I just realised, it's exactly a year to the day since I walked out of HMP Eastwood Park Prison!
Looking back on how much my life has changed in that one year has made me cry and smile. No, I didn't manage to get clean, but I'm not committing crime on a daily basis (I can't lie, there has been some, but I realised what I was doing and didn't like myself so soon put an end to it) I've cut myself off from the bad crowd I was running around with, my habit is nowhere near the size it was. I've got a boyfriend who adores me, who i've been with for 11 months, and is the first relationship I've had where i've been shown respect, and not beaten up, etc etc.
I didn't hear the judge say this, as after I was read out my sentence the G4 security woman decided to cuff me and take me down as I was getting angry and upset, but apparently, according to my Lawyer, the judge said she wasn't doing it as a punishment, but more as what they call a 'Short, sharp shock' as she saw something positive in me and that after reading my pre-sentence reports, that I wasn't the sort of girl who was meant for a life in and out of Jail and hoped I'd turn myself around. She recognised me, as I'd been up in front of her for sentencing only just that same week and previous times before. If I'd continued on the way I was going is what would have become my life.
Yeah, I'm still homeless living in a hostel, I lost all of my belongings in my flat, sentimental things, but there's people stuck in ruts deeper than mine, and I'm grateful for what I have. So that there is my snoo.
This used to be on Prison Radio almost every morning and throughout the day, when I hear it, like songs can do I can remember exactly how I felt when I was there, but also makes me aware of how much I've changed.
*smug*
Been ages since I seen you round here, hope you're keeping good
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