All right thanks. I shot 3 bags last night/ this morning, the last one at 3AM. Now I woke up and my pupils are still pinpoint and I look like I'm still high or maybe coming down on heroin (very pale skin, droopy eyes, a little shaky). I am seeing some friends later and one of them is also a recovering addict like me on bupe and if they saw me like this they would know I had used something.
So I really want to take suboxone before I see them in the hopes that it will make me look much more normal so I'm not in withdrawal and my eyes look fine. So if I take it this afternoon around 3 (12 hours later) will I be fine and will it make me look normal again? My thinking is tha if I take bupe starting at very tiny oses to be careful and continue upping it until I feel and look good it will knock any lingering heron off my receptors and replace it with bupe due to the higher affinity. I just don't know what that would feel like, it doesn't seem like it would put me in full precipitated withdrawal since when I started suboxone I had 20 hours clean on a 15 bag a day habit, but I was still in WD with big pupils feeling shitty.
So what does precipitated withdrawal feel like? In case I get it even to a tiny degreeI want to know what to expect. Why does it make people so sick if they take it while still having opiates in their system since in theory the bupe knocks everything off your receptors and plants itself there, so you would still be getting agonist and antagonist effects... Is it the shock of that happening that makes you sick?
I was at a low does of suboxone (the last I had was 1mg IVed 24 hours before using last night) which was why I was able to get high. Now I want to take my bupe today so I look and feel better so no one would be able to tell by looking at me anything was dramatically different.
Sorry for the long post, I would appreciate any insights or first hand experience with this. I woke up and seriously considered shooting another bag but I had the willpower to stop myself, so I hope this is a good sign I can get back on a clean track and not into a full blown relapse.