Okay. So I'm at work this morning and I get a text from an unknown number. Now I had given my number to a female co-worker (platonically) so that we could meet up and share stories from our darker times, so I assumed it was her. She told me that she would text me once her phone was up and running. But no, it wasn't her. It was this other girl who quit working with us about a month ago...
...This other girl was hired right around when I was, and we immediately hit it off. For crying out loud, we're both into the same Eastern-spiritual things, both lived in Asia last year, both into healthy living, both intellectuals, both with dark senses of humour. She's very similar to me, like she's my latent female energy turned into a human form. Anyway, she and I talked a few times, extendedly, after work, traded some movies and books...run-of-the-mill co-worker stuff. Now of course in my mind, I want to have blissful sex with her like the world is ending tomorrow, but alas, she's married with kids, and so I've just supressed the cravings and actually was kinda glad that she left the job. She was often flirtatious with me in that "my quick wit will outsmart your quick wit" kind of way, and she did the touching on the arm or shoulder thing a lot. And the few times I was around her and her husband, she'd change completely and act all polite and stuff like "This is RedLeader. He is my co-worker. He suggested that book to me that I..." comes out of her mouth as he smiles and holds her hand. Then when he's not around, she talks about how boring he is, how they broke up briefly last year, and so on. It's obvious that she's with him because he's stable for the kids and makes good money, but she looks at the younger and more interesting RedLeader with a curious twinkle in her eye.
So ya, she texts me, having gotten (or been given) the number from the other chick. She's asking me if I am working, what I am doing, and so on. After a few back-and-forths, she says that we need to hang out "sooner than later." Talking about during the weekday while her kids and husband are away. She also just started getting into weed this past year (which her husband does not do), and I (and the other mentioned girl) are the only co-workers she knew smoked, so it's implied that hanging out means smoking weed.
So I am not sure that she's interested in me, though I assume that there is at least some attraction. I have absolutely no intuition for telling when a girl likes me. So I really don't know what to do here. She is a nice person and a good friend, and I miss her and want to see her again, but even if it's just platonic, I don't know if her husband would want her smoking and hanging out with some younger guy from her last job during the day like that, talking all of their "hippie stuff" that he does not relate to. At the same time, my mouth waters just thinking about this woman, and I know that I really should avoid her if I want to do the mature thing for everybody. Or am I overreacting?
. Getting to the end now...signed the paperwork to get sterilized yesterday, thank god. In this state, you have to sign a consent 30 days in advance and speak to a psychologist. I laughed when she said the biggest side effect was regret.... I said the only regret I would feel is if I didn't get the procedure done! Lol
we're going to Paris in ten days for him to meet my family which should be nice, and then I'm off to Sydney for 5 months! Really excited but also really wish I didn't have to leave my fiancé so I'm trying not to think about it too much and just enjoy the time we have before I go 
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
