smoking Crack will make you homeless

[simplejack]

Hello people im from amsterdam so excuse my writing , I can say I been on everything , some drugs longer than others , but now while im posting this im smoking crack cocaine .

I started with weedn when I was 11a12 yearsn old wich pretty much can fuck your live up but you can still function and work your face gets a little ugly and you will get less social with other people but you will not loose you happyness etc etc so I cannot blame anybody who smokes weed I fully understand you .
after that I was addicted to Benzo's (valium and such) wich is fun in the beginning you feel verry secure but after a while you will feel nothing and you just get lazy and not high anymore from those pills , I(xtc somethimes on parties but the next day you will not think about taking one more xtc thats for sure) , than my friend introduced me to oxycontin I been taking those for about 3years and could still funtion do my work etc etc and it made me really high if I toke about 150mg, after I stopped the oxycontin I had lots of pain (wich I never had before ) but since its like heroine from the docter I understanded when I went on holiday I was smoking Meth Yaba with prostitutes and gogogirls cause the sex is great I could have sex till next morning something I would never have done when sober or on another drug but I had to see the dentist every month cause that chemical will burn your teeth away in a matter of days it also burnes the flesh holding your teeth so you will end up with long teeth so i stopped quikly(and on my holidays I was visting all hospitals with lies that i had pain to get some Morhine pills mscontin etc wich I snorted most times it made me feel warm and happy, than I got introduced to heroine for smoking I been smoking that shit for 2months but my teeth got so yelow and my face also looked a bit strange (ugly) , so the same dealer offered me Crack cocaine ( i smoked crack when I was verry young with the junkies and thiefes in my neighbourhood bit I didn;t want to be same like them so I said no to it (never smoked it a few days in a row back than)

Now Im in a difficuly period of my life ,my girlfriend moved away to another country and I could not follow her cause off my job and I was/am verry in love with her.
so I got introduced to crack cocaine , when I smoke this I feel verry good when I sit alone in a dark room looking tv (also with other people but if I sit alone watching a movie or so it makes the world look better and besides it taste great is my opinion , when I take a hit from that little weedpipe with a rock or my glass crackpipe I think mmmm this is the best shit to smoke there is available(weed heroine etc are fine but taste a lttle dirty , when I been smoking weed my gf etc saying I eat shit afer I smoke weed , and heroine less after you brush your teeth but still does not taste so good) .

anyways since I been smoking crack I let my clients wait for me somethimes I dont even show up cause im sleeping and don't feel like waking up , I never had this even not when on heroine cause if you smoke or shoot hero and you still eat healty you can funtion still verry well , but I noticed after 3 or 4 weeks smoking crack i don't care about my job anymore wich I always found verry imporant and my job makes me lots of money .

so I can hounestly say don't smoke crack if you don't want get homeless this cost me about 130dollars per day , yes the feeling and taste is great and also the sex is better (in the beginning that is) . you can better starting with heroine than starting crack, you will keep buying it till your money is finished , im writing this long post cause im under influence right now but this morning I would have not think about registering here and writing this long story cause man I felt bad this morning .
so my point is if you want to get really high , you better of smoking/shooting heroine
(its less expensive and make you function better ) .

Im going stop crack tomorow ( it can be done cause im not on it so long) but lord help me cause it will be difficult , and if you want smoke crack than go ahead I understand that after you tried one hit you want some more but remember you have to have a verry strong mind to smoke only once a month <snip> Better listen to the stories and never try it .

bye

 

[shro0m]

Its all about managing your habit and balancing it against your life outside of narcotics. Your doing it wrong, put the brakes on for sure because from what you've said it seems your losing/have lost control of your habit.

 

[DeLee]

Crack has that ability of naging at you after every smoke - just a little more, just a little more.. 12h later - just a little more, etc. etc.
Its really annoying.

We don't have many crackheads here in Sweden, I have never even seen, heard or met a dealer that sells Crack.
Every rock of Crack that I have smoked I have cooked myself.. but powder Cocaine is so damn expensive and dull quality so its almost not woth it.
Its fun (was fun) to do sometimes with the heroin.

 

[TheLostBoys]

It must be really difficult to do a drug which the high only lasts no more than 15 minutes after a hit. Thats insane to me. The high lasts so short, its just a matter of time before you're broke, unless you some millionaire or something. Like you stated above, your better off doing other drugs compared to crack.

Hope you can stop doing crack, seems like you are in a downward spiral but if you have the will to quit, you will accomplish it, good luck!

 

[simplejack]

i will stop this tomorow

yes you guys are right , i have to stop this tomorow (and I will I will not end up with no money and a junkie ) , but this drug keeps me awake ,and makes me crazy when I stop the next day , i will look at my money and think only one more time I can afford it but its like almost all or 50% the money I earn if I smoke everyday I even know guys who smoke 4 times more , I think im gonna buy some oxycontin tomorow so I can forget Crack , I knew it all my life but after I used it 1week in a row I got hooked , and indeed you have to keep smoking and like a junkie you see your rock getting smaller after each hit, and if you only have a little rock left it feels really bad ,,,like I said I been on all drugs but this must be the most addicting drug there is for somebody who likes to smoke . it also taste verry good too I think , even when I never smoked it when older guys where smoking next to me I kinda liked the smell of burned cocaine its not like the stink from a siggarette ( btw snorting coke is far not addicting as crack)

tomorow im stopping and taking some Oxycontin that makes me high too but at least I do stuff instead of smoking every min .

ps it verry bad for my lungs too , they hurt right now I have problems taking a piss cause I piss from my ass in the morning diaria like hell , now I have only a 2cm rock left , I not smoked for 10min cause im writing this .
I will smoke it till the last crum , I will even dip the little peaces from my desk with my finger , man I feel like a junkie now luckly they have forums were I can emty my heart without being looked at

pps thanks for your fast replies

 

[whippa craka]

Just stop while you have the remote chance of being able to.

Stick to weed... stick to something else. Just stop the crack. It ruins lives no matter who you are.

 

[simplejack]

stopped everything

I just stopped crack and I broke up with my gf who I been with for 5years on the same day, I feel so bad right now ,im going to bed , its morning already

 

[n3ophy7e]

Man, good for you for deciding to quit crack. This is the best decision of your life. Please stay strong and keep off it.
Have you got things planned to keep you distracted while you're getting clean? Have you got some friends or family members you can hang out with?

 

[simplejack]

quit

Hello , I succesfully stopped smoking since I posted my last reply .
my dealer called me twice saying he got a discount for me etc , but I told him no thankyou , it was not so hard cause im high on Oxycontin now and I been smoking only for 2months or so , I would still like to smoke some today , after i stopped crack my body was exhausted but I felt better after a few days sleep.
this drug was too expensive also plus I was only busy smoking crack. ( costs me about 130dollar a day )

<snip>
so Im back at my old addictions wich seems better than smoking crack .

Thankyou all for listening

 

[debaser]

Man, you shouldn't incriminate yourself like that. You're in Holland, but even in Holland there are some cops.

Oh whatever. Good luck for stopping crack.

 

[maybeimamazing]

i ust read everything you said, and my heart just hurts for you. crack is a demon that will rob you blind, leave you devoid of anything good or positive. i hope and pray you can say goodbye to this drug, but let me tell you, it is stronger than you are. for many years i had the habit. got to where i couldn't do anything without smoking cola. i thought i'd found the holy grail! i felt magical, powerful, super-human, beautiful, all those things we all want to be. but it's a LIE. and i'll tell you something else too, if you switch to another drug, that will become your dictator as well. my advice...RUN like hell from this beast, cuz i know very few ppl who were ever able to beat it. i have spent years in and out of addiction, jail, rehabs, churches, you name it... for me today, and i'm in no way "cured"....i have to keep it real by only using once in a blue moon. i don't go overboard in anything my life is manageable. just be careful ok? you have a lot to lose if you still have money and a good job. keep"em, cuz it doesn't get easier, it gets harder. good luck dude, peace........

 

[TheLostBoys]

just be careful ok? you have a lot to lose if you still have money and a good job. keep"em, cuz it doesn't get easier, it gets harder. good luck dude, peace........

You got that right, the older you get, the harder it gets if you dont have the income coming in to live decent.

 

[simplejack]

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you are all so right , and Im really thankfull for the replies
, I underestimated the power of this drug (like . I almost wanted to buy some again today ( with the idea ,,only one more time,,)
but I have to say it is all my fault I was clearly warned cause I know and always knew this was verry addicting cause i saw other people get destoyed by crack , I dont know why I started this ? I was driving my car for 3hours on the highway with some ,,friends,, and one of my friends (clearly a drug addict if you look at him) filled a pipe in my car and started smoking , I was borred and said give me that pipe one second , but I felt verry good after and somehow I went buy some for myself and went to a girl wich I only know for sleeping with. and started smoking with her , I had sex while under influence of normal coke lots of times cause I like that ... it gives me more energy , maybe cause I left my girlfriend she always kept me away from using to much drugs and now I have nobody stop me ,and my family cannot help.. If I light a crackpipe before my mother she dont understand , if I smoke weed from that crackpipe its the same for her , she just calls me a junkie and leave it at that ,, she just like to see me happy and if I smoked crack Im really nice to other people , last week while under influence of crack I cleaned her livingroom and went putt the trash outside 4oclock in the morning , but if I told her how much cash I spent on this stuff she would be furious.
and about my income if I smoke that is basicly standing still if im smoking every day .
(like someone mentioned above ..crack is more powerfull than me ,, I have to run away from this as fast I can

 

[nuttynutskin]

You can do it... Just think about all the money you'll save, to say nothing of how much healthier you'll be.

 

[TheLostBoys]

I never smoked crack & one of the main reasons was I watched the movie "New Jack City" & after seeing what those people were going threw in that movie, I promised myself I would never put myself threw that.

 

[simplejack]

fail

I failed , I saw my dealer yesterday and I told him i stopped smoking , he said i understand but gave me a verry big amount<snip> for free he want keep me addicted i understand he just doing his job, i could not stop myself cause i was borred yesterday .
I been smoking from last night till now 6:30 morning and still have many left,
im so stupid but this is the last time ,Im turning a switch in my head now I stop today after I finsh this I dont want keep some for later cause than I buy again I should give it away .
if i smoke again this month i will post it and admit im have became a crackhead
i shame myself right now for myself and to everybody who been reading this

 

[Z Y G G Y]

How about going to a doctor and trying to fix the underlying issues that cause you to use drugs this way. People usually don't get hooked for fun. They do because of some internal issues. Maybe you can be put on a script of something like adderall or straterra that will help you function and wean off the crack. Just a suggestion. There is help available, I'm sure. You just have to want it.

Maybe move somewhere else far away from your a-hole dealer. And start new.

 

[simplejack]

I quess cause im not staying with my old girlfriend anymore ,I really love her and she always decided how much drugs I used,and when i stayed with her i used too,but not so often she would see it in a second, she even stabbed me with a knife for using drugs before, my family just look at me like they feel sorry for me .
a docter cannot help me besides giving me some pills, if i take oxycontin i also forget about other dugs but today i toke over 100mg and eally was not planning to smoke ,but he gave me a huge rock and i thaught wtf one more time smoke it all quikly and than forget it, but im serious now I have to stop cause i promised my friend to go on a holiday to Panama with him next month so i have start saving my money, i go take a holiday 3 a 4 times a year to stop drugs,but even when im in a strange country im trying to buy drugs, but if i stay in thailand for example its almost impossible to get any coke (if i stay there 1 month i always come back clean)
but your right about moving away from the city , if lived on a farm it woukd have been much easier .
maybe i will rent a house in a deserted place for a while where i find some peace and rest

 

[TheLostBoys]

I failed , I saw my dealer yesterday and I told him i stopped smoking , he said i understand but gave me a verry big rock crack 5gram like 3grams for free he want keep me addicted i understand he just doing his job, i could not stop myself cause i was borred yesterday .
I been smoking from last night till now 6:30 morning and still have many left,
im so stupid but this is the last time ,Im turning a switch in my head now I stop today after I finsh this I dont want keep some for later cause than I buy again I should give it away .
if i smoke again this month i will post it and admit im have became a crackhead
i shame myself right now for myself and to everybody who been reading this

Thats f**ked up that he did that to you knowing you want to quit. Obviously your dealer is hooked on money, nothing wrong with that except he makes it on other peoples misery.

I just cant get past the high only lasting like 15 minutes.....that to me seems like its a waste but to each their own.

 

[simplejack]

Thats f**ked up that he did that to you knowing you want to quit. Obviously your dealer is hooked on money, nothing wrong with that except he makes it on other peoples misery.

I just cant get past the high only lasting like 15 minutes.....that to me seems like its a waste but to each their own.

ofcourse he likes money he not selling dope for fun , and you have to try crack to understand why this is a good smoke, if you like to smoke weed etc you will like this more it taste good that why you can smoke every 15min , but as you understand its better to never try this , its far more addicting than other drugs.
yea many of my friends are addicted to GHB and fighting to get clean from that now wich i dont understand myself , everybody is different

ps and if you watch The Bad Lieutenant (of NewOrleans) you get a different view on crack as if you watch NewJackCity