I'm still on methadone. I didn't manage to come to 0. I think I've come to the point I can't live without any discomfort without a steady dose of methadone just to make me feel normal.
Buying methadone from people from methadone programs is expensive if you do that all the time. Maybe someone can handle it but I don't work regularly anymore and what I get is not enough to cover the costs.
So, I decided to go to the program and talk to the supervisor. I will lay off the situation I'm in and maybe I'll get on the program without going to hospital. I can't go to hospital now because of school, I'm in my final year and I've got final exams without passing which I won't be able to study. I don't want to postpone finishing this part of my education as I feel really bad in this school and I want to leave it as soon as possible.
It's really terrible here when you need public help. And the detox in hospital is very unpleasant, methadone dose is way under needed and people are dying from cravings there. Besides, it is to switch people from heroin/morphine to methadone. I'm already switched. I've been on methadone for 2 months already.
I hope they can put me on some low dose. I can live with 50ml a day without feeling any discomfort and people are put on 100ml a day so that's a big difference. I meet all requirements. I'm of age, I'm almost 19, I've been addicted for more than 3 years, I'm deep in this shit for 3,5 years.
I'm planning to go there next week. My mum doesn't want me to go on methadone permanently but she can't understand how hard it is for me to feel normal without daily help of some low (relatively of course!) dose of methadone. So I don't even have any support from relatives.
Anyway, I will brace myself up and give it a try.
Buying methadone from people from methadone programs is expensive if you do that all the time. Maybe someone can handle it but I don't work regularly anymore and what I get is not enough to cover the costs.
So, I decided to go to the program and talk to the supervisor. I will lay off the situation I'm in and maybe I'll get on the program without going to hospital. I can't go to hospital now because of school, I'm in my final year and I've got final exams without passing which I won't be able to study. I don't want to postpone finishing this part of my education as I feel really bad in this school and I want to leave it as soon as possible.
It's really terrible here when you need public help. And the detox in hospital is very unpleasant, methadone dose is way under needed and people are dying from cravings there. Besides, it is to switch people from heroin/morphine to methadone. I'm already switched. I've been on methadone for 2 months already.
I hope they can put me on some low dose. I can live with 50ml a day without feeling any discomfort and people are put on 100ml a day so that's a big difference. I meet all requirements. I'm of age, I'm almost 19, I've been addicted for more than 3 years, I'm deep in this shit for 3,5 years.
I'm planning to go there next week. My mum doesn't want me to go on methadone permanently but she can't understand how hard it is for me to feel normal without daily help of some low (relatively of course!) dose of methadone. So I don't even have any support from relatives.
Anyway, I will brace myself up and give it a try.