^All good now, or at least so, so... asi, asi, en español... Anyways, picked up my meds, and went home to get them inside my body and mind... I was kinda freaked out though, because with all the fucking about that I have been doing, I cannot beleive that I have not experienced the precipitated wd's yet, it's just too good to be true, and since it was only just over 24 hrs since my last dose of methadone, I was expecting a little discomfort in the transition... But all went smooth.
At the clinic, they asked if I had lost weight, and instead of saying, yeah, of coarse I lost weight, I just spent the past 3 days jonesing, and barely having the appetite or money for something as simple as bread and fruit, all the while trying to fix myself and my wd's with heroin and methadone... I instead went the casual route, and mentioned that I felt a very neutralized appetite while on bupe, and my increased amounts of exercise lately, both have been contributing factors to me becoming skinnier...
...Anyways, the nurse made a good point (not that I was unaware of it, but it can easily be forgotten when one is in a wd'ing state), and it is something I'd like to express here: Do not mistake your hunger for drug cravings. Always, get the blood sugar levels where they're supposed to be at, by eating the amount of calories and such that are necessary to maintain a stable state, and then find out whether you still need drugs or not... She had had a patient once who suffered severe anxiety, and was prescribed a bunch of benzos to supplement his ORT, and all the while, it turned out that this anxiety was mainly due to the fact that the patient ate the first meal of the day late in the afternoon. Anyways, my point is, that a lot of the minor discomfort that comes around when in wd's from opiates, can be quite similar to the discomfort that comes about when blood-sugar levels are too low, so while it can be great to do drugs on an empty stomach, it may also be the wiser to eat first, and make sure that there is a natural balance in body, mind and spirit, before inducing an intoxicated state... Food for thought
