hello !
About a year ago i met a girl at the university . we took the same course. She was pretty and interesting but after a couple of days i saw her with her boyfriend so i said to myself she's off limits. Day by day we became fiends until one night in a university party we were drunk and she hit on me out of the blue. We had sex and this continued for about a month only when we were drunk. She said that she loved her bf and won't leave him and i said that this can't go on and we should stop talking and so. She seemed ok with it no problem.(what a slut i thought).
But the heart wants what the heart wants. I had feelings for her. I tried very hard to avoid and not talking to her. During the next 6-7 months i saw her like 2-3 times by accident or in some friends gatherings. I was polite , friendly but distant. even met her bf once (awkward) . I met another girl we were together for like one month but obviously she was still in my mind . so we broke up , it wasn't fair for the girl on my behalf.
All this until one month ago were out of the blue she called me in the middle of the night asking me were i was. I knew i shouldn't tell her but i could not help it. she came found me with two of her friends in a bar and after we had sex . Everything came back. She said should have chased her more and that she thinks i will be her next bf. after that sex again a week later and then she disappeared again. Her girl friends know about me and seem to like me (maybe thats a good sign) .Sometimes she seems sooo into me. I know she just using me won't leave her bf but when the time comes i can't resist.
i can find sex elsewhere but its not the same.
I know she's a cheater and not worth it and and and but.. either i must have her (heart) or must forget her (right thing to do). i tried both with no results.
i have no control over the situation
About a year ago i met a girl at the university . we took the same course. She was pretty and interesting but after a couple of days i saw her with her boyfriend so i said to myself she's off limits. Day by day we became fiends until one night in a university party we were drunk and she hit on me out of the blue. We had sex and this continued for about a month only when we were drunk. She said that she loved her bf and won't leave him and i said that this can't go on and we should stop talking and so. She seemed ok with it no problem.(what a slut i thought).
But the heart wants what the heart wants. I had feelings for her. I tried very hard to avoid and not talking to her. During the next 6-7 months i saw her like 2-3 times by accident or in some friends gatherings. I was polite , friendly but distant. even met her bf once (awkward) . I met another girl we were together for like one month but obviously she was still in my mind . so we broke up , it wasn't fair for the girl on my behalf.
All this until one month ago were out of the blue she called me in the middle of the night asking me were i was. I knew i shouldn't tell her but i could not help it. she came found me with two of her friends in a bar and after we had sex . Everything came back. She said should have chased her more and that she thinks i will be her next bf. after that sex again a week later and then she disappeared again. Her girl friends know about me and seem to like me (maybe thats a good sign) .Sometimes she seems sooo into me. I know she just using me won't leave her bf but when the time comes i can't resist.
i can find sex elsewhere but its not the same.
I know she's a cheater and not worth it and and and but.. either i must have her (heart) or must forget her (right thing to do). i tried both with no results.
i have no control over the situation