WarChild said:
In a way I'll be addicted to Meth for life, i know that, but not necessarily be taking all the time it if that makes sense.
I thought that too, especially once I developed an ongoing almost daily addiction. Meth is still my DOC and it ruled my life and thoughts for a good amount of time. But having been off it for over 8 months now, I hardly think about it. There was a time when even saying or thinking the word ice/meth would send a big flame of adrenaline roaring in my tummy in craving. Now, there are honestly days in a row when it never crosses my mind once. I can still get that flame going if I think about it hard enough, but sometimes these days, I'll be reminded of it, and be shocked at how
still my body is. Slowly but surely, that addiction is leaving me, and more and more, I can see it as just a drug, rather than the almost mystical/spiritual dimension it had for me before.
Anyway, endone is oxycodone which I find quite different than the morphine based opiates like smack or codeine; much less pleasurable for me. But for a lot of people it's very euphoric.
I do agree though that for me, meth is/was far and away more addictive than opiates, even after developing a daily opiate habit. Maybe it's just that I used ice for far longer than I've abused opiates, but opiates don't give me anywhere near the level or cravings that meth did. With opiates, for me, it's more that it's a pleasant feeling that I like better than being sober, rather than
needing that drug in particular.
jspun said:
Its much easier to be a functional junkie than tweaker, or alcoholic- once you have a habit.
Why do you think this? I found it much easier to go a few days without ice than a few days without opiates, because the acute withdrawals of ice basically just include sleeping, so you do that for a few days, then score again. Being without opiates becomes
very noticable in even less than a day if you're using regularly, so you get stuck with a double whammy of, even if you don't crave it psychologically, you decide to use it to get rid of the pain. For that reason, even though smack is cheaper here than ice, you're bound into buying it every day in a way you just aren't with meth.
I do think in terms of just living your life, if money/scoring wasn't an issue, that heroin is the best to go about your day to day tasks on, because it doesn't have that cycle of high then crash of ice - which makes you pretty disfunctional on the crashing days.