Suffering badly with anxiety and panic attacks

Plus, in the long run continuing this pattern of using higher than prescribed doses of clonazepam or alprazolam are just going to make my anxiety worse, or actually bring me to a point where I really do need those chemicals to function-something I don't want.

Yeah, you're fucked when the benzo dependency has become so poor that paradoxical reactions begin happening, e.g. inducing an anxiety attack by taking xanax, yet you need to take the xanax so as not to go into a seizure.

...A poet's choice.

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Anyway, tomorrow's a new day!

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I suffer from anxiety attacks, I would reccomend you be honest to your doctor. They may be able to offer some medication and advice on how to deal with your feelings/problems. With anxiety attack related stuff 100% honesty is the best in my opinion, since many things can cause it and set it off. Speaking from a lot of experiance as well, good luck :)
 
I've had this shit happen to me too.

A few days after I took MDMA, I smoked some weed and I had some sort of a flashback from MDMA. My body was suddenly weightless, moving was efortless, colours were brighter, the world looked like a fairytale and I freaked out.

But then I convinced myself that these things are normal, the flashbacks, especially on some strong weed. So just go with it, don't fight it.

Your problem is worse, though. Because an MDMA experience is a very intense and emotional one, your panick attack has been burned in your memory (serotonin plays a major role in memory, memories are linked to emotions - For example, when you smell something you haven't smelled in a while (like the fresh smell of spring), or you hear a song you haven't heard in a while / especially if your past experience with these smells/songs were happy experiences - you are immediately transported to the state of mind you had when you first heard that song/smelled the smell).

The same thing is happening with your panick attack. Because the bad experiences are now burned in your memory because of your very high serotonin during the MDMA trip, any small thing/trigger that could possibly remind you of your horrible MDMA trip will bring back a flashback/panick attack.

I had the same thing as you. But not on MDMA. I took something like MDPV or something nasty like that. I ended up in the hospital because my heart was at 180BPM (I was having a panick attack, the HR wasn't because of the MDPV). I honestly thought I would die that day.

It was a very traumatic experience and I felt the after-effects of it for 6 months after. I had super-anxiety with anything related to my heart beating fast. Like if I would run up some stairs and notice my heart beating faster (which is normal) I'd start to freak out just a bit, reliving the hell from the day I ended up in a hospital when my heart was beating so fast I was sure it would explode.

Smoking weed made it so much worse, I was paranoid about everything and I constantly thought the weed I was smoking was laced with MDPV.

I had some social anxiety... It wasn't that I wasn't social. I was always a very social person, and I still am. Only that after the MDPV episode, whenever I was with people I didn't know, my heart would beat really fast for a long time, and I would feel a bit nervous and overly-stimulated.

What I did was face my fears, I kept on going to school/going out/doing other stuff that may have caused me anxiety... and with time it subsided.

Now, after about 6 months or so, I am back to normal... The confident motherfucker I've been since before I started using drugs... If I think about it, I'm even more confident and have bigger self-esteem. Maybe it's because I proved to myself that I can overcome my fears :)

I wish you all the best, I hope that you solve your problem.

Remember, don't lose hope, and have patience... It takes time for your brain to heal itself.
Also, try meditating on the issue and convince yourself there is nothing to be afraid/anxious of. If you do this every day, I can guarantee a result.

About the doctor: I don't know how he could help you. Maybe you should go to a psychiatrist and seek therapy.

What the doctor might or might not do (because you're a drug user), is give you are benzos for your panick attacks. But trust me when I say that benzos are NOT the sollution. Sure, they're a godsend at first, you will feel like you got your anxiety-free life back. But that will only work for the first month. After that you will have to increase the dosage as tollerance builds fast. So more and more, until it will fuck your brain so much, that you will get extremely bad withdrawals when/if you try to quit. You will have even worse anxiety than you had before starting to take them. You'll get addicted to them.

Unless you want to be on benzos for the rest of your life, they are not really the solution for your anxiety.

I'm not saying don't use benzos. They're great. But don't use them more than twice a week or else it's pretty bad. If you're going to use them, try and use them in a situation you feel you will get the most anxiety: Like talking in public or something like that.

The best way to heal yourself is what I've described above and have done myself.

I'd say this advice is spot on. You've really got to face what's bothering you- and I've found therapy (CBT) an excellent arena in which to do this.

I've suffered from anxiety/panic for around 25 years now on and off- I've even had to go to the emergency room for one that got so bad. I can't even begin to count how many times I thought I was going to die, how many days I lived in fear. It was like a sword of Damocles hanging over my head. The best advice I can give you is this: *the importance of regular physical exercise in helping anxiety cannot be overstated*. Exercise blow's benzo's away as far as helping with panic attacks/ anxiety. If you don't already, please give serious consideration to starting a daily physical exercise program. You can PM me and I'd be glad to tell you how to get started if you're inexperienced in this arena. Otherwise- get running/ biking ASAP.
 
You are not alone, my friend and I know where you are at. I feel you. I know the darkness that comes with anxiety disorders. I myself suffer from GAD, panic disorder and OCD. At the moment, the only thing keeping me sane is Klonopin but I know that this is not a healthy choice. I do believe that you should be honest with your doctor. The MDMA may have been a trigger, just as I have found that hard drugs such as LSD trigger fear and terror inside me that I cannot even articulate into words. I wish you the best, from the bottom of my heart.
 
Tell him the truth. It will get better over time though. DOnt let him perscribe you anything tell him you would like to try it without drugs for 2 months. You will see you much better it gets. On my withdrawal from DXM I had also serverl panic attacks. Over 10 week the Anxiety has almost faded. My heart sometimes just beats a little fast. It might just be your brain recovering from the brain damage that was done by MDMA. MDMA really does like to mess with your brain chemistry. Give it some time to recover before your doc perscribes you drugs. I promise it will get better if you try hypnotising your self and meditate at least once a day. This really helped me. (http://www.wikihow.com/Perform-Self-Hypnosis). Tell your self at least 100 times a day: "Im Gonna be fine. I am just recovering. Everything will soon turn back to normal. Theirs really nothing wrong with me, its in my head.". I know that might sound dumb but it really works. And it helps allot!


Is this just for the OP ?? either way can you provide some reference for this outlandish claim
Like most stimulants, dissociative and psychedelics MDMA likes to mess with your brain and central nervous system. I found this to be intresting(http://www.drugabuse.gov/publications/infofacts/mdma-ecstasy)
 
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That's it, I haven't done too much on it, but it's good, gets you to look into things.

I've never really managed to figure out why I'm scared of it happening. When I think back to it, I don't really remember what happened in my hallucination, other than that moment where everything started to feel warm and I was suddenly so aware of what was going on, but it's kinda made me afraid of things repeating if that makes sense.

Thanks for you're advice though man :)
 
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