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Had a shit weekend. My resolve was tested pretty seriously.

I had a pretty distressing dream in which I gave in and relapsed but was relieved to find I had remained clean when I awoke.
 
Rough day today. Mondays in general I dislike but today was a bit moreso. Got betrayed by a friend whom I confided something in and now its spread around my network if recovery friends and Its damaged some friendships. Sigh. I got a date tomorrow hopefully so that should help. Temporary fix of course.
 
Serotonin101 said:
Rough day today. Mondays in general I dislike but today was a bit moreso. Got betrayed by a friend whom I confided something in and now its spread around my network if recovery friends and Its damaged some friendships. Sigh. I got a date tomorrow hopefully so that should help. Temporary fix of course.
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Sorry to hear that man. Thank you for sharing though, because I have a similar story.

There is a girl at my halfway house who got a job at my work. I had spoke of her in earlier posts. I made it a point early on to focus primarily on helping her. Well, get this..

We get off work, and she was drunk! I was like holy shit no way.. She coming on really strong, saying im adorable, rubbing my head, saying im cute over and over. She had to throw up so I directed her to a nice quiet place under some trees to go throw up. I lectured her a little, but not too strongly. She had a lot of fear about the halfway house catching her. They kick you out at my place if they catch you.

Well I get a text from one of the security guys. "I need to talk to you and Nina when you get home"

"why?"

"I just need to talk to you"

She was like oh fuck, someone told on me and I am fucked! We get there, and he just needed us to fill out some stupid paper work. I HAD TO TAKE A UA! WTF? I passed it, but it still pissed me off. It's never fun to get UA'd.

So anyway, I did well resisting Nina. She is pretty attractive, very curvy, and just overall sexy and cool chick. I could have taken advtantage and hooked up, but I did the spiritual thing to do, and helped her as much as I could without thinking of myself.

So, everything is ok, and she got away with it, and will be at work tomorrow. I'm going to have a long talk with her, but if she aint ready, she aint ready. All I can do is my best, but I can't let it effect my recovery.

ugh. Stressed. At least I did the right thing.

sometimes life aint fair, but at least im sober
 
Always here for ya SS. You can PM me anytime you'd like as I know you'd do the same for me. I applaud you for continuing your recovery even when "no one is looking" kind of situation. Takes a lot of strength and integrity as I don't know if I could have done what you did lol.
 
soundsystem00 said:
So anyway, I did well resisting Nina. She is pretty attractive, very curvy, and just overall sexy and cool chick. I could have taken advtantage and hooked up, but I did the spiritual thing to do, and helped her as much as I could without thinking of myself.
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You are a better man than I.
 
Serotonin101 said:
Always here for ya SS. You can PM me anytime you'd like as I know you'd do the same for me. I applaud you for continuing your recovery even when "no one is looking" kind of situation. Takes a lot of strength and integrity as I don't know if I could have done what you did lol.
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Thanks man. I like you. No homo.

omen_owen mk2 said:
You are a better man than I.
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Not true.

rx_prn said:
No. I missed it! :\
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There's always next Monday.



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Today makes 13 months sober!
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Lol no homo indeed. I like you too bud. Might take a trip down south come see some recovery down there.
 
Nina was a lot more tame today. Kind of on the depressed side. I cheered her up tho and we talked. A lot of silence. The comfortable kind tho. She's pretty easy going and relaxed. She is a native to Dallas so she told me a lot of stuff about the city and cool places to go.

There's some place called "pocket play" or something where they serve you pocket sized sandwiches and put on plays for you. She invited me to go. It seems strange but maybe ill check it out.

I made a few amends today to some people I was holding resentments towards. That stuffs important because resentment is very dangerous.
 
Some of the stories I heard tonight were so amazing, I almost cried a few times. Then I had dinner with a group of people that I've developed really good relationships with over the past 2 years. Feeling super grateful to be sober right now.
 
Got a job interview tomorrow. Bout time this retired junkie make some money! I got a sober crew who wants to hit the strip club, since I never been to one :/
 
soundsystem00 said:
Sober crew and strip club...

Interesting.
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Its one of those "coming of age" things that I never did. I got clean at 20 so I never got to go to one. Should come up and join us :P ill send out an invite when I make them up. Not spending money on dope or drinks means more money for the stripping! Bring yo sweatpants!
 
They are full of drugs and women/men with tons of emotional trauma. Very negative places if you ask me.
 
Mehm said:
They are full of drugs and women/men with tons of emotional trauma. Very negative places if you ask me.
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Yeah.. Exactly. Just be careful serotonin.

Well, I'm speaking at a rehab Sunday. I'm pretty nervous. I'm horrible at speaking but I need to get my feet wet. I may be able to pick up some sponsee's too. I'm going to write a general outline to go by in case I lock up.
 
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