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I wonder when I'll die sometimes. I do alot of over the counter drugs because it passes the time. I don't have the motivation to get a job, and I feel weak for thinking about quitting.

I just want to be happy

 

If happiness is what you want go after it. Only you can hold you back. Cliche but true

 

do something else that passes the time! listen to lectures, exercise, learn an instrument, draw, paint, express yourself, mentally stimulate yourself with puzzles or games like sudoku, go somewhere you've never been before, meet new people, hell even just watch TV or something.

Stimulate yourself in any way that isn't drugs. Your life is worth more than you know.