You're right! I WAS forced. I live in Broward County, Florida where there are about 500 pill mills that hand out Roxicets like candy. I got a MAJOR a major addiction to 30mg oxycodone because of those places. Go in, get an MRI, get a script, go to their in-house pharmacy, go home with 300+ pills. Nice, huh (insert sarcasm).
Anyway, I thought I was going to go in and get maybe 30 pills or at the most, 60. Before I knew it, I was eating anywhere from 10 to 15 Roxi's a day. One day I went in for my monthly appointment and the fucking clinic was CLOSED! I couldn't get in to another clinic because I needed the records from my previous clinic and those were kinda hard to get seeing as how the aforementioned place keeping said records were simply shut down. Closed indefinitely. I used the money I was going to use to pay for the doctor and bought 30 Roxis off the street. I took them in two days and went to the detox clinic on the third day.
I'm glad I did. I was sick and tired of spending over a thousand dollars a month for those fucking Roxicets and I starting to spiral out of control. I didn't care about shit anymore. I've got a great job, a wonderful husband, and I live in a great house on the water about a mile from the beach. Everything going for me, yet I would wake up in the morning thinking about oxy and going to sleep at night thinking about oxy. It sucked ass.
Anyway, I'm here now... On Suboxone..... and I feel like I have gotten my life back. I'm getting work done more effectively and efficiently, my husband said he feels like he's got the woman he married back and my mother says she feels like she's got her daughter back.
However, I miss getting high. I would smoke pot, but I can't because of the threat of having my urine tested and thrown out of the detox program.
I may not have the right attitude for someone who is on Suboxone, but I'll get there.... I HAVE to. I certainly don't want to go back to that fucking clinic (that has since reopened) and give them one third of my monthly income. And I don't want to be that wasted zombie that didn't give a crap about anything.
I just want to get a little high!
PS. Sorry for the long post. I just felt like I needed to give a little history about why I'm on Suboxone.