TDS Photo Thread v. 2011 is our time to shine!

[godlovesugly]

thank you sweetheart , ive always felt weird getting a pat on the back for something i should have been doing all along ......as for how to do it , if your not ready it wont happen so thats something you need to be sure of, from there hit some meetings , stay away from all the guys and find yourself a strong network of woman , the reason i say stay away from the guys is because were all sick in the head and sadly some will try and take advantage of a young beautiful woman whos going threw a hard time ......i always tell my sponsees if you wanna get clean start by making your bed in the morning and will go from there, its all about the little things the more you chip away at them the smaller the big things get ....... trust me if i can do it anyone can !!!!!! that dosent mean i dont have tough days but so does everyone else in this world, no one said it would be easy .....pretty much the endgame is to change everything in your life and let everyone see how precious you really are underneath it all .............which im sure you are !!!!!!

ohh yes youre preaching to the choir on this one! haha. ive been in the program - of AA/NA - for over a year now. no one told me when i first went in, how bad some of these guys are...but i got preyed on by the guysin the program. alot of them did try to 13th step me. i actually had some situations with some of these guys at meetings thats just not cool at all...all ill say is the police probably should have gotten involved. but ehh. im not one to call the cops or ever want to go anywhere near the po-po. i do have a love/hate relatoinship with AA/NA i will admit. i feel it DOES work. but for me, i need something else in conjunction with the program. because i suffer from mental illnesses too - depression, ocd, anxiety, ptsd, hypomania...and you know at meetings you dont really talk about that stuff because "its an outside issue." ive heard in meetings people tell other people to stop taking their medications because theyre not really sober if they dont. bullshit. but i still go to meetings [went to one today.] i just have some issues with the program...

anyway...ive tried getting sober so many times. been to rehab, detox, JAIL, womens recovery house...and im 24 yrs old. my drinking was so bad my own mother put an interlock in my car. my drug habit was so bad too ive overdosed, went to jail because of it, etc. ive had my deal with every drug. my DOC is everything. im still on suboxone. right now, tryin to stay away from meth. i know that if i go back out i WILL die or go back to jail. and i cant do that. fuck no. but like you said..if you can do it, i can too :]

 

[OverDone]

RIP Abby

I'm truly sorry for your loss, empty. Reading your post, man... its a fucking tragedy. Those memories can be hard sometimes and I feel for you, brother

 

[godlovesugly]

...........this is a pic of my close friend abby who lost her life from a heroin overdose on new years eve this year , my heart weeps for her and her family , we have all been blessed to be here another day, and trust me this world has so much more light and beauty for us than the darkness and pain of the path weve chosen , i accept the wake of my mistakes today and take responsibility for them ....... i love you abby , im happy you dont have to cry anymore and i can only hope you have found peace within the dissonance ....forever in my heart your friend jay

RIP abby

sorry for your loss, empty. i had a 16 yr old friend die from a heroin overdose. her story made the front page of the paper here...they did an article about "heroin stalking city teens." some people [alot of parents esp.] dont realize how big a problem this is becoming...alot of teens start on pills - vicodin, perks, oxycontin - then move onto heroin. too young to die...its sad.

 

[imaimabadbitch]

^Really??
Did you hear she's pregnant with her 4th child?

really? i did not know that...
4 kids is kindv alot of kids.i wouldnt want to spend that much time in my life pregnant tbh.


david beckham is hot...just sayin.

 

[empty1]

ohh yes youre preaching to the choir on this one! haha. ive been in the program - of AA/NA - for over a year now. no one told me when i first went in, how bad some of these guys are...but i got preyed on by the guysin the program. alot of them did try to 13th step me. i actually had some situations with some of these guys at meetings thats just not cool at all...all ill say is the police probably should have gotten involved. but ehh. im not one to call the cops or ever want to go anywhere near the po-po. i do have a love/hate relatoinship with AA/NA i will admit. i feel it DOES work. but for me, i need something else in conjunction with the program. because i suffer from mental illnesses too - depression, ocd, anxiety, ptsd, hypomania...and you know at meetings you dont really talk about that stuff because "its an outside issue." ive heard in meetings people tell other people to stop taking their medications because theyre not really sober if they dont. bullshit. but i still go to meetings [went to one today.] i just have some issues with the program...

anyway...ive tried getting sober so many times. been to rehab, detox, JAIL, womens recovery house...and im 24 yrs old. my drinking was so bad my own mother put an interlock in my car. my drug habit was so bad too ive overdosed, went to jail because of it, etc. ive had my deal with every drug. my DOC is everything. im still on suboxone. right now, tryin to stay away from meth. i know that if i go back out i WILL die or go back to jail. and i cant do that. fuck no. but like you said..if you can do it, i can too :]

hun i dont think you realize how much i mean that , i know for a fact you can do it if you want!!!!! .....will have to get into my story one day , i understand your love hate relationship with the program and yes most guys are scumbags

 

[n3ophy7e]

really? i did not know that...
4 kids is kindv alot of kids.i wouldnt want to spend that much time in my life pregnant tbh.

Heehee I'm one of 5 children
And a friend at uni is one of 11!!!! ELEVEN!! WTF?!

theres one thing ive noticed over the last couple of few years, its almost like other addicts die so we can have the chance to live , as tragic as it is when we get the phone calls, its our choice what were gonna do with the news we get , as for me i celebrate her life and i would give anything for her to be able to see the world as i see it today but sadly it didnt end that way but it brings me back , i can feel the feelings , i can feel the pain, i can feel where she must have been and makes me know why im doing what im doing now and how i never want to go to that place again , i spent far to long of mine and selfishly my loved ones lives there ...........i guess im sayin abby if you can here me , its not the ending i would have chose but you have made me stronger !!!!!

Man you have such a great outlook on life, and I can tell you are a really lovely person

 

[godlovesugly]

hun i dont think you realize how much i mean that , i know for a fact you can do it if you want!!!!! .....will have to get into my story one day , i understand your love hate relationship with the program and yes most guys are scumbags

guys are scumbags but girls can be just as bad!! but anyway...id love to hear your story! maybe you can post it or message me it. thats one thing i do love about meetings, esp speaker meetings, is hearing other addicts' stories.

 

[empty1]

RIP abby

sorry for your loss, empty. i had a 16 yr old friend die from a heroin overdose. her story made the front page of the paper here...they did an article about "heroin stalking city teens." some people [alot of parents esp.] dont realize how big a problem this is becoming...alot of teens start on pills - vicodin, perks, oxycontin - then move onto heroin. too young to die...its sad.

thanks hun and im sorry about your friend !!!! i dont even know where they got this pic of he she was actually 27, i dont think they wanted to use a recent pic , i think were beautiful no matter how beat down we get , all i know i got pretty fucking beat down , i stayed rockin heroin sheik for a long time with mindset of heroin fiend fuck your american dream .....when i look back, ive done things i would never do , it makes me sad to know there is something out there that can make me(and others no matter how wonderful) empty..............

 

[empty1]

RIP Abby

I'm truly sorry for your loss, empty. Reading your post, man... its a fucking tragedy. Those memories can be hard sometimes and I feel for you, brother

thank you brother !!!!

 

[imaimabadbitch]

Heehee I'm one of 5 children
And a friend at uni is one of 11!!!! ELEVEN!! WTF?!

11! damnnn,thats alot of kids...

NSFW:

i heard something along the lines of,if each one of their kids had as many kids as the parents had,they would end up w like 325 grandchildren or some shit

 

[Swerlz]

fuckin Mormons

 

[empty1]

Heehee I'm one of 5 children
And a friend at uni is one of 11!!!! ELEVEN!! WTF?!



Man you have such a great outlook on life, and I can tell you are a really lovely person

awww thank you hun, again i am humbled ....

guys are scumbags but girls can be just as bad!! but anyway...id love to hear your story! maybe you can post it or message me it. thats one thing i do love about meetings, esp speaker meetings, is hearing other addicts' stories.

im deff gonna post my story , when i dont know, ive never tried writing it before , which is actually strange because i love to wright !!!!!

ohh yes youre preaching to the choir on this one! haha. ive been in the program - of AA/NA - for over a year now. no one told me when i first went in, how bad some of these guys are...but i got preyed on by the guysin the program. alot of them did try to 13th step me. i actually had some situations with some of these guys at meetings thats just not cool at all...all ill say is the police probably should have gotten involved. but ehh. im not one to call the cops or ever want to go anywhere near the po-po. i do have a love/hate relatoinship with AA/NA i will admit. i feel it DOES work. but for me, i need something else in conjunction with the program. because i suffer from mental illnesses too - depression, ocd, anxiety, ptsd, hypomania...and you know at meetings you dont really talk about that stuff because "its an outside issue." ive heard in meetings people tell other people to stop taking their medications because theyre not really sober if they dont. bullshit. but i still go to meetings [went to one today.] i just have some issues with the program...

anyway...ive tried getting sober so many times. been to rehab, detox, JAIL, womens recovery house...and im 24 yrs old. my drinking was so bad my own mother put an interlock in my car. my drug habit was so bad too ive overdosed, went to jail because of it, etc. ive had my deal with every drug. my DOC is everything. im still on suboxone. right now, tryin to stay away from meth. i know that if i go back out i WILL die or go back to jail. and i cant do that. fuck no. but like you said..if you can do it, i can too :]

and mental illness join the party i didn't even realize how fucked up i was untill i stopped pumping my arms with anything that would liquefy , you can be sober and on meds dont listen to that bullshit,its bigger than that, its about changing your life , it says right in the big book there may come a day where we will have to take medication responsibly , so if they want to talk program there off topic and need to take care there own shit and mind there business

 

[imaimabadbitch]

fuckin Mormons

lol wat beef u got wit mormons!

NSFW:

 

[godlovesugly]

fuckin Mormons

hahah.

and mental illness join the party i didn't even realize how fucked up i was untill i stopped pumping my arms with anything that would liquefy , you can be sober and on meds dont listen to that bullshit,its bigger than that, its about changing your life , it says right in the big book there may come a day where we will have to take medication responsibly , so if they want to talk program there off topic and need to take care there own shit and mind there business

yeah theres a lot of fuckers in AA/NA that are like that...i just learned to ignore them. realized that i shouldnt listen and believe, trust everyone in the program. not everyone knows what theyre talking about. some use the big book like their bible. they become AA nazis. they get fuckin crazy with that shit. i know the prgram and the steps work. but like i said..i need MORE than that. most addicts do have mental illnesses, along with their addictions. the two seem to go hand in hand. i take medication. i take suboxone and seroquel. those people can say whatever they want to. i dont care. they should realize that some people have chemical imbalances in their brain and just the steps and AA alone isnt going to "cure" them of all their problems. some people need meds.

 

[theartofwar]

empty1 love the ink brother - i have one i'm saving for to get done but it's gonna be a lot to make a half sleeve - fuckin broke atm tho !!

 

[SideOrderOfOpiates]

and mental illness join the party i didn't even realize how fucked up i was untill i stopped pumping my arms with anything that would liquefy , you can be sober and on meds dont listen to that bullshit,its bigger than that, its about changing your life , it says right in the big book there may come a day where we will have to take medication responsibly , so if they want to talk program there off topic and need to take care there own shit and mind there business

Yeah, I have PTSD, a panic disorder, and 'major depressive disorder'. With that said, I'm with you and godlovesugly on the the medication issue. I had my first panic attack when I was 6 years old, plus I've had benign non-essential tremors since I was 6, also (which means without a beta blocker, I shake for no reason). I've thought about seeing a drug counselor because I can't fucking stand NA or AA. Not to mention, I have some pretty hardcore background stories. Unfortunately, due to the fact that I'm prescribed the highest dose of Xanax XR...I always end up backing out in fear of someone trying to get me off my medication. That medication may not work for some people, but my flashbacks without it are seriously fucked up. I can't fathom the idea that people would want people with legit medical conditions off their medication. Seriously irritating as hell when you're trying to make major improvements in your life.

PS. Sorry for your loss empty1 and godlovesugly. There are no words. I too have lost a close friend. He made the paper, as well. The cause was never released, either that or I was too fucked up to notice. I was close enough to him to know that the speedballing was killing him regardless. Either way, I definitely know how heartbreaking it is. Sadly, we aren't alone.

Okay lovely people, I'm done with the troubling topics! Haha

 

[stellablue]

...........this is a pic of my close friend abby who lost her life from a heroin overdose on new years eve this year , my heart weeps for her and her family , we have all been blessed to be here another day, and trust me this world has so much more light and beauty for us than the darkness and pain of the path weve chosen , i accept the wake of my mistakes today and take responsibility for them ....... i love you abby , im happy you dont have to cry anymore and i can only hope you have found peace within the dissonance ....forever in my heart your friend jay

R.I.P. Abby. It is so sad to see things like this happen and what their families endour. I am so sorry for everyone envolved.

 

[SideOrderOfOpiates]

On a lighter note, here's a mediocre shot of the view from my backyard. Taken earlier today :D

 

[theartofwar]

^^ here's my 4am drive home conditions ...

 

[imaimabadbitch]

hi,its me again

my son when he was a baby,hes 3 now

me and my son,taken a few weeks ago.

TAOW that sucks,i hate it when its like that outside.it hasnt snowed here but its damn cold out.drive carefully.

sideorderofopiates pretty pic.thats a nice view