Got told about this site from the nurse who is doing my home detox with me. Been on methadone for last 8 years, ranging from 80ml to 40ml. Went from 40ml down to 20ml at 5ml a week, then i done the rest my way; taking 10 days roughly to come off the rest, but by using street heroin to make it easier. I knew i'd be back on heroin, but i know i'd have more chance of coming off the heroin then ever off of that nasty liquid. So its been 2 weeks since the last use of methadone & been using heroin since, but started my home detox yesterday. Woke up ok & pretty determined, nurse turned up at 10 am, saw again at 1pm, but by 12 midnight........ i'd already gone & used, got hold of about 45 ml of methadone. Back to square one, he's just left (3pm) i won't be taking any meds as at the mo i don't really need, but honestly, can feel the anxiety already. I am using Librium instead of Lofexidine as have slow heart rate already. Thought maybe writing through this may help?