Suboxone withdrawal help- using kratom

[Jacks_Mommy]

I seriously need help. It's Saturday and I've been off suboxone 8 mg since last Tuesday. I've been taking small amounts of kratom- 5 grams a couple of times a day- just to mitigate the symptoms. Clonodine too. But I'm still shaking, burning and alternating freezing, and very nauseated. I can't go to the hospital to detox because I have a six month old son and my family will not understand. All I did was take my meds as prescribed but now I want off. I realize 8mg was a big jump but it was TIME. I'm 32, a stay at home mom- my husband is a recovering alcoholic. Sorry for how disorganized this post is.
I was very sick last night -- restless arms and legs, panic attacks. I haven't slept in about three days at all. It's pretty much sheer hell. I've read other posts, older posts like this on this site and it seems like people are seeing some hope by day 5 or so. But I think today was the worst day ever. Please some kind words of advice?

 

[MBRC]

Hey how is it going ? Did you order your kratom online ?

I just made a post today about the same thing. I'm going from 8mg to 4mg for 2 days then :

I have:
1lbs 3 strains of kratom
14lbs poppy seeds
1lbs poppy pods
Benzos/liquor
Weed
Imodium
Vitamins specifically for detoxing
1g butyr-fentanyl freebase ( don't plan on using )
And I pray 1-200mg methadone but that's 50/50
3g methylmethaqualone freebase

I'm gon a start with methadone done, pods, kratom/immidium all mixed with weed and benzos.

I hope you are doing fine ? So the kratom isn't doing shit for WDs ?

 

[Jacks_Mommy]

I got the kratom in capsule form but stopped using it a day or so ago so I wouldn't get addicted to it, too. Took a few little Xanax to sleep at night, like less than 1mg crumb because the restless legs and panic attacks were terrifying to both me and my husband!
Today is day 10-- I have no energy, still sweat some but my inner temp seems to be resetting. I went walking early this am, desperate for some kind for endorphins. I can barely bathe my son or change him-- I have to sit down and rest after I do. It takes every ounce of the very very limited energy I have to take care of him. I cry a lot. Music helps. Lots of showers still help. I'm hoping the 2 week mark ends this. Thank you for replying!

 

[Jacks_Mommy]

All kratom plus Clonidine did for me was keep me out of the hospital, maybe cut like a quarter of the symptoms. But I wouldnt dare try a home detox without it!