I'll never forget the way it felt at exactly 2:04 a.m. last night,
When the realization that you're leaving finally kicked in,
Even though I've known it for a few weeks now.
Laying there on the same futon that we had made love on a million times,
Watching some stupid late-night sitcom on tv,
I was wearing a white tank top and white jogging pants,
You had on a black "Doc's Gym" shirt and black boxer shorts
And your hair smelled like cucumber melon.
You put your arm around me and rested your head on the back of my neck,
And i squeezed my eyes closed, savoring the feeling
Around the same time that i felt my throat burn and my eyes water
And my soul shatter.
I remember how a year and a half ago you had all these big plans
To move to Florida
And you used to talk about them all the time
And the more i got to like you, the more i didnt want you to go,
And the more you talked about going.
I remember how i used to force a smile and pretend to be happy for you,
That you were getting to do what you always wanted,
But inside, i was trying to figure out what i was going to do without you.
And it was like that last night
Trying to force a smile,
And trying hard not to fall apart.
I'm afriad of so many things...
I know its not goodbye forever,
Just for a few weeks, or a few months,
Until you do this one thing...
But i'm afriad that you won't want to come back
I'm afriad that i'll never see you again
And i'm afriad that you won't think of me,
And something great will happen to you out there
That makes you leave this... leave me... behind.
I was trying to memorize the look on your face,
As you looked past me and stared intently at the tv
And it made me sad that you're leaving tomorrow
And you don't have anything to say to me now
This image of you, can it be enough to get me through all those nights,
When you are far away, in some other bed,
In some other world where i am not.
I inhale the scent of your just-washed shirt
And hope that i will be able to fall asleep to it
Even when you're not here, for me to lay my head upon your chest
And who will make fun of me for snoring,
And who will make the day a little more bearable by cuddling those last 5 minutes with me in the morning?
I wish i could say, dont go...
But there's this whole world out there that needs you to discover it,
And you have your opportunity.
I don't want to be that girl that kept you from living your dreams,
I just wanted so badly to be part of them.
I know you will be back, even though the days of waiting for your return will be long,
But its so hard to say goodbye now,
Not knowing where our hearts will be the next time we embrace.
I want to say all these things which sound great in my head,
But are too foolish to say out loud,
Like... "dont fall in love out there" or "miss me"
But they are all fears that i have
And i dont know if a postcard, or a random phone call that i'll probably miss,
Can compensate.
This place, where we met, which brought us together in some strange way,
Is now the reason you are leaving tomorrow,
And i hate it for that.
You were my one real thing here...
My one thing worth sticking it out for,
And tomorrow, i will wake up in this bed alone.
I've counted the stitches in your shirt sleeve,
And memorized the lines in your face,
And made note of every hair on your head
And there's nothing else for me to do than turn away now,
And try to fall asleep.
I always dreaded the day i would have to say goodbye to you,
And even though it just makes me love you all the more,
I'm so afriad to let you go out there,
All alone, without me.
Who will take care of you out there....
Kiss your forehead one last time as you sleep.
I guess nothing i say can make you stay.
I'd count the days until you come back,
But you don't know when that will be.
All i've got here is the hope that it will be sooner,
Rather than later,
Rather than never.
I'll think about you every day,
And this side of the bed, where you used to be,
Will be empty.
Until then...
goodbye.
When the realization that you're leaving finally kicked in,
Even though I've known it for a few weeks now.
Laying there on the same futon that we had made love on a million times,
Watching some stupid late-night sitcom on tv,
I was wearing a white tank top and white jogging pants,
You had on a black "Doc's Gym" shirt and black boxer shorts
And your hair smelled like cucumber melon.
You put your arm around me and rested your head on the back of my neck,
And i squeezed my eyes closed, savoring the feeling
Around the same time that i felt my throat burn and my eyes water
And my soul shatter.
I remember how a year and a half ago you had all these big plans
To move to Florida
And you used to talk about them all the time
And the more i got to like you, the more i didnt want you to go,
And the more you talked about going.
I remember how i used to force a smile and pretend to be happy for you,
That you were getting to do what you always wanted,
But inside, i was trying to figure out what i was going to do without you.
And it was like that last night
Trying to force a smile,
And trying hard not to fall apart.
I'm afriad of so many things...
I know its not goodbye forever,
Just for a few weeks, or a few months,
Until you do this one thing...
But i'm afriad that you won't want to come back
I'm afriad that i'll never see you again
And i'm afriad that you won't think of me,
And something great will happen to you out there
That makes you leave this... leave me... behind.
I was trying to memorize the look on your face,
As you looked past me and stared intently at the tv
And it made me sad that you're leaving tomorrow
And you don't have anything to say to me now
This image of you, can it be enough to get me through all those nights,
When you are far away, in some other bed,
In some other world where i am not.
I inhale the scent of your just-washed shirt
And hope that i will be able to fall asleep to it
Even when you're not here, for me to lay my head upon your chest
And who will make fun of me for snoring,
And who will make the day a little more bearable by cuddling those last 5 minutes with me in the morning?
I wish i could say, dont go...
But there's this whole world out there that needs you to discover it,
And you have your opportunity.
I don't want to be that girl that kept you from living your dreams,
I just wanted so badly to be part of them.
I know you will be back, even though the days of waiting for your return will be long,
But its so hard to say goodbye now,
Not knowing where our hearts will be the next time we embrace.
I want to say all these things which sound great in my head,
But are too foolish to say out loud,
Like... "dont fall in love out there" or "miss me"
But they are all fears that i have
And i dont know if a postcard, or a random phone call that i'll probably miss,
Can compensate.
This place, where we met, which brought us together in some strange way,
Is now the reason you are leaving tomorrow,
And i hate it for that.
You were my one real thing here...
My one thing worth sticking it out for,
And tomorrow, i will wake up in this bed alone.
I've counted the stitches in your shirt sleeve,
And memorized the lines in your face,
And made note of every hair on your head
And there's nothing else for me to do than turn away now,
And try to fall asleep.
I always dreaded the day i would have to say goodbye to you,
And even though it just makes me love you all the more,
I'm so afriad to let you go out there,
All alone, without me.
Who will take care of you out there....
Kiss your forehead one last time as you sleep.
I guess nothing i say can make you stay.
I'd count the days until you come back,
But you don't know when that will be.
All i've got here is the hope that it will be sooner,
Rather than later,
Rather than never.
I'll think about you every day,
And this side of the bed, where you used to be,
Will be empty.
Until then...
goodbye.
