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smoking Crack will make you homeless

simplejack said:
ofcourse he likes money he not selling dope for fun , and you have to try crack to understand why this is a good smoke, if you like to smoke weed etc you will like this more it taste good that why you can smoke every 15min , but as you understand its better to never try this , its far more addicting than other drugs.
yea many of my friends are addicted to GHB and fighting to get clean from that now wich i dont understand myself , everybody is different

ps and if you watch The Bad Lieutenant (of NewOrleans) you get a different view on crack as if you watch NewJackCity
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^^^^^^


LMAO@ Nicholas Cage smoking crack while banging the guys girlfriend in front of him while he makes him watch.......damn good movie by the way!
 
hey man im sorry to hear your troubles, i ran into some heavy life problems because of stimulants too. first, distance yourself completely from that dealer. if he didnt offer it for free you wouldnt have done it. seriously man fuck that guy.
then find a way to get yourself some emotional support, and just remember that having a nice job and a place to live are something a lot of people would kill for. good luck in your travels man.
 
simplejack said:
I failed , I saw my dealer yesterday and I told him i stopped smoking , he said i understand but gave me a verry big rock crack 5gram like 3grams for free he want keep me addicted i understand he just doing his job, i could not stop myself cause i was borred yesterday .
I been smoking from last night till now 6:30 morning and still have many left,
im so stupid but this is the last time ,Im turning a switch in my head now I stop today after I finsh this I dont want keep some for later cause than I buy again I should give it away .
if i smoke again this month i will post it and admit im have became a crackhead
i shame myself right now for myself and to everybody who been reading this
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Don't be too hard on yourself, at least you admitted to using again... But I would stay away from your dealer at all costs. No more contact. Otherwise he will just keep you addicted.
 
The only crack smokers I have known were very much homeless and on the outs. I can't imagine being a slave to such a short high, with such an expensive habit to keep that high. The woman I knew had three daughters, none of whom she had custody or regular contact.
 
simplejack said:
II really love her and she always decided how much drugs I used,and when i stayed with her i used too,but not so often she would see it in a second, she even stabbed me with a knife for using drugs before, my family just look at me like they feel sorry for me .
a docter cannot help me besides giving me some pills, if i take oxycontin i also forget about other dugs but today i toke over 100mg and eally was not planning to smoke ,but he gave me a huge rock and i thaught wtf one more time smoke it all quikly and than forget it, but im serious now I have to stop cause i promised my friend to go on a holiday to Panama with him next month so i have start saving my money, i go take a holiday 3 a 4 times a year to stop drugs,but even when im in a strange country im trying to buy drugs, but if i stay in thailand for example its almost impossible to get any coke (if i stay there 1 month i always come back clean)
but your right about moving away from the city , if lived on a farm it woukd have been much easier .
maybe i will rent a house in a deserted place for a while where i find some peace and rest
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Hey Simple Jack! You obviously want to quit this and there is alot of support on here from people who have been in/are in your shoes.

Correct me if I'm wrong... you say your family feels sorry for you and seem to be disenchanted about the whole situation, your girlfriend was acting as an agent to control your use and seemed to be taking dramatic and destructive attempts to make you quit out of her own desperation. Alot of your friends are addicts and you are maintaining contact with your dealer. Being passive about all these situations are going to render you powerless against making some progress to get off the stuff IMO. Am not saying you are doing this intentionally but the nature of addiction is for you to maintain using and as you know it has the upperhand at the moment. From what I can see you seem to be sabotaging your efforts probably unknownst to yourself.


Like posters have mentioned earlier, it really has to come from yourself alone and for you to be willing to take support and direction from sources that know what you need to do to get out of this, while you aren't able. This is alot of pressure to be under especially if/when situations get progressively worse.
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Going on holiday/moving to the countryside alone is not going to 'fix' your addiction. It is fantastic that you have experienced pro-longed clean time on holiday, this cant have been easy. Perhaps you could set-up some measures on your return home that would help you keep this clean time going for yourself?
I understand that you feel desperate and are trying to grasp for ideas to get out of it but unless you really face the reality of the severity of its hold you will be running around in circles.


Have you considered the option of Rehab at all or is this something you are not ready to face yet?
 
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You are a wise man asclepius most you said about me is true and I want thank all you for listening to my ridicilous story you guys are giving me more help than a doctor (rehab is not a option for me) I realize I have to stop this soon before its to late ,I like to smoke crack but I know this going downhill im not stupid but verry sensitive for addictions.


I have to stop this myself and be stronger , I cannot quit all drugs now , but I must quit the crack this is getting crazy .

I will post after a few days if I managed to stop smoking.

ps I just deleted my dealers phoonnumbers so if i feel like buying some it will be more difficult
 
Your post wasn't ridiculous by any measure SJ, so dont be knocking yourself down!
Good move on sabotaging the 'contacts' lists. ;) I had to cut off contact with most people I knew when I was trying to get my act together.

Getting outside help is always an option if you need it, so keep the doors open for yourself, if not now, maybe if you need to in the future.
Think your so right to just focus on giving up crack, loading on too much pressure on yourself can jepordise everything.

Let us know how you get on whether you quit smoking or not Simple Jack- there is no shame in this my friend! ;)
Best of luck. <3
 
if your thinking of trying crack, bad idea. you know it feels when youve been smoking ciggarettes for years, and you NEED one? well crack addiction is your worst cigarette craving x1000. if you like trying things once, and not doing it again, wait till 18+ to try it and know all the risks, though its still not the best idea. if you have an addictive personality, DONT try it. i began drugs WAY to early. but i was a dumb little kid. i was only 12 when i took my first hit of crack. now that seems crazy young to be f***ing with that stuff, and it is, but i acted at least 15. regardless, i think it was the first hit that had me hooked. i devolped a stong addiction at a young age, but thankfully went to rehab (sadly after messing with other drugs) but because i have only been smoking crack 4 - 5 months, i was able to quit. im much older now and smarter, and i wont ever touch that s*** again. i pulled my life together and im doing GREAT since i quit it. best choice i ever made
 
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