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Few things make me as happy as really, really big trees :) a sucker, I know, but I'm cool with that. Nice frame of reference there, makes me think of this particularly nice fun climbing tree at Balboa Park in San Diego.
 
The oldest bald cypress tree in the world was right here in Central Florida (3,500 YO). They become hollow as they get older and several years ago, a meth-head decided to crawl into the tree to smoke a bowl and burned the tree down. It was 127 feet high, had a diameter of 17.5 feet and a circumference of 47 feet. RIP

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To give you an idea of the scale of this tree:
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CH you still not smoking? How's it going? I've been smokin everyday basically for 8-9 yrs & now only dab for past 4-5. If I run out oil (like I will today) I end up wantin harder shit n often go look for it. If I take my subs & have good smoke tho everything in life is gravy. I'm deff fuckin addicted. Flowers don't touch me either n when they do (after Cple days smoking 2nd gen oil)(reclaim) it's no where near as satisfying to my addict brain lol. It's just a diff kind of high one that I don't prefer since I've been used to dab high. Tippin my rig upside down tho & meltin the claim out onto non stick pad, deff been Savin me from shitty days when I run out lol
 
Thats awesome Captain!! Thats a long way. Being clean holds all kind of wonderful suprises. Good for you. You help a lot of people out here so you deserve it.
 
I am considering that as well, but I don't know where to start. It's scary. but I need help and I can't do this alone. I was thinking about writing today's date down on the calender as a "Day One Sober" thing and see if I can make it a month. and then another month. and then another. I don't believe I can do it alone though. I'm a poly-substance addict though my main vices are alcohol benzos and stimulants I order on the internet. I feel my life is not something I can continue on with longer like this. I'd even have to get rid of my 2 best, and only friends because one is a crack dealer who I always partake with when we get together and the other just does way too much meth. I'd be willing to do that.

What's making you want to go back, Captain?
 
That is a good piece of advice to take atmozfears. Those people are going to drag you back to using so fast your head will spin. Might I suggest not trying to go a month..just try to go a day? It makes it more manageable.

Therapy is good. I was a bitter anxious young man until therapy. I have my head on right now because of CBT and talk therapy.
 
Same here. Mine is good. First couple of times it was get to know you shit and didnt think i would go back but third time i sat down and she said, tell me about your life. I rambled for 30 min and she had me nailed just from listening to that. Amazing. She gave me some tips and i see her every 2 weeks and it helps so much. I can tell her anything and i have. Def reccomend it.
 
CH, do you have a therapist in your history who you worked well with and could return to? There are so many bad therapists out there. I've found that I really needed to shop around to find a good therapist. God, I've had some lame ones. (CH, it sounds like this isn't your first rodeo, so I suppose I'm writing this to the community too.)

I'd be curious to hear--folks who have had or are having good experiences in therapy: what "kind" of therapist are you working with? I know cognitive behavioral (CBT) is all the rage these days, but personally, I've found very old-school psychodynamic work to be the only thing that helps me. And we don't have to use psycho-lingo (CBT, psychodynamic, etc.)... do you and your therapist "go deep" into your character? do you work more on coping skills, etc.?
 
I went to a free counseling session provided by my university and man, that therapist was terrible...

I'm going to be leaving the city I leave in soon and I always get really bad "separation anxiety" when leaving a place I live in, even though I hate where I currently live. It's bizarre. Have been consumed with overwhelming feelings of melancholy and regret lately...I completely blew my academic career here (I'm not sure if I'll even attend my final exams, I don't think there's a way to salvage my grades at this point) & a couple members of the opposite sex who I used to like have apparently decided that it's better that I not exist. Never accomplished anything here except the development of a drug habit. Really just want to use, honestly...fix a big shot and forget about everything. :(
 
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