songs about addiction/recovery

Snafu in the Void

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(unofficial video) unreleased Tapeworm song feat Trent Reznor






(I always thought this song was about suicide... and still do, but some people think it's about addiction, so I included it - I can see both interpretations)
 
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This song is about crystal meth addiction.



I heard this song so many times on the radio, had no idea it was about meth! I never really payed attention to the lyrics. Had no idea they literally say crystal meth in the lyrics. Shit lol.

So obvious after reading the lyrics!
 


Your hand on his arm
Hay stack charm around your neck
Strung out and thin
Calling some friend trying to cash some check
He's acting dumb
That's what you've come to expect

Needle in the hay
Needle in the hay
Needle in the hay
Needle in the hay

He's wearing your clothes
Head down to toes a reaction to you
You say you know what he did
But you idiot kid
You don't have a clue
Sometimes they just get caught in the eye
You're pulling him through

Needle in the hay
Needle in the hay
Needle in the hay
Needle in the hay

Now on the bus
Nearly touching this dirty retreat
Falling out 6th and Powell a dead sweat in my teeth
Gonna walk walk walk
Four more blocks plus one in my brain
Down downstairs to the man
He's gonna make it all okay
I can't be myself
I can't be myself
And I don't want to talk
I'm taking the cure so I can be quiet
Whenever I want
So leave me alone
You ought to be proud that I'm getting good marks

Needle in the hay
Needle in the hay
Needle in the hay
Needle in the hay
 


where did you get that burned out look?
why did you sell all your
favorite books
everybody's got a question for you
everybody wants to know if it's true
everybody's saying that you stole it from them
everybody's saying that you'll do it again
everybody's saying that you're falling apart

I don't want to see you lost
I don't want to watch you lose your way
I don't want to have to say you seem ok
I don't want to make that choice
pretending that I just don't hear your voice
everytime I see you somewhere in this town
but everybody's saying that you're crumbling down

where are you going with that nice tv
what happened to the one that you borrowed from me
everybody's been looking for you
everybody wants to know if it's true
everybody's saying that you stole it from them
everybody's saying that you'll do it again
everybody's saying that you're falling apart

I don't want to see you lost
I don't want to watch you lose your way
I don't want to have to say you seem ok
I don't want to make that choice
pretending that I just don't hear your voice
everytime I see you somewhere in this town
but everybody's saying that you're crumbling down
 


Memories consume like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more than any time before
I have no options left again
I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight
I'm breaking the habit (tonight)
 
I always took that to be a song about loss and grief, not so much about addiction at all...

I can certainly see both interpretations, but to me it's about his alcoholism.

If you listen to the lyrics it makes sense

Sage was notoriously struggling with alcoholism at the time he wrote this

just my interpretation:

"the sterile robots want to talk to me about detox" what else could this mean? Well, I guess he could be talking about getting toxins/infections out of a loved one, too (I'm very open minded)


Meet me... at the family room on the side of the intensive care unit.
Immediately... I'll carry a tune, but the siren's so loud I can't hear my music.
Keep free... of negative thoughts. Everything'll be fine we all assumed.
That is would go back to the way things were. That it would go back to normal soon.

- his family meeting him after an OD or drug related medical scare. He used music as his outlet so he's "listening to music louder than he care here the ambulance" and "wishing things would go back to normal, the way they were" before his addiction


Meet me... halfway and I'll go that extra length just to help your strength.
Meet me at the AA meeting, needing to take more than 12 steps.
Bring me to your hiding place so I can face your vice grip.
I'll chisel every single monkey off your back with this ice pick.

- him getting into AA, where they are huge on helping each other beat their addiction


I saw the moon in a way that I'd never seen it before when I looked up that night,
Into the sky... wondering why... looking for answers. Guess I ain't asked right.

- this can easily be interpreted both ways, but I have personally looked up into the sky... wondering why... looking for answers on why I can't be sober

Plus the general way he emphasizes crack pipes in the chorus... kinda makes it obvious for me


Any song can be interpreted its own way by the listener. That's one of the magical things about music
 
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