Hello everyone I'm very new to this any support would b great. I'm let's say Emmanuel I'm on my 23 day of detox and I'm hating life? I'm ready to feel better I have a strong mind set and IM NEVER GOING BACK EVER. So I've been on methadone for seven years then sub for 1 1/2 year. I quit at 4 mg a day and it's been rough. But my ? Is when am I gonna feel better cause I'm so ready to. Thanks to any answers have a great day and God bless
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Sub detox ready to feel better but I'm not
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Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
You will feel better, it just takes time. I used heroin for about a decade and was on buprenorphine and then methadone for about a total of four years. I started to feel big improvements at the ninety day mark.
With how long you've been taking opioids, it will take a good bit of time to get to a place you're feeling better. Sitting around and just stressing out about how you don't feel okay isn't going to help much though.
What made you decide to get off the buprenorphine/methadone?
Most people who get off them who struggle seem to get off them before they're ready to - which is to say, before they have done what they need to do to organize effective support and restructure their lifestyles away from previous patterns of using behaviors and to new, healthier patterns of behavior.
With how long you've been taking opioids, it will take a good bit of time to get to a place you're feeling better. Sitting around and just stressing out about how you don't feel okay isn't going to help much though.
What made you decide to get off the buprenorphine/methadone?
Most people who get off them who struggle seem to get off them before they're ready to - which is to say, before they have done what they need to do to organize effective support and restructure their lifestyles away from previous patterns of using behaviors and to new, healthier patterns of behavior.
Thank u so much for the support. I've been doing them for 10 + years and I come off because I wanted to not by force. To be real I feel 95% human today I'm auctally loving life today I really don't think I've ever felt this good.??? Thank my higher power? but thank u I really didn't think anybody cared but it really doesn't matter what anybody thinks I'm happy and feeling really good. Again thank u
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
No problem Eg, it is our pleasure! I would be very interested to hear more about your store of why you decided to get off MAT and what kind of support you have in your life right now. It is going to be a long hard road to get to where you want to be - the journey of your life without a doubt - but that doesn't mean it will be impossible. Sometime the light at the end of the tunnel will be hard to see, but even at the darkest of times it will be there.
If nothing else, the most important part of recovery is keeping yourself alive and physically and mentally as healthy as possible. The vast, vast majority of people age out of addiction and naturally slow down their substance use, in most cases stopping altogether, by the end of the twenties and beginning of their thirties. All you need to do is get yourself to that point really. Things tend to work themselves out if you just keep trying.
Clearly your head is in the right place! Just try and not get too ahead of yourself. It is so easy to get caught up and lost in where we want to go in life we forget where we actually are. One foot after the other my friend. Surround yourself with people that possess qualities you would like to emulate yourself and you'll go so much further than you could imagine
If nothing else, the most important part of recovery is keeping yourself alive and physically and mentally as healthy as possible. The vast, vast majority of people age out of addiction and naturally slow down their substance use, in most cases stopping altogether, by the end of the twenties and beginning of their thirties. All you need to do is get yourself to that point really. Things tend to work themselves out if you just keep trying.
Clearly your head is in the right place! Just try and not get too ahead of yourself. It is so easy to get caught up and lost in where we want to go in life we forget where we actually are. One foot after the other my friend. Surround yourself with people that possess qualities you would like to emulate yourself and you'll go so much further than you could imagine
Thank u ur very supportive and it means a lot. Its crazy u said that about the agecauseim 29 lol wow has it really been that long. I'm just happy to start felling better. I do haves family wit2 lil girls and my wife. My wife has been here with me thetime through it all and she is my rock and means everything to me and her and our 2 lil ladies have made me laugh so much its made my face hurt lol. Again thank u andill keep updating.
Hello peeps just figured I'd update my progress I'm on 26th day and it just keeps getting better. So I'm gonna try and go get a job tomorrow so don't know if that's pushing my self to much or what. But I feel like I'm ready I really do. Ill keep updating if not tonight tomorrow
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Nothing wrong with giving yourself a little nudge. What kind of work are you looking for?
cj
Bluelight Crew
When I detoxed off sub I felt a little better at day 17 then felt a little bit better at day 24. Then I think PAWS kicked in and I felt worse again. By being on MAT for so long your gonna have to prepare for a long road and settle for small victories of feeling better compared to you did a week ago instead of feeling better all at once. What are you doing to help your brain make endorphins? I hear running and exercise helps but I was always too sick to really try it. I do recall one memory from rehab where they took us too ride go carts and it was fun that made the withdrawals go away for an hour or two. So anything that releases dopamine or endorphins is your friend. Its a long journey getting off these long acting opiates but people do it. Try to limit any stress in your life if you can just get back to basics eating healthy being with people you like hobbies positive things. Ill bet you will feel mostly normal by the 6 month mark. Also the nature of paws is that some days are horrible while some you feel totally normal. I recommend getting a therapist if you can afford it. Also try to keep a journal of how your feeling so you can see the incremental progress your making so it doesn't seem like nothing is changing.
I've been running, pushups,sit ups, and anything that gets me going. I'm auctally going for a job tomorrow so start giving guides on how to do repelling, 4wheeler riding and zip lining. So I'm pretty excited about it. Over all I detoxed from methadone and made it 60 day and felt horrible compaired to that I feel wonderful. I'm just happy the same happiness u feel as a child. I'll post again soon thanks guys for the support I really mean it. It helps more than anyone could imagine.
Hey E! Sounds like you've turned the corner! I'm on day 64 of CT off a fairly high daily dose of sub. I have found that my days are generally great with a few minutes of anxiety and frustration mixed in. Physically I am wonderful, but still trying to master dealing with life's ups and downs without any opiates to ease my way.
Keep up the great attitude! I,too, tried to CT from methadone and it was Hell on earth. I try and remember how I felt then and it sure makes me appreciate how I feel today! Best of luck...
Keep up the great attitude! I,too, tried to CT from methadone and it was Hell on earth. I try and remember how I felt then and it sure makes me appreciate how I feel today! Best of luck...
That's awesome eyes open. It does take a lot of courage for all of is to do what we've done. And yeah the stress doesn't help. But today is a good day and I'm doing better everyday that passes. If anyone needs to talk I'm here anytime cause I know how stressful the holidays are. Thanks to everyoneon here that has helped me ur words are so inspiring for me. Again thank u
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
What do you mean? Counting days really doesn't do anything - it is just a commonly used metric used to reflect upon your journey. Counting days won't keep you sober, although I will admit it is nice to think about how long it has been since I've used heroin or methadone... however, the nice feelings that thinking about how long it has been since I last got high doesn't really mean shit when I don't have my day-to-day routine organized in my actual IRL life.
What are you doing to fill your time Eg? Doing anything for fun?
What are you doing to fill your time Eg? Doing anything for fun?
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Doing anything fun today?
Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
stay strong!