LSDiesel
Bluelighter
For MYSELF, I am ALL TOO FAMILIAR with slip ups, relapse, etc... I would say I have been doing dope since 2007 and its been very bad/IV usage since about late 2009. (I started to IV only after a drug related arrest, before I only sniffed). Luckily I beat the charges and have a clean record, yet my stupid ass still fucks with dope.
I can totally understand the reasoning behind sliping up only to be disappointed, and slipping up so you really feel your dope.
I slipped up a bunch in the past few weeks but I would say that 9/10 slip ups weren't worth it. BUT there was that one slip up.... where I waited OVER 24 hours since my sub that felt so good, so good damn good, and that's the feeling that will cause me to chase it, for days, weeks, years!!! Words can't even describe what an injection of good heroin can feel like, but I know plenty of people reading this know exactly what I mean.
It's dangerous because its that slip that I can't get out of my head.
I ask myself, why can't I feel like that all the time? And I still have trouble saying no to it, even on suboxone or methadone, they both suck in comparison to being high.
What I really need to do is remind myself of all the people in my life who are affected by my habit, and the toll it has taken on my personal growth and development.
I can totally understand the reasoning behind sliping up only to be disappointed, and slipping up so you really feel your dope.
I slipped up a bunch in the past few weeks but I would say that 9/10 slip ups weren't worth it. BUT there was that one slip up.... where I waited OVER 24 hours since my sub that felt so good, so good damn good, and that's the feeling that will cause me to chase it, for days, weeks, years!!! Words can't even describe what an injection of good heroin can feel like, but I know plenty of people reading this know exactly what I mean.
It's dangerous because its that slip that I can't get out of my head.
I ask myself, why can't I feel like that all the time? And I still have trouble saying no to it, even on suboxone or methadone, they both suck in comparison to being high.
What I really need to do is remind myself of all the people in my life who are affected by my habit, and the toll it has taken on my personal growth and development.