Damn man i can't even start to phantom that . I hope you take care of yourself . Sometime i think about how good heroine must be (never done h) and how bad i want to melt into the couch . I mean all other kind of drugs always end with feeling bad (meth/cocaine/alcohol/crack/ opioides are heaven compared to that .Lol, well, I was a h addict for 20 years (on and off) if that counts.