Simple truths

'We faced two choices: either we suffered the pain of withdrawal or took more drugs'
--Basic Text, Sixth Edition p25

Its as simple as that.

How long can one delay the inevitable? The longer I delay, the more damage I incur. Someday I'll learn to accept the simple realities of life.

 

I can only guess since at least with me you seem to close off emotionally. Shit I do that with everyone so I get it..
There is one thing that I do know for fucking sure, you don't deserve any form of self inflected damage, harm whatever you choose to call it. Anything that has happened in the past either during our time in recovery or time spent on a run it's the same. It's still the past there isn't anything you can do to change it now and anyone even remotely involved would tell you nine times outta ten that they wouldn't want to see you damaged you harmed in any fashion.