Man, as much as I enjoy doing [good] coke, I've never once had the desire to smoke crack. Not even to just "try it." Now, I've smoked coke with a dab of water off of foil, and that got me wrecked... But I've never hit a stem, nor have I ever had the desire to do it. I wonder why, since everybody tells me that it's ten times better then just sniffing lines. Oh well.
...On a more serious note, I have to figure out how to really accept and cope with some of the problems and issues that have lead to my drug use. The methods I used to use, are just not effective anymore. Talking doesn't help, writing doesn't help... Nothing really does. Well, except the drugs. But, I can't do that shit forever. I don't want to do it forever. I mean, I've been fucking with some kind of drug for over a decade, and I'm only 25. It's fucking exhausting, man... Ugh.
Sorry, I guess that would be better suited for the blog. But hell, who knows... maybe you guys have some suggestions I could try?