Djjapp777
Bluelighter
Have you ever seen anything so alone? A supernova in a void area of the universe, creating energies 100 fold larger than the Sun, all going unheard and unknown of. Supernovas of creativity, talent, kindness, depression... How sad to see it fade into the black. There I am.
I've killed myself before… for a girl, for a relationship. It died, and I fell. I promised never again, and held my chastity for 4 more years... until now. A girl, lovely although her eyes shown red, but a girl I could like, a girl who wouldn't make me vomit, a girl I could respect. As you may have guessed, it's over already. I crawled out of my hole to try another glimpse at the sun, and was blinded again, sunburn... heartburn...
Here is my stage again, of loneliness, depression... and more loneliness. I opened my heart again, I've been stabbed through again, I go into hiding... once again. All my urges for drugs... gone, all my urges for sex... gone, all my urges to move... gone, all my urges to interact and feel... gone. I could sit at my desk, looking at this monitor, letting these spiders eat me until the day came when the universe finally collapsed in on itself. Until that day comes, I am labeled the "bad person" and not trusted. Push me away, push me away... I'll just be over here then... you all can continue living.
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"On your planet, 1+1=2; On our planet, 1+1=1." - Ceiba
I've killed myself before… for a girl, for a relationship. It died, and I fell. I promised never again, and held my chastity for 4 more years... until now. A girl, lovely although her eyes shown red, but a girl I could like, a girl who wouldn't make me vomit, a girl I could respect. As you may have guessed, it's over already. I crawled out of my hole to try another glimpse at the sun, and was blinded again, sunburn... heartburn...
Here is my stage again, of loneliness, depression... and more loneliness. I opened my heart again, I've been stabbed through again, I go into hiding... once again. All my urges for drugs... gone, all my urges for sex... gone, all my urges to move... gone, all my urges to interact and feel... gone. I could sit at my desk, looking at this monitor, letting these spiders eat me until the day came when the universe finally collapsed in on itself. Until that day comes, I am labeled the "bad person" and not trusted. Push me away, push me away... I'll just be over here then... you all can continue living.
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"On your planet, 1+1=2; On our planet, 1+1=1." - Ceiba
