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Staying Clean v. JaNEWary

herbavore said:
It isn't! Don't listen to the crap that tells you that. That is not living. Don't get confused by a transitional time and project it out forever. You can do so much more with your life once you have the addiction monkey off your back. That kind of thinking will take you right back to using. Stay strong, put meaning into whatever job you have for now, pursue interests without fear. Nurture your spirit as much as your body.<3
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maybe im being a little dramatic, but i think you know what i mean. The typical day out day in type thing...
 
SkagKush said:
maybe im being a little dramatic, but i think you know what i mean. The typical day out day in type thing...
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I feel ya. since I've been sick for a few weeks (depression is creeping in too) my life has slowed down to monotonous sleep, meetings, drug court, some friend time. been two weeks since I worked out but my body is telling me its not ready... I miss lifting and lost 5 pounds body weight (probably mostly water so no big deal). hoping to feel better soon.
 
i am going to meetings, working with my sponsor on a weekly basis as well as calling him daily. also only in contact with sober folks in my area, some days its great and some days im holding on with everything i have in me. but thats how it is in early sobriety. also praying morning and night, reading literature. if i skip out on one of these things it will crumble apart eventually, and if i skip out on 1+ it will fall apart that much faster. i gotta be on the grind for recovery like i was on the grind for dope, but when i wake up in the morning its better then having to get 50 bucks to not be sick, regardless!!
 
Day three for drugs/alcohol and day ten for tobacco (w/ ecig)

Psychological issues have resurfaced in full effect lately, but I'm fighting the best I can until I can get in for professional help. Money is foreign at the moment, with an impending probation payment that may determine whether or not I go back to prison. Unemployed, I guess, because my boss seems to have fallen off the face of the planet, and nobody wants to hire a multiple felon who has a spotty at best work history. Family tension, blah blah blah.

I got 99 problems, but at least today getting fucked up wasn't one. :\

Just trying to hold onto my sanity and my faith as best I can.
 
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