My last two doses I made it 28hrs and the next one 26hrs. I am definitely start to feel the sub again! There is hope you guys who are not feeling anything, dose less and less frequently. I actually feel warmth in my chest like a true opiate and I actually can't believe it. I took maybe .8mg in ethanol solution and hold it for 60-90 minutes. I start to feel effects after about 60-70min. I can't believe how much I feel it. It's like the old days. I thought my tolerance was permanently fucked for life because I was taking 2-4mg and not feeling anything and chasing that warm glow I once got. Now I got that again and I am so stoked and I think you guys can achieve the same if you are having the same issue with tolerance like I was.
I do wake up feeling sick after dosing 1mg or less because the half-life is definitely decreased. I feel the effects for 12-16hrs and then wake up very uncomfortable, irritable, depressed and my body is sore, cramping and I have to use the toilet immediately but the pay off is huge. I am so glad I started this taper. I hope to be able to dose every 36hrs soon. Also, I find that gabapentin and hydroxyzine help to potentiate the glow. I take 900mg gabapentin, .1mg clonidine right before I dose and I take 50-100mg hydroxyzine pam ten minutes after I spit out the sub-ethanol solution. I find the ethanol definitely increases the effects and makes doses of 1mg or less effective, where was normally I would need 2mg and I would still not feel this glow. So, those of you stuck in a depressed cycle chasing the warmth you once had, send yourselves into mild withdrawal and then dose 1mg or less as least often as possible.
Also a good way for me to know if it's a good time to dose is to look at my pupils. I used to dose my sub 2-4mg even when my pupils were quite small or near pinpoint which just lead to me going over the ceiling and stacking up the sub in my system. Now I wait till my pupils are a little bit dilated and I start feeling mild physical withdrawal. A lot of people say its counter-intuitive to dose like this because they say the point of sub is to not feel a high and feel normal and not feel a difference when you dose at all. Well, I don't really feel a 'high' just a warmth and a glow and I definitely feel a lot better than I did on higher doses. Also, a lot of the suboxone glow and feeling is mental. I gotta tell myself I am going to feel good before I dose now, where as before I would always say I probably won't feel this or this is taking me over the ceiling. So, thoughts do influence it so I stay positive and expect to feel good and I do for at least the first 12hrs or more. Sorry for rambling you guys but I haven't had this kind of warmth in my chest from suboxone, maybe the first couple doses but this feels even better. I had all but given up on this medication and I am so glad I got a lock-box for meds (I gave the keys to my Brother and Mother) so now I can't cheat on my taper, well technically I can cheat because they don't watch me take the sub out and I have the lock-box in my room but it just makes it more of a hassle and it makes it easier to taper. Now it's time for some breakfast, tea and cigarette. It's gonna be a good day my friends