new month, new year, new beginnings
spent new years at an NA speakathon which was fantastic. January 5th will be my one year mark. how's everyone doing today?
new month, new year, new beginningsspent new years at an NA speakathon which was fantastic. January 5th will be my one year mark. how's everyone doing today?
think im gonna go from now to february 1st without tobacco. 8(
Nice work on 100+. Fuck, the holidays were so hard. I had to skip out on some festivities, to make sure I'd stay clean. Some people were pissed and let down at first, but I explained myself. I've been really open about my use in the past, so I'm now being open about my recovery.happy new year people......103 days clean and sober i made it threw the holidays was hard man but hey i am here
Heres to a clean and sober year good luck people![]()
new month, new year, new beginningsspent new years at an NA speakathon which was fantastic. January 5th will be my one year mark. how's everyone doing today?
Do YOU think it's a good idea?Awesome! Congratulations!
I'm definitely struggling with sobriety right now. I really don't wanna go back to a 12-step program, but I need some sort of support network. And I don't want to be "fully" sober. I mainly want to eliminate alcohol, stimulants, and benzos from my life, but I want to be able to use psychedelics recreationally. Is that a bad idea? I also wanna finally quit smoking!
DexterMeth said:Do YOU think it's a good idea?
BlueHues said:Man, I was in AA and NA for years....I had 3 years clean off everything one time.....I don't know if I can handle going back and hearing it all again, but there's really nobody else out there to talk to about it.....
The fanatical emphasis on "the steps" is what gets me...I mean, I don't have a "problem" with the steps, but it can get where that's all certain people talk about at all!! IDK
It's hard to answer objectively, really. Sometimes I believe that I've been indoctrinated to think that abstaining from all "drugs" is the only way to go. But I think psychedelics are stigmatized unfairly. I mean, smoking and drinking coffee is acceptable to people in AA. I don't like how black-and-white some people make it out to be. Bill Wilson dropped acid during his sobriety, and he even allegedly advocated its use to treat alcoholism. And I've tripped what I would consider to be a fair amount, and I always have those moments of introspection that actually inspire me to strive for sobriety and changing my lifestyle.
That's one thing I have a problem with, too. Getting inundated with same regurgitated stories and cliches can get very tiresome to me. I don't like how jaded I've become about AA/NA, and maybe I need to examine that further because I'm probably just being too judgmental. My biggest problem with the program is not the steps, which I actually think are awesome, but the fellowship aspect. Don't get me wrong, I've met awesome people in recovery, but I don't want my life to revolve around AA, either. My mom maybe goes to one or two meetings a week and has friends from the program, but AA is not her life. I think I might just be focusing too much on the negative when I go into meetings because it's a lot easier to identify the negative rather than exerting the effort to change my mentality about the things that annoy me.
Btw, I know there are support groups out there that don't utilize the 12-steps. Perhaps look to see if there are some in your area? There are many places that provide free counseling, too. Maybe that could be an adequate alternative?![]()
I'm sorry to hear that man. I've lost relationships while clean and its tough: my fiance and my childhood bestfriend are together, the love of my life (not my ex fiance) barely speaks to me anymore, etc. I still stayed clean despite all that. I learned to enjoy being single which allows me to focus on myself. yeah it blows not getting regular sex but I have to be careful about "using people" like I used drugs. I used people for a while just cuz I liked the way they made me feel. it was a new high in a sense. I guess I am classified as codependent.218 days clean and sober today...
thing just blew up with my lover, probably losing the girl I love... I dont want to use and heroin, or even pot for that matter, but I'm wanting to start drinking... meet people in bars, have a good time and stop missing out...
I may just be sad, but i dont know anymore...
love is a high eh, with really bad lows / comedowns...
i know a broken relationship isnt an excuse to drink, but i kind of just want to... i know its a slippery slope as well, and its famous words to say it wont bring me to drugs....
