can sniff out the one's playin asshole and learn how to protect yourself...it can be easy to let it deter you but they do not make up what recovery is about; they just put obstacles there; For you and for themselves...it comes back to bite them on the ass whan they are faced with their own vulnerability. Like you said some women can also be just as malignant. They are just a Mirror of some of the obstacles in life anyway. Once you can learn something helpful for/about yourself from it, thats all that matters.<3

TBH though Ive called the cops on pple, I know they are maybe not as benign here(in general) as in the U.S.A. but when it comes to lookin after your welfare, fuck em, Bad actions have bad Consequences! Look after yourself hun.<3




n3ophy7e said:
Heehee I'm one of 5 children ;)
And a friend at uni is one of 11!!!! ELEVEN!! WTF?! 8o
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Were they Catholic or Irish by any chance?
Damn Rabbits!;)
 
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