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socially inept people

I don't like big social gatherings where everyone knows each other. This is pure hell for me because I really dislike trying to fit in to pre-existing social groups. I also notice people tend to be standoffish in these situations making you feel even more awkward.

I hate loud thumping clubs where people can't hear each other and everyone is all dressed up. I was once coked up at one of these clubs and it was the worst drug experience i've ever had. Imagine being hot, sweaty, annoyed, and then surrounded by a lot of douchebags all the while coked to the gills thus enhancing each shitty moment.

I'm fine with going out with 4-5 people I don't really know to do something. I can also strike up a conversation with strangers about stuff.

I guess what I hate is to be put in a situation where appearances and superficial attitude means more.
 
TouchN' Stuff Blvd said:
Yes, 100% me. On even the most sociable drugs, i only feel moderately more comfortable in social situations, mostly because I feel more confident in setting my own sort of rules to follow with social contact with others, and i dont worry about whom I put off in the process. Creeping people out / creating awkward social situations has almost become like an art to me
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I couldnt have said that better myself. it just seems so true.

on a side note: I could only imagine a party with the people in this thread...

:D
 
Vault13 said:
I don't like big social gatherings where everyone knows each other. This is pure hell for me because I really dislike trying to fit in to pre-existing social groups. I also notice people tend to be standoffish in these situations making you feel even more awkward.
I guess what I hate is to be put in a situation where appearances and superficial attitude means more.
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This describes me perfectly, and thats why I just joined this board :)
 
I'm asocial only if i'm on drugs that make a lot people more social than they are: cocaine (can't even speak on it properly), speed, meth, MDxx
But i've noticed that i'm becoming very social and communicative on the end of a second-third day of sleepless meth binge. First 24 hours after first hit of speed or meth i prefere to stay alone indoors
 
I wouldn't consider myself socially inept and I wouldn't say that I dislike people or social interaction in general. I actually really enjoy having conversations with random people. I think it's fascinating to be able to get a small glimpse into their lives and just experience something new and crazy. I also enjoy hanging out with people who I know really well, unfortunately they all live really far away and have their own lives. Still it's nice to meet them, even if it's only once a year or so. :)

I hate dealing with people who are full of shit. I hate being around ignorant or intolerant people. I can't stand people who constantly try to present themselves in particular way; build a 'type' or something like that. I hate when people say things that you want to hear just so they can get benefit from it later down the line.

I like to hang out with people who are open and accept you for what you are. I don't care who you are or what you do, as long as your not being an asshole to me or the people around you, I am going to accept you on your own terms.

I really dislike negative emotions, but I've just had too many bad experiences in the last couple of years. This shit bring me down.
 
i used to be a bit like that when i was on psychs (not mdma) but with time i matured and realised that you just gotta talk and get onto trips with random people and en up having a wiked time...

but when ur not experienced, psychs cn be pretty overwhelming
 
I wouldn't say I'm a social reject, but people skills are not at all my strong suit. I haven't found this has hindered my ability to hang with other people who enjoy drugs.

BUT... it has made it noticeably harder, especially as I've gotten beyond my 20s, to FIND drugs. All the nerdy intellectual know-how in the world will not prepare you for the rather complicated and unavoidable set of unspoken social games that go along with every step of acquiring illegal drugs. There's knowing how, when, and with whom to drop a hint that you're looking. There's picking up the right hints that someone is willing (or not!) to attend to this request. There's bargaining, often without being able to speak frankly about what you're bargaining over. There are a complicated protocol of courtesies, from smoking up the person who found you a weed connection, to refraining from breaking rank (contacting your dealer's dealer.) There's the balance to hit between never coming off too eager or too nonchalant. There's an immense amount of self-control and image control one must exercise, so as not to make the dealer nervous or think you're an easy mark. There's keeping silent to most people about who your source is, and what his contact info is. There's knowing when to make the right kind and the right amount of smalltalk with the dealer, and when to just get down to business with minimal conversation.

Street smarts and social smoothness were not something bred into my bones at an early age. I have paid dearly for a schooling in these ways, in the form of being overcharged, intimidated, and told off by drug dealers, at various points. I've had my cell phone number put on 'ignore', because I said the wrong thing IN PUBLIC to a drug source of mine ("Hey, Fat Tony! Still in the Mafia?" [facepalm]). I've brought strange people with me when I've gone to pick up, and not foreseen this being a problem for the dealer. I've had deals called off at the last minute, because something about me sketched someone out. I've been accused of being a cop, for my awkwardness. I've been called a liability by people in the drug business. I'm probably quite lucky I never 'got my ass beat.'

I've generally learned to be mistrustful and disliking of drug dealers as a whole, as I am of most people who make all their money on people smarts. A part of this may be jealousy on my part, definitely some of it comes from stepping into a world with different rules from the ones I'm used to.

I've learned the hard way, and I'd never make any of these mistakes again. But over time, I've learned to swallow my pride and rely on friends who are smoother and more savvy than myself to hook me up with drug connections. I see now why most nerds don't use drugs.
 
I know people-I'm not one of them, though. In fact, I tend to make myself known and friendly a bit TOO easily.
 
I sucked with people. Still do. This is how I finally broke into the drug scene... And anyone can do it.

Get a fast food job. Ask someone if they can find you weed. Smoke a lot of weed with them, and often. You can be a weirdo. They'll bring you anywhere if you have weed to smoke.

Eventually you can learn how to keep friends without bribes. Or whatever. Within like 3 years of finally finding the courage (courage = being whacked out on DXM) to ask about the green, I've found access to everything that I wanted. If you're a weirdo, you just have to buy your friends. Buy buy buy people. It's easy. You don't even need self-confidence or nothing. Just don't smell bad.

Half the problem is that it looks like I care more about drugs than people. More so than is true, though. It's just that I can't be around people sober. People who learn that pity me. People who don't think I'm a drugged out animal. Neither image inspires friendship. But that's just the fate of some of us, I guess. If you're in the drug scene long enough, you'll learn plenty of techniques to trick people into staying around you. Don't think too deep about it, and damn you can even convince yourself you got friends.
 
I think you can call me as socially inept. I can't really communicate normally if there are more than one people in group. In group's I tend to get shut downs and lose myself on thoughts. I can be totally quiet the whole time maybe saying only word or two. Even drugs don't always help with it, maybe some stimulants and opiates only. Sometimes it's pretty annoyning even to me as I'd like to socialize with other people but my head just goes blank or shut downs. I can socialize normally only if there are only one or two people with me.

Also I enjoy doing almost any drug alone. I'm introvert and loner, and I like it that way.

I have constant conversation with myself in my head, so that keeps me occupied :P

I also feel pretty often that people are against me in conversations and I feel that I constantly have keep myself safe and defent myself. And I think if I say something they ridicule me. I don't trust people very much. Too much stimulants have made these symptoms sometimes pretty psychotic, so I don't do them very much anymore. Also sativa may do that. I also tend to see new people as bad or good.
 
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Ne0 said:
I think you can call me as socially inept. I can't really communicate normally if there are more than one people in group. In group's I tend to get shut downs and lose myself on thoughts. I can be totally quiet the whole time maybe saying only word or two. Even drugs don't always help with it, maybe some stimulants and opiates only. Sometimes it's pretty annoyning even to me as I'd like to socialize with other people but my head just goes blank or shut downs. I can socialize normally only if there are only one or two people with me.

Also I enjoy doing almost any drug alone. I'm introvert and loner, and I like it that way.

I have constant conversation with myself in my head, so that keeps me occupied :P

I also feel pretty often that people are against me in conversations and I feel that I constantly have keep myself safe and defent myself. And I think if I say something they ridicule me. I don't trust people very much. Too much stimulants have made these symptoms sometimes pretty psychotic, so I don't do them very much anymore. Also sativa may do that. I also tend to see new people as bad or good.
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Everything you describe is classic symptoms of social anxiety disorder. 4-5 years ago, I used to feel exactly the same as you. I wasn't happy that way. I self diagnosed myself, and went to my doctor, explained the problem, and asked what we could do to help it.
Surprise, surprise, he put me on a fucking SSRI. Fucking prick. I tried a few of them, and they did nothing but make things worse.
Eventually I switched doctors, re-explained the problem, and he decided to put me on Klonopin. It was like a miracle had occurred. Taking the KPin made me feel normal. Normal in general, and around people. Even groups of people.
It amazes me that the person I was 5 years ago could turn into the person I am today. I'm still shy, somewhat introverted, but at least I don't turn into a pile of mush around 3 or more people like I used to. It's due in large part to a daily low dose of benzo.
My point in writing this is to let people know that there are others that have felt exactly the way they do. And that there's hope for things to improve if you want them to. Sometimes it just takes some effort. Good luck all.
 
95Land said:
Everything you describe is classic symptoms of social anxiety disorder. 4-5 years ago, I used to feel exactly the same as you. I wasn't happy that way. I self diagnosed myself, and went to my doctor, explained the problem, and asked what we could do to help it.
Surprise, surprise, he put me on a fucking SSRI. Fucking prick. I tried a few of them, and they did nothing but make things worse.
Eventually I switched doctors, re-explained the problem, and he decided to put me on Klonopin. It was like a miracle had occurred. Taking the KPin made me feel normal. Normal in general, and around people. Even groups of people.
It amazes me that the person I was 5 years ago could turn into the person I am today. I'm still shy, somewhat introverted, but at least I don't turn into a pile of mush around 3 or more people like I used to. It's due in large part to a daily low dose of benzo.
My point in writing this is to let people know that there are others that have felt exactly the way they do. And that there's hope for things to improve if you want them to. Sometimes it just takes some effort. Good luck all.
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Wow, that describes me to a tee as well. I'm going to ask my doctor about it ASAP.
 
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