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So where do i go from here

Happy Birthday to the birthday kids :)

And, jake, how the heck are we supposed to even take you seriously when you made another thread about eating random mushrooms that you found in cow poop as an attempt at getting high?! We're all trying very hard to give you the support you really need, but you should be staying away from all drugs while you're up in Vermont trying to get your life back together, not substituting with psychedelics. If you don't wanna be there and still want to use, then you're in the right place --- you KNOW by now (from many many TDS and other threads on here) that if you go back to NJ, you're going to get high. What about the people who are stuck in a hospital for 4 months due to physical or mental illness? They probably don't want to be there either, but it's the safest thing for them to do --- so, staying where you are and toughing it out, and not eating random possibly deadly mushrooms you find on the ground is what's best for you, and in hindsight you'll probably be able to agree.
 
jake - if it was easy , those of us with dope probs would all have em under control. You have to suck it up bro, you know i got love for you but it sucks because you are completely readjusting from a life organized by chaos and probably just as addicted to chaos as dope... to one where you are regulated, structred, and free from all drugs. Stick your head up and push forward.
 
Jake based on your posts it seems like you are still in the mindset to do whatever you can to find a high right now. I'm not judging that but it's up to you what your goal is right now. Being miserable seems like the only possible outcome if you are trying to get high while you're in treatment. Focusing on that will make it difficult to see any of the benefits that come from not getting high.

I spent 4 months when I went to rehab and I hated it probably until the last month. The first 6 weeks or so I spent obsessing about my girlfriend and finally ran away to go call her. I was writing somebody else's 12-step assignments for them in exchange for cigarettes. Then I started to get more serious and focus on doing what I had to do even though it wasn't fun at all. I wouldn't consider myself a long-term success of the rehab but it taught me a lot that I needed to learn.

You won't get the opportunity to see the positive side if you are not open to it.
 
everyone is giving beautiful spot on advice, this is great. Jake, you archetype of orphaned junky imp, you will reconvert. I will try as well. Going to my first rehab stint after 2 years of needle dope bullshit. It's a terrible life. Reconvert and expand, ride the rails of natural real life illusion and become the god you can be without the poison fuel of a lonely poppy. Granted, good luck.
 
Jake99 been folowing ur thread and i have never really been in ur shoes.. but hang in there man... It seems ur on the right track just by ur last post, People beat addictions, my thoughts r wit ya bro, keep @ it and as hard as it is and as easy as it is to say, but try not fall back into the crowd that u were in when u r done, Its always trouble and ul always loose if thats the case. Stay strong hey will be watchin :)
 
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