hazmatz
Bluelighter
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Hi all,
I am hoping someone can give me some advice for a specific scenario. I plan on rolling at a party in the near future and I am not sure if I should re-dose or not due to some certain factors.
I have rolled in the past but I was negligent and would take more than what is healthy & I'm almost positive that most of the stuff I took was cut with something. I rolled several times in one month last summer (not positive but I estimate around half a gram) and decided to take a break after that. 2 months after that I had a terrifying shroom trip that plagued me with intense generalized anxiety and panic attacks for half a year afterwards. My psychotherapist claimed that my anxiety was a result of both the traumatic mushroom experience and my low serotonin levels, which makes sense so I took 5htp as a supplement for a month. However, I am now 90% recovered from this anxiety and panic (done with therapy too!
) and feel that I am ready to get back into using MDMA. (as of now, it has been 8 months since my last time rolling. Is that enough time for my tolerance to lower at all?)
So I'm going to be dropping 140mg of (pure, tested) MDMA at an upcoming party but what if 140mg is not enough for me to roll anymore because of my tolerance due to past abuse? Also, I want to be able to last the whole night instead of coming down after just a couple of hours...but my dilemma is that I'm scared that my anxiety and panic disorders may relapse after the night is over. What if I wake up the next day overridden with the same anxiety that I spent months trying to desperately fight? Can low levels of serotonin do this? Or is low serotonin solely responsible for depression only? If I were to re-dose I would only take about 50mg...but is it worth it?
Some additional info:
6'2" male, 130lbs (quite skinny)
initial dose will be in capsule form, re-dose would be a parachute
Any response is appreciated. If you are able to be specific with details that would also be greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance
I am hoping someone can give me some advice for a specific scenario. I plan on rolling at a party in the near future and I am not sure if I should re-dose or not due to some certain factors.
I have rolled in the past but I was negligent and would take more than what is healthy & I'm almost positive that most of the stuff I took was cut with something. I rolled several times in one month last summer (not positive but I estimate around half a gram) and decided to take a break after that. 2 months after that I had a terrifying shroom trip that plagued me with intense generalized anxiety and panic attacks for half a year afterwards. My psychotherapist claimed that my anxiety was a result of both the traumatic mushroom experience and my low serotonin levels, which makes sense so I took 5htp as a supplement for a month. However, I am now 90% recovered from this anxiety and panic (done with therapy too!
) and feel that I am ready to get back into using MDMA. (as of now, it has been 8 months since my last time rolling. Is that enough time for my tolerance to lower at all?)So I'm going to be dropping 140mg of (pure, tested) MDMA at an upcoming party but what if 140mg is not enough for me to roll anymore because of my tolerance due to past abuse? Also, I want to be able to last the whole night instead of coming down after just a couple of hours...but my dilemma is that I'm scared that my anxiety and panic disorders may relapse after the night is over. What if I wake up the next day overridden with the same anxiety that I spent months trying to desperately fight? Can low levels of serotonin do this? Or is low serotonin solely responsible for depression only? If I were to re-dose I would only take about 50mg...but is it worth it?
Some additional info:
6'2" male, 130lbs (quite skinny)
initial dose will be in capsule form, re-dose would be a parachute
Any response is appreciated. If you are able to be specific with details that would also be greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance
