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I've been split-dosing methadone for almost 3 years now. I tapered down to 10mg in the morning / 5mg in the evening. I had a few problems with i.v. injections but it didn't spoil my methadone regimen. Anyway, today for instance I had to take 28mg in total to feel "all right". I'm cool with 15mg a day when I smoke marijuana. I use it especially for sleep because I suffer from insomnia and I'm also addicted to clonazepam so nothing will work (neuroleptics and/or 1st generation antihistamines are an option but that's rather unpleasant, leaves you somnolent on the following day and there are other side effects).
I'm going to try to talk to a psychiatrist in my city one last time on Thursday. He knows I take methadone as he's one of psychiatrists in this country who turned me down and decided not to help me at all. I want to switch from methadone to Suboxone. I think switching from 15mg of methadone a day, especially when I need split-dosing (I get withdrawal symptoms after less and less time), wouldn't be a problem for me. I just wonder if the guy gives me the proper dose of buprenorphine. When I took it on my own, I needed like 16-20mg to feel fine. I want to switch to buprenorphine because I'm tired of getting this stupid syrup which does nothing for my mood and does nothing for morphine cravings...
The problem is my insomnia. I'm not allowed to take anything causing dependence (then I shouldn't even live but...), e.g. they will test me for benzodiazepines (this guy knows I'm addicted to clonazepam but he doesn't understand it's a hard and a long process to taper off it), marijuana, amphetamine, methamphetamine, heroin, morphine, etc. I know that this rule isn't strictly obeyed. Most junkies selling syrup near the entrance to the give-away point always fail the tests but they're "veterans" on the program and this psychiatrist who is also the chief of the program in my city does nothing to clean the program and make space for people who really want to get back to life that resembles normal life at least a bit. I know that Suboxone program isn't really popular so I thought I could get this medicine. If I could only get the right dose, I would eventually not have to pay for something that is supposed to be for free. Most of these junkies don't even have insurance, they're liars and thieves, and they show no interest in getting back to the normal society. I've got no idea why this psychiatrist keeps them on the program even though he knows about everything.
Anyway, I would like to ask all of program participants if the rules about taking other psychoactive substances is so strict on their program. I know I would be kept on eye for like 2 months (= the time I would probably have to come every day to get my Suboxone). But after that? I'm not asking because I abuse a lot of drugs and I want to do it being on the program. It's just that I know benzodiazepines probably fucked me up for good and I will have problems falling asleep for the rest of my life. I don't find the sleepy effect of C. sativa indica to be a problem, I don't really find marijuana to be a program for me, I just can't sleep otherwise (well, brotizolam or a lot of estazolam is another way out but then my tolerance to benzodiazepines gets high again after just one use). I wonder if my situation would change after spending some time on the program. I want to get off clonazepam totally (I was at 2mg until I've taken 7mg today), but let's be honest - opioids aren't really drugs that are good as sleep aids (well, taken at night they rather make you nod out and wake up all the time...).
So what are your experiences? I know the situation in the US and in Poland is totally different in actually all aspects but maybe some people from Europe will also share. Thanks in advance.