Good to know were not detailing the thread lol, but do feel free to PM me if you'd like. My original use was to cover some major pain I was going through, losing a group of my closest friends one after another. Opiates were just a blunt for life at first, I didn't even enjoy them that much, they just made me not hurt and obsess over the very early deaths of the people I loved (of course, from Opiates and benzos). I never fell in love with the feeling, even after I had a physical dependency.
When I snapped back (of course because of a girl) I knew I had to kick the habit but couldn't afford to w/d and miss class. So I started buying a friends Suboxone (he was scriped 4 8mg pills a day, took half of one IV and sold the rest) and sadly, unlike true opiates, I LOVED the feeling instantly. It replaced both my addy script and my opiate habit all in one! Energy all day with no anxiety. I committed to a longterm addiction like I was signing a check. For years I didn't question it, till one day someone stole my stash from my carry on bag during screening. I had to pretend I was sick the entire time I was visiting my friends/parents back home but many could tell the truth. The flu doesn't cause crash depression and I couldn't help but saying/doing dumb shit because I was so goddam emotional (I had been on a high dose at the time, and the fent abuse was strong in the background) but I had four weeks of break and no supply, and I lived.
I was 3 months clean when I pulled a train spotting, and made a active decision to get back on the bupe as soon as possible. That was three or four fucking years ago, fuck if I actually remember. Sometimes I out logic myself. So I'm not exactly the typical user. Not sure how many people woulda picked Bupe per say XD.
I remember the days of cheap pills, but I think Florida always had em cheapest. The pain management industry is massive down there, so the pain pills have always flowed a bit more freely. One of the things I'm always very happy about is that I never got into the needle, you should be proud that you managed to stop IVing. I know people who have switched to very low does bupe and can't stop banging the pills (even though there is little difference in the high as far as I understand from the same people). MMT is one I've never tried, likely for the best considering my love for Bupe.
I love drugs that make me more useful in my professional studies/life, so Bupe was just always so perfect (also I hate amphs, so being able to toss my script was awesome for me, I get the paradoxical effect with amps, but MAD anxiety. Shitty.)
I smoke SOOOOO much cannabis and oil. Always have. Thats something I truly don't want to deal with. Passing the drug test for my current job was harder then quitting Bupe. Weed is the only drug that is heavily habituated into my life (sub was a quick thing, didn't become a ritual at all). Without weed/hash oil....I don't know man....I smoked mad blunts in HS too, used to just drive around blunt after blunt. Then started collecting super pricey glass in college and ripping different bongs all day. I wish I had saved the money I made doing sketch shit, but my glass collection always makes me happy. Also thinking about what my clients might say if they knew my life outside the office makes me crack up. The addiction, all that fuckin acid, the DMT binge...weird shit. Not sure they would want me treating them.