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Bluelighter
I've been on Subuxone for almost 2 months now and am down to .5-1mg/day SL. That's from coming off a gram a day of heroin or about 100mg of oxy on the day.
Anyway, I still fill my Oxy scrip every month and have access to it unless I give them away to avoid the temptation of using again. How my insurance pays for both subs and oxy I don't quite understand, but I'm not complaining.
So my pain was getting to me after a long day at work and I decided to take some oxy, since my sub dose is low enough to not totally blockade a full agonist like oxy. That was a mistake. I figured that I'd take some and feel a little better. Well, that turned into a week long binge of oxy with subs filling in the gaps and almost sent me back in to my old ways and I was calling to cop some tar. Luckily I didn't go through with it.
The point I'm trying to make here is; it's possible, on low doses of subs, to still get high on full agonist opiates, but not worth it. I starting waking up feeling the beginnings of WD and a lot of discomfort and it was hard to maintain the right balance of the two substances in order to keep myself in a narrow channel of feeling somewhere near okay. It wasn't worth the pain relief, which I could have just as well gotten from a few naproxen and maybe a drink or 2 to keep my mind off of it.
So, through this long winded and self serving post, I just wanted to relay to people in a similar situation that staying on subs, if you're serious about getting off the hard stuff, is worth taking seriously. Don't break, don't think you can manage both and somehow come through just fine. Really though, I just needed to write this out for myself to realize I was being stupid and need to knock it off.
Anyway, I still fill my Oxy scrip every month and have access to it unless I give them away to avoid the temptation of using again. How my insurance pays for both subs and oxy I don't quite understand, but I'm not complaining.
So my pain was getting to me after a long day at work and I decided to take some oxy, since my sub dose is low enough to not totally blockade a full agonist like oxy. That was a mistake. I figured that I'd take some and feel a little better. Well, that turned into a week long binge of oxy with subs filling in the gaps and almost sent me back in to my old ways and I was calling to cop some tar. Luckily I didn't go through with it.
The point I'm trying to make here is; it's possible, on low doses of subs, to still get high on full agonist opiates, but not worth it. I starting waking up feeling the beginnings of WD and a lot of discomfort and it was hard to maintain the right balance of the two substances in order to keep myself in a narrow channel of feeling somewhere near okay. It wasn't worth the pain relief, which I could have just as well gotten from a few naproxen and maybe a drink or 2 to keep my mind off of it.
So, through this long winded and self serving post, I just wanted to relay to people in a similar situation that staying on subs, if you're serious about getting off the hard stuff, is worth taking seriously. Don't break, don't think you can manage both and somehow come through just fine. Really though, I just needed to write this out for myself to realize I was being stupid and need to knock it off.