The Stranglers -Golden Brown
“Golden Brown texture like sun
Lays me down with my mind she runs
Throughout the night
No need to fight
Never a frown with Golden Brown
Every time just like the last
On her ship tied to the mast
To distant lands
Takes both my hands
Never a frown with Golden Brown”
-It all started with surgery to fix the bones in my hand. They gave me morphine after the procedure, and I found that I love opiates, this song reminds me why.
Linkin Park -Breaking the Habit
“Memories consume like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
'Cause inside, I realize that I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
Clutching my cure, I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more than anytime before’
I had no options left again”
--As someone who’s battled addiction my whole life, I find these lyrics make me emotional, reminds me I’m not alone with my struggles.
Red Hot Chili Peppers Lyrics -Under The Bridge
“(Under the bridge downtown)
Is where I drew some blood
(Under the bridge downtown)
I could not get enough
(Under the bridge downtown)
Forgot about my love
(Under the bridge downtown)
I gave my life away, yeah
Yeah yeah
Oh, no, no no no, yeah yeah
Oh no, I said oh, yeah yeah
Here I stay”
--I have never shot up, everything else I feel that shit.
Alice In Chains -Down In A Hole
“Bury me softly in this womb
I give this part of me for you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
In a tomb... in bloom
Down in a hole and I don't know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
Oh, you don't understand who they thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now I'm a man who won't let himself be
Down in a hole, feeling so small
Down in a hole, losing my soul
I'd like to fly
But my wings have been so denied
Down in a hole and they've put all the stones in their place
I've eaten the sun so my tongue has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more of my feelings beneath
Down in a hole, feeling so small
Down in a hole, losing my soul
I'd like to fly
But my wings have been so denied
Bury me softly in this womb
Oh I want to be inside of you
I give this part of me for you
Oh I want to be inside of you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
Oh I want to be inside of you
In a tomb... in bloom
Oh I want to be inside...
Down in a hole, feeling so small
Down in a hole, losing my soul
Down in a hole, feeling so small
Down in a hole, out of control
I'd like to fly
But my wings have been so denied”
-I was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder in 2012. Going from hypomania to feeling utterly miserable, this song really fits that feeling. BTW if you wanna hear this song I’d recommend the MTV Unplugged version.