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⭐️ Social ⭐️ Stimulant psychosis, how far down the rabbit hole have you fallen?

I never thought my psychosis was that bad until I accidentally ingested 400~mg of good quality methamphetamine. First time and last time to do meth.

The guy was supposed to give me way less than that, so I thought I didn’t need to weigh it, I had already smoked most anyways (dumb move, always weigh). He ended up “gifting” me way more to “win me over” :/

Anyways, I spent hours trying to make sense of the shadows under my door, shadow figures in the corner, people standing outside in the dark watching me through the window, auditory hallucinations, etc.

I thought, “well, this is it. I’ve triggered schizophrenia and now I’ll have it forever”.

A week later the paranoia went away and thank god I’m fine now.

Funny thing:

Apparently I was texting one of my Spanish friends for an hour or so. However, instead of in English I was legit speaking in really really good Spanish. I hadn’t taken spanish in years, yet I knew what they were saying and how to respond right away.

It was wack. Ever since my Spanish has been much better lmfao.
 
I have gone horribly down the psychosis rabbit hole although it's usually induced by psychedelics and not stimulants. But I did have an incident in Colombia when I got psychotic from cocaine and started thinking birds on telephone poles were watching me and that I could talk to them in sign language, which was really bizarre. Then I became convinced there were Neo Nazis watching my every move and that random people on the street were spying on me. There were a lot of things I became delusional about but honestly I can't remember all of it because I was drugged heavily with anti psychotics upon my return home. During my most recent episode I became convinced that there were aliens who ate people at my bus stop and that they were about to eat this family who was waiting there. I also became convinced that people in my apartment were actually prisoners and it was my responsibility to keep track of them (like I was the warden). Really embarrassing and once again I was put in the psych ward and drugged with antipsychotics.
Meth psychosis landed me in psyche ward 6 times. I understand how dillusional it can get and I had psychotic episodes that I can’t explain.
 
I never thought my psychosis was that bad until I accidentally ingested 400~mg of good quality methamphetamine. First time and last time to do meth.

The guy was supposed to give me way less than that, so I thought I didn’t need to weigh it, I had already smoked most anyways (dumb move, always weigh). He ended up “gifting” me way more to “win me over” :/

Anyways, I spent hours trying to make sense of the shadows under my door, shadow figures in the corner, people standing outside in the dark watching me through the window, auditory hallucinations, etc.

I thought, “well, this is it. I’ve triggered schizophrenia and now I’ll have it forever”.

A week later the paranoia went away and thank god I’m fine now.

Funny thing:

Apparently I was texting one of my Spanish friends for an hour or so. However, instead of in English I was legit speaking in really really good Spanish. I hadn’t taken spanish in years, yet I knew what they were saying and how to respond right away.

It was wack. Ever since my Spanish has been much better lmfao.
I could speak way better Spanish in meth too.
 
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