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[PepperSocks]

Do what you gotta do Flare, please come back sometime

You're a wonderful person.

You'll be there in the back of our minds.

 

[nearjat]

do you think a bike cracker for co2 will work for nitrous. I assume they will, but don't want to risk ruining the thing.

Looks as follows

i have that!

We put a tiny polished rock in the bottom of it, because co2 is 16g carts, n2o is 8g.

It's like a controlled pressure cracker, just use a balloon and often times a glove to keep the balloon on. I love it!

 

[andreas]

I WAS DOING AN EXTRACTION TODAY WITH A HOT MIX OF ACACIA AND IT FUCKING EXPLODED AND THERE IS THIT EVERY WHERE...my boss comes in and starts putting shit on me....fuck man what a mess

Flarestar you will be fine... trust me, the pain will ease and you will find light again, for some reason the best lessons in life come from feeling like shit.I can guarentee that a person of your caliber will have no probs finding another person that will love you for all that you are worth. Take all the lessons that you have learnt from this experience and you have lost nothing.

oh I should mention the explosion was me being an impatient little fuck and forcing liquid through glass wear not an actual flame type windows being blown out kinda thing....lucky for me

 

[swilow]

^What were you exracting, maidenii- if so, its virtually worthless in terms of alkaloid-joy (AFAIK)...

 

[andreas]

^What were you exracting, maidenii- if so, its virtually worthless in terms of alkaloid-joy (AFAIK)...

yeah but I have heaps, wait sorry HAD heaps...I want to find acacia simplex it's said to be around 0.9%...maideni is all I can get my hands on...any other suggestions

A few years ago we looked at scopolamine production from plants yeilds can be increased by stressing da plants I should try this with acacias

 

[swilow]

^Be gentle to the plants or they'll fight back, all triffid like I dunno, acacia cortii and obtusifolia are the main source for me.....

edit: that said, a courtii (corrected spelling) is endangererd or vulnerable, so yer best of with a. obtusifolia....

 

[fastandbulbous]

psychedelics tend to bring out thymic dysregulation in people, i.e. bipolar type mood dynamics, more often bipolar(II) type oscillation between depression and hypomania ... but this is a chicken-and-the-egg thing again, as hypomanic/manic individuals often seek high degrees of stimulation and novelty, such as can be found in the psychedelic experience

First part I don't find the case myself, in fact a well timed dose of psychedelic can terminate the build up to either a fit of depression or hypomania. Totally stabilizes my mood

The second part, I was tempted to say "you think so? " - all the people I know who are real advocates of psychedelics show signs of at least a little manic-depressive behaviour :D

 

[SKL]

^so chicken or the egg?
to me sort of both

 

[Solipsis]

!!!

I really overdid it with K the last like.. 2 weeks but something amazing
happened because of it, it seems after you get really deeply psycho-
logically confused chronically it builds something up inside of you
that is released when you stop. I get EXTREMELY! euphoric during the
afterglow, and last week I was talking to a guy on msn about illumina-
tion and what I know about it (also from experience) and the philosophy
and psychological development behind it, and because I did my very
best to formulate it I came to realize myself exactly what it is about
and I spontaneously reached the third ++++ of my life :O
My soul felt freed from my body, I shot into a meditative state deeper
than when I was in Zen-meditation for a week in a cabin in the woods
with people, everything went bright and I was free. WOW no way man.
I did tons of acid the last years but this was something else even acid
only did once before in my life.
Then I was so enthousiastic that I became almost manic with joy, and
cause of the afterglows persisting body dissociation I didn't feel I over-
tensed my back while carrying shit, I think in retrospect. When the
dissociation wore off some more I died from backpain and this continued
for 2 days. I was in hell physically and in heaven mentally! Strange shit.
When my back was fucked up, my computer was also simultaneously...
I installed my system like 3 times but it corrupted quickly every time.
Then I had no more escapist things to do and went ahead and continued
reading "the Awakening of Intelligence" by Krishnamurti. It's a philosophical
book about freeing yourself among other things and I read the chapter
titled 'Freedom'. It was soo confronting and painful that I suddenly saw
I have been running towards psychedelics and intellectualization and
other stuff just to not have to adress my own life. I have been circum-
venting shit for years and even tripping did not awaken me. Not having
anyplace left to go finally did and I cried in desperate release. Now, for
the first time in ages I don't have the need to get high or stoned or go
watch movies or lay back and not care anymore and I feel free and awake.
My fear of living seems to have disappeared a great deal and I feel a
profound sense of hope and renewed drive for life. Socially I'm spontaneous
like I haven't been in years, my mind is clear and silent but a meditative
vibration is seated in what seems to be my core.

I don't wanna do much dope anymore, my body has had enough to endure
and I soo need to limit myself from excesses. Let me keep attentive and
remember this lesson for long. I do plan on using my cactus extract when
I have vacation from work, that could still fit
in line with everything.

Only love and nothing less

(sorry I didn't go to the Social Threads but I wanted to tell my second family)

 

[Xorkoth]

What's up Xorky and Uniter?

I've had some phenibut stashed away for a solid 2 or 3 years, but you guys have inspired me to try it before I head out tonight to meet up with some friends. Will 600 mg suffice?

I always thought it was similar to benzodiazepines, which I find are good for nothing other than getting great sleep, but apparently it's a moderately selective GABA-B agonist.

600mg is probably low but the dose varies. I'd probably start with 1 gram. Might be too little; if so, try 1.5 next time. That should be enough, but 1 gram might be too. It takes like 3 hours to really kick in fully... it's not like a benzo or GHB where it hits you suddenly. It's gradual.

It's not much like a benzo at all, much closer to GHB, but much subtler, not so in-your-face.

what... is the entactogenic category? google says it means things like MDMA.. I dunno man, MDMA decimated me and I haven't touched it since. all I have is some 2ce, I just.. hate being alone.

I don't know, solo trips... feel sort of worthless to me, sometimes. it's like... I can't communicate what I get to anyone, they don't see me any differently, it just might as well not have happened. I miss tripping with other people. I don't know, I just feel worthless by myself.

Aw, a good trip by yourself would probably do you a lot of good, but you'll obviously have to break through a wall. To me, tripping alone can be the most useful, although tripping with others can teach you a lot about being social and about yourself.

I hope you all see this post

when I registered I just wanted a few questions answered and just put my name in as a my username and didn't really worry bout who would find out coz everyone I know is aware of my substance use or as I call it consciouness exploration. Well now I have a government job and are just a little paraniod some how they will find out so I have to cancel this account and start a new one.... sorry guys...I will return promise

should I P.M you all my new username, it would feel a bit over the top as I haven't been here that long , what do you guys think yes or don't worry about it????????

If you just sign up with a new name and post that it's andreas, we'll know.

Just out of curiosity, what's your average dose of DOM nowadays, Xorkoth? I only ask because over the course of about 6 months last year I went through 250 mg of that material and developed a fairly high tolerance to it specifically. Even then, however, I found doses above 10 mg to be powerfully psychedelic, while doses between 13 and 15 mg remained capable of producing marked dissociation and deeply profound trance-like states. I guess what I'm saying is, if you're determined to trip strongly in the way you used to, my experience with DOM suggests that it might be the material you're looking for.

I take 3-5mg usually for a nice, relaxing, social experience and wonderful levels of emotional and intellectual enhancement. Soon I will try around 10mg when I get a chance to trip hard and see what happens.

Just looked at my new health card photo, I look like a cute and sexy young man :D

On my new driver's license photo I look like a sketchbag though

Oh ID card photos..

Everyone looks like a sketchbag on their driver's license... what is that anyway?

Lovely post SKL

I also like love orifices

Who doesn't?

uhh .. lol

your not that special

You wanna call Pders creepy ?

why would someone need to save those pics

I see beautiful women everynight and have loads of fun with no need for freeze frames

Dont come in here a nd call people creepy for what they may or may not do with pics. Alot of us have been here along time and I found that comment a little rude

Watch your tongue

I realize it's been said, but just because you wouldn't do it doesn't mean no one would. And people might read this (probably do) who don't post. And anyway she didn't accuse anyone... that wouldn't have been cool. She was just making a general statement. No need to make her feel bad.

ugh, i'm vaguely considering taking up dope again.not good.

Hold off, man. I know how hard it is but you just really need to. Dope = bad. Opiates = bad. They bring nothing good. This bubbly love you're feeling will go away if you get back into it, I can promise you that. And you know that. You're better off now. You're experiencing the ever-popular grass-is-greener complex, my friend.

I just lost a great opiate connection (oxycodone, oxymorphone, dilaudid, fentanyl, etc etc); and although I'm sad that I don't have access to all those goodies anymore, I feel like its a great blessing. That fluffy opiate blanket was turning me into a really weak and apathetic person.

Fuck opiates.....once you learn to love them, they will always haunt you.

Aint that the truth. The sad, sad truth.

i think hes talking about 2c-b

and yes the break was fun. i found it to be a great learning and growing experience for myself. And im sure she felt the same.
We both experienced some pretty magical things apart from each other, and now we will just continue with the magic but with each other.
Life is Beautiful

...and bedtime will be ALOT of fun tomorrow

Sure will! My wife's mom and grandma have been here for a week and it was the incorrect time of the month about 4 days before that. Consequently, we've been deprived. But they're leaving tomorrow morning! I'm awfully excited... I've got some plans for her, I'll tell you what.

 

[Xorkoth]

oh my yes

such great ripples

i like to surf on them, feeding the waves love so me and everyone around me can continue surfing

I first read this as "such great nipples"

Dude, the diversity of life on earth is fucking incredible. You'd think that there'd eventually be only a handful of dominating species on every continent, and that'd be that. There are practically half a million species of beetle.

Maybe all life on earth, in perfect symbiosis, makes our planet one giant organism!

I am quite sure of it.

Diversity of life on Earth is absolutely astounding. Where I live in the North Carolina mountains is one of the most diverse places on Earth, too, next to the Amazon. They're doing a project to try to catalogue all species here and they've found like 600 new species since starting something like a year ago. There are like 20 species of trees in my yard. Amazing.

oh boy... I had a crazy weekend that culminated in drinking what I was told was GHB (first time) but was actually 1,4 butanediol (which the person thought was nearly identical). HUGE mistake.

I'd forgotten how good an idea it is NOT to take drugs that have significant physical effects. I was so dizzy, and we were driving the whole time... acccckkk...

I need to do a cleanse of some sort before this weekend's cactus juice...

Ugh, 1,4b... shitty stuff. So dirty feeling.

Hi guys, I found an internet connection in the middle of wilderness. We've been having fun. Smoking weed, lots. Still lots of mosquitos here.

See you later,
-d

Where are you? Someplace beautiful I bet.

How to have a shitty day:

1) Withdraw from 3 days of heavy phenibut use (which I am finding had more of an effect on me than I realized)
2) Start to get the delayed MDMA serotonin depletion/hangover
3) Go out for lunch and drink a beer that just ends up making you feel even more weighed down and gives you a shitty headache.
4) Something you thought would work at work and fix a longstanding technical problem ends up being an utter failure.

Ugh, thank god for kratom and codeine.

/bitchfest

Ugh, little withdrawal after only 3 days? Shitty. Usually if I do it for 2-3 days, I get a little bit of a downslope in emotion for the next day and then it's fine. I'm not sure if it's withdrawal... it seems like it's just that I've been so happy and euphoric for a few days and then suddenly I'm not so my mind has to adjust.

Also, a thought about the MDMA hangover... when I first started using MDMA it hyad virtually no negative aftereffects. As I used it more, the high became much less magical and much shorter, like you're describing, and the aftereffects became far worse. After the last time I did MDMA I was depressed for a long time, weeks to a month, and felt physically like I had been run over by a train for a number of days. So it could just be that your brain is starting to not like MDMA and the shittiness is entirely or almost entirely due to the MDMA.

I agree that you should move away from MDMA if it's starting to not be worth it. MDMA may be quite dangerous anyway due to its effect on damaging the serotonin receptors by trying to reuptake dopamine.

SKL, I got thinking about something you wrote about.

That idea about "broken" people being drawn to psychedelics hit home to me. That's what got me into them. I was looking for something that would help fix me.

Well, for me, I was doing well, but I'd just been curious for a couple of years. I had recently gotten into marijuana and loved it and wanted to try psychedelics. But then I got broken over the next few years and didn't trip for 2 years, and then got back into them to try to fix it. Which I did, more or less, although I've been up and down since at various times. Mostly up though.

What I'm wondering is do they ever really "fix" us?

I think they can, but it requires a lot of work on your part. The afterglow of the psychedelic will always fade, but you can work to remember the lessons learned and incorporate them into your sober mindstate. It'll never be as easy as it is during a good trip, but it can certainly precipitate permanent changes for the better.

I go up and down like a yo-yo, at times I'm bursting with ecstatic joy while completely sober and other times I'm in a pit of despair, I dunno, Bi-polar?

I think everyone does that to some extent. I think it depends on the severity of both the ups and downs. Do you get manic, or just happy? I know some bipolar people and the swings are pretty severe. I have good times and bad times, and during each time it's hard to imagine the other kinds of times, and I'm one of the most stable people I know. If you really think you might be you should go talk with someone. Beware SSRIs though... some people are helped by them due to dangerous imbalances, but for the most part they seem to turn people into zombies. As you said in an earlier post (if I recall correctly), one of the greatest parts of being a human - no, the greatest part - is feeling emotion. To remove that would be a sad thing. Plus, to me they seem awfully dangerous. permanent changes to the serotonin system could have unforeseen consequences years down the road that we can't anticipate... serotonin has so much to do with perception. They haven't been distributed for long enough to know the long-term consequences. And the types of possible side effects people report - suicidal ideation, forms of psychosis, feelings of disconnection, feelings of inhumanity - creep me out. My wife's cousin went on Prozac and became a parody of her former self... she tried to kill herself twice, and wrote a letter about killing her family (of course it never happened), and was just bizarre and frightening. She didn't look like the same person in her eyes.

And of course her mom pushed it on her in the first place because she had gotten caught smoking weed, and her mom thought it must mean she's depressed. And then when she got all crazy her mom accused her of doing more drugs and wanted to up the dose of Prozac. The doctor had to decree that she be taken off it.

Hey everyone.

So, the situation with me and the soulmate boyfriend pretty much finally ended today. I'm a fucking wreck. I don't think I'm going to be here for a while. I don't want to think about drugs for a really long time. I don't know what I'm going to do. I just spent the last 7 hours begging and crying and pleading for him to realize that he doesn't have to leave me to go chase his music dream. I know it might sound retarded, but dammit, we connected on the psychs, and even before we connected LIKE we were, we connected, we told eachother we'd be together forever, we promised to never leave eachother, and he left. My eyes hurt from crying so much. In essence, fuck. my. life. I can't believe he's leaving me, a fucking person, for a freaking dream. I'm... fucking... oh god, I could go forever, in essence... I can't believe this. I can't believe this.

Thank you all for your love and support since I've been here. Love life.

Flarestar,

I know it seems like this is a permanent situation to you now, but please trust me when I say you'll move on and find happiness again, and you'll be so glad you didn't do anything drastic, and also that you aren't still with him because the person you will have found will be the one you really should be with. I know he seemed like your soulmate, but your soulmate wouldn't do something like this to you. There's someone out there for everyone, and most of the people we're with are not that person, even the ones that seem perfect for a while. I'm sorry though that it had to happen... I know how hurt you must be feeling now.

Love and light

 

[IGNVS]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDgT1DcIW9k


anyone ever seen the movie The Holy Mountain?
i ate a buncha shrooms last night and this shit flipped my egg

 

[PepperSocks]

Where are you? Someplace beautiful I bet.

I'll answer this in his stead. Lapland, northern Finland. 24 hour sunlight at this time of the year; that'd be crazy. Being able to trip through the "night" in the sunlight. :D

I'm not sure if it's withdrawal... it seems like it's just that I've been so happy and euphoric for a few days and then suddenly I'm not so my mind has to adjust.

I agree that you should move away from MDMA if it's starting to not be worth it. MDMA may be quite dangerous anyway due to its effect on damaging the serotonin receptors by trying to reuptake dopamine.

I'm starting to think yesterday was just a good dose of hypoglycemia. After I ate a good deal I felt better. My MDMA experience wasn't really that powerful so I don't think it's hangover; I feel pretty much normal now. Anyways I am going to move away from MDMA; doesn't seem to do much for me anymore except give me a shot of chemical euphoria.

I think everyone does that to some extent. I think it depends on the severity of both the ups and downs. Do you get manic, or just happy?

Just happy, content, how I feel I should feel. I don't actually think I'm Bi-polar, like you said, everyone does it to some extent; it's just the natural waves of neurotransmitters doing their thing. Some days or weeks are better than others.

And of course her mom pushed it on her in the first place because she had gotten caught smoking weed, and her mom thought it must mean she's depressed. And then when she got all crazy her mom accused her of doing more drugs and wanted to up the dose of Prozac. The doctor had to decree that she be taken off it.

Yeah, I know they're nasty business. I was on effexor (SNRI) for social anxiety and it was weird. It would make me incredibly euphoric and then I would crash, now that felt like bi-polar disorder. I obviously said fuck that and stopped them.

I have a couple friends who are on SSRI's and one of them says it's for his OCD but I don't think he really has it. I find it confusing about why he's even on it. His whole family is on an SSRI or SNRI. I'm starting to think their doctor is a quack. Unfortunately this friend is not one to research his own drugs and make these important decisions for himself. I've asked him in the past why he takes it and he told me OCD and I said if he really doesn't need it he should quit them but he continues to take them.

your soulmate wouldn't do something like this to you.

This hit me. Part of my ongoing problem is entirely based on my relationship with my soulmate. I continue to have these unfounded anxieties that she'll find someone else and head off. This is entirely bogus because I know I am loved heart and soul. I feel like I'm focusing on myself and my false anxieties too much and not turning my attention to her and how she really feels. When I meditate my attention towards her I see the unconditional love and my anxiety dissipates. Part of the whole ordeal is my emotional neediness and that whole racket is not who I really am. When I turn the attention away from myself and look into her and the see raw truth of it all, I feel normal. Not bouncing up with superficial joy, not squirming away in a pit of separation anxiety, just normal "me". Need to stop focusing on myself; look outside myself and be more aware of others and their true feelings.

 

[Recept]

anyone ever seen the movie The Holy Mountain?
i ate a buncha shrooms last night and this shit flipped my egg

Oh yeah, the craziest movie I ever saw

I love it how it starts out completely random, and about halfway through suddenly begins to develop a storyline. It completely blew my mind, and I wasn't even on a psychedelic when I saw it. This movie is a psychedelic experience in it's own right!

BTW, one of my favourite characters in this movie was captain Captain, LOL

 

[Dondante]

!!!

I really overdid it with K the last like.. 2 weeks but something amazing
happened because of it, it seems after you get really deeply psycho-
logically confused chronically it builds something up inside of you
that is released when you stop. I get EXTREMELY! euphoric during the
afterglow, and last week I was talking to a guy on msn about illumina-
tion and what I know about it (also from experience) and the philosophy
and psychological development behind it, and because I did my very
best to formulate it I came to realize myself exactly what it is about
and I spontaneously reached the third ++++ of my life :O

Glad to hear it.



P.S. Xorkoth, it's nice to see you're back and with some prolific posts.

 

[Delsyd]

^that pretty much describes my last 2 weeks with ketamine.
The afterglow is very euphoric.

i feel im more addicted to that aspect of it than the actual high. Though the high is amazing, few things can compare to a proper k-hole.

 

[coelophysis]

How is everyone?

 

[andreas]

^ nice pic
man the good old K has really dried up in good old Sydney town...fucken sucks

I'm going shrooming this weekend....think it's wrong kinda area but my mate has a property so I'll give it go

hope you are all well

 

[swilow]

I be lazy and a bit stoned

 

[Solipsis]

I feel like the past 2 days I have been on natural dexamphetamine, since my awakening episode (which was not my first but they are still quite rare for me) I am functioning at lightning speed while my thoughts are still fundamentally peaceful and still.
Last night I didn't sleep that long or deep/constant but there was no problem at all getting up early and I'm not the slightest bit tired.

have a hug, all yous scallywags